Chapter 10:
If You Really Love Me, Then You Should Love Yourself First!
“Wait, so. You’re saying that this girl is the one who caused this and from the beginning, not only Touka-chan is also you, but also she doesn’t exist!?”
With hestitation and Shiro beside me, I said to him, “Yes. It is.”
With the same angry face, Kai is sitting in the sofa.
I’m sorry my friend. But you have to know.
OK…….now, you’re wondering how Kai is in my apartment, angry and of course, Shiro is here.
Well, I mean, Kai is angry and heartbroken.--------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------
The day is yesterday, 8-ish PM, well….. it’s right after I edited Kai’s situation.
Shiro, Rina and Touka is playing a boardgame in the living room.
The PC somehow moved into my room. So, I got 2 PC and one console in the room.
How about me? Well, preparing food to these 3 and myself. I know Rina palate, Touka of course is the same as me, Shiro on the other hand……well, I guess she doesn’t have a choice.
“OK, now it is done. I hope I’m not doing something that forbidden.” Say me to Shiro, double checking myself for editing my own best friend heart feelings.
“Oh, no. You’re alright. This is my fault after all. But to be honest, at first, One doing this because One is little bit bored.”
“Huh!?” “Huh!?” “Huh!?”
We stopped for a second, but it feels like more.
Wait, so all of this happened because of God bored!?
I’m sure human makes a great history good or bad from the simplest way as possible. But in God level too!???
Oh well, I mean someone has to copy from something.
“I’m sorry. But I swear, I don’t hope this is happening. I just want granting Souta and Rina’s wishes. I know. I know this going to happened. Somebody had already warned me about this. Ugh-“
Touka, hug her almost immediately, because I……also Touka, knew what it is. When someone is rambling, put all mistakes into themselves and almost shaken up, I don’t know this also occurred to god or not, but, usually, it’s definitely a panic attack.
“There, there. Calm yourself down, Shiro-san. Don’t take all of it to yourself.”
I pat Shiro through Touka. I can feel Shiro’s trembling. She’s scared. I don’t know what happened to her. But I don’t want to ask it to her, for now.
Shiro, who is in Touka’s hug, crying hard and fall in the floor, but Touka still follow her, while still hugging.
“There, there. Let it all out.”
Me and Rina seeing this, making us wonder, what happened with Shiro in her past.
For a while we standing still, watching Touka patting Shiro, calmed her down. It takes a while to Shiro compose herself, but when she’s done, she apologized.
“One’s sorry, for showing One weakness. But, yeah………It’s a bad memories in One past. Even One’s know that, ‘I’m not alone’ anymore, both in here and in One own dimension. But,……”
She smiling to us, “…… Can you forget a far time trauma?”
We all shake our head, saying ‘no’ to her.
“Right. Now, One want to explain when I say ‘bored’. It’s not what’re you thinking. It’s different. What I mean ‘bored’ is I want to make this world a better place. Well, my first step is of course, granting someone wishes.”
Rina ask a stabbing question to her, “So this is your first time?”
Shiro shake her head, “No, this is not my first time. In fact, One almost grant 1 million wishes.”
What the….
“But this is the first time the wish is going haywire. Even to me, One still don’t know how to analyze it, let alone to repair this.”
Then, Shiro pointing to the PC that she emerged. “Even with that and someone who actually know to change it, One can’t actually pinpoint the trouble,….or you can call it ‘bug’. We know it’s somewhere between in the code, but we can’t do anything about it for now.”
So, we are ‘doomed’ at that points.
I want to ask Shiro something, “Uuumm……Shiro-san?”
“Yeah, Touka? What do you want to ask?”
“Umm, when you say ‘bug’, so that mean, we expect to something crazy next?”
“Maybe. I hope not, for all people sanity. For ensuring this, after this, I want to call somebody, who know anything about this. So, until then, let me rest first.”
Shiro went to the sofa and relaxing herself.
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It’s in the morning and we already in the class…….. working the surprise test by the teacher.
Onii-chan.~ I’m tired~. Can you do all the test while I sleep. Pweeaty pweeaaseee~?
We already talked about this. If I worked it through you, that means it’s still you.
I know, but can you make it?
No means no, Touka.
Onii-chan, you meanie~.
As usual, she hate the test, but not the subject itself. She’s already weird on her own. Maybe she’s one of my hidden conscious. Hidden deep inside me all time.
*Ding dong*
Finally, rest time for me.
“Alright class, test is over. Give your answer sheet to front of you. See you at the class tomorrow.”
With the teach is collecting all of our answer sheets, this test is officially over.
Kai, is stretching himself, “Aaaahhh……my head is like blowing out when I worked it on”
“You guys is not studying enough you know. Especially you Kai. I know what you’ve been through. But that doesn’t mean you can slack off whenever you like.” Rina is scolding us.
“Buuuuuttt~.”
“No buts Kai. You know it!”
“Yeaaaahhh, OK~”
I giggle as Touka, seeing Rina scolding Kai more.
“Ah, By the way, Onii-chan. Did you want to ask something to Kai?”
“Something about what?” Kai confused about Touka question to me.
“Ah, that one. Later, after school.”
“Okay. Whatever you say Onii-chan.”
The moment of truth to us is about to begin.
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We sat in the sofa while Touka in her room, listening/eavesdropping us.
“So, in school said you want to talk about something. Now, what do you want to say?”
I explain to him every detail of what happened to me 5 days ago.
“So, what are you trying to say is…… Touka and you is the same person and my first love is actually Nina rather than your sister?”
I nod my head. Kai is confused. Of course he is. Normally.
“Wait, so that’s why my feeling since last night is convoluting.”
“What do you mean?”
There Shiro voice out of nowhere, answering Kai’s question“It means he is experiencing two feelings at the same time?”
“What’s that noise?” Kai startled.
Shiro is materializing in front of us. Making Kai scared. Well, at this point I’m used to her antics.
“This is me. Souta already introduced me in his story.”
“Y….You are Shiro?”
“Indeed it is.”
“W….wh….what….how-“
I stopped Kai to his own question.
“She is a god. No question ask. I mean, with her power help, I can’t change your feeling to your intended feeling.”
“I…I mean, no offense buddy. But, are you sure she’s the one-“
Before Kai finished his sentence, Shiro cut him, “Ah, that’s rude to saying that in front of the god herself. I know what do you want to say, young man.”
“Anyway, where Touka? I want to see her room.”
I answer it through Touka, and opened the door, “Here, Shi-chan. You can come in.”
“Yeay, I want to know what game you play Touka.”
Shiro run to Touka room and Touka close the door to give me and Kai a space to talk.
“Ok, this is a roller coaster man. Once a person out of nowhere appear in front of us, claming herself as a god, and become a child who want to play with Touka.”
“Yeah, I mean, she’s the one who calmed Shiro down, yesterday.”
“Wait…..what happened?”
“Well……”
Here we go again….the story of yesterday.
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