The Starting Point

My name is Blob.

No, not really. That's just my username. But hey, this name is mine. I mean, sure. The word "blob" and its definition doesn't belong to me, but ChocoBlob is my username and no one is going to take it away from me! Not unless it is possible by law or something. But for now, I'll worry less about that and start thinking about my new identity. Back to my introduction.

My name is Blob. I am a girl just like anybody. I like chocolate and noodles and I like to chill and think about romance. I was born in a modern life with computers and weird internet stuff. But it's comfortable and there are lot of things I like there. Yeah...there.

Have you guys ever watched animes where someone starts a new life in a new world? And like, they usually have to defeat the demon lord or something like that? Well, I think that is what's happening to me. Except that I am just a background character!

Am I mad? Nooooo...! As a coward myself, I am glad that I don't have to fight a big bad. But as a background character who is self-aware that might end up as one of the unfortunate souls that will die from the catastrophe or one of the danger of this world? I am terribly worried to die so soon before I can even become a powerful mage or a fisherman lvl 100.

What? I like fishing! In games at least. I mean, I've fished before but thinking about poking a hole in a living creature even if I will eat them later makes me feel bad. Heck! Eating them makes me feel bad already! But don't get me wrong, I can still enjoy a good double-cheeseburger, and a fat lamb's neck.

All right! Enough monologuing! In case you don't know, I do that a lot. Probably because I am lonely. I have to do something about this life!

My starting status is...parentless. Great. No one to do my chores and teach me the basic of life. That's fine, that's fine. I'm more worried about the part that I don't have my family to feel safe with. I care about and appreciate my family even if I'm spoiled and ungrateful, ya know. As much as I'd like to cry, I got no time to! I could die at any moment! And I got no shoulder to cry on. So that's just sad.

My starting point is...the middle of a forest. ARE YOU KIDDING ME?! YOU WANT ME TO GET LOST OR WHAT?! No map. No orientation. No guide/guardian/someone to rely on. The F*CK do you want me to do all alone?!

Please tell me that I have a skill menu. Tell me that it's a game and that if I die, I can either respawn or load the last saved file. I can't die like this from worthlessness of my lack of any competence or skill! Technically, I can. But I don't want to.

With much desperation, I imagined a game menu. And it appeared.

"Yes!" I said with my celebratory gesture. "Okay, 'kay, 'kay. What's this? Name and last name? Ey! Character creation!"

I input [ChocoBlob] as first name and [Blobshnert] as last name.

"... Yeah... That's definitely a username and not a real set of names. Should I go for something else? But I'm not good with actual names. Like, I want it to be something that is the identity I choose and want to be. I don't want to put my real name. But if I put that for now, what if I can't change later?" I said as I read the details. "[Your identity can be changed at any time.] ... YES!" I celebrated with the gesture again. "Take this, inflexible games limited by their lack of realism! I could call myself Eggs Benedict and still come out scot-free! I mean, I'm sorry that you didn't think about or couldn't make your game more realistic about the flexibility of identity change, or that you chose that on purpose. But that's what I prefer! I am not defined by one name! I can be defined by as much names and identities as I want!"

That's what I'm saying but honestly, I only need one name.

All right, then. What's next? Cool. I'm level 0. Is that even possible? I mean, you at least start at level 1 in games, right? RIGHT?! SO WHY THE F*CK IS IT LEVEL 0! Whoa! Hey! Hey! I'm sorry! Don't make it a -1! Why is a game menu playing humour on me?! And why this kind of humour?! Am I the game menu?! Either way, It looks like I got some points to spend on some base stats. How many I got? 7?! What do you want me to do with that?! Put 1 on each base stats?! Even Fallout gave me 21! Which is... *I try to count with my fingers.* 7... 14... 15, 16, 17, 18, 19, 20, 21... 3 each? And I'm stuck having only 1 stat each or less?! *sigh!* Fine. I am putting 1 on each. Like, what is that? Am I really RPying starting life in a skill leveling world? Well, in this case, I am not playing any role. I AM LIVING IT!

Evidently, I have no wealth or any kind of possession. Ugh... Do I have to go find a job?! They probably have minor tasks like, I dunno, collect herbs? I would prefer those over an actual job or slaying monsters. But seriously, how do I start with nothing? I didn't even know what to do before. I wouldn't know any better now. If only I had someone to help me.

"Hey, what are you doing here?" A voice asked.

All I needed was to ask!

"It's not safe to wander here so late. Are you crying?" They asked upon seeing the tears that were dripping down my chin.

Yeah... I was crying.

The man led me out of the forest as I tell him what I could tell.

"So, you got lost in the forest and don't remember anything? On top of that, you have nothing to survive on?" The man recapped what I had told him.

I nodded.

"I could bring you to the nearby village. They should have jobs to offer. I'm sure the people there are willing to help you."

I nodded again.

The man took me to the town and left me in the care of the head of the village. The old man asked me lot of questions to get to know me better and figure out how to help me.

"I'll see what I can do. But for now, I can at least find you a place to stay and some job offers since you are new to this."

The old man took me to an inn and talked to the owner. The village chief then left me to the inn lady. Can y'all not leave me to a new stranger every minute?!

"It's okay, dearie. I'll house you till you can take care of yourself." She wiped my tears and sat me down at one of the tables. She then came back with a mushroom stew and some water. "Here, hydrate yourself."

I drank the water and thanked her. I don't typically like mushrooms but I appreciate her kindness. I began eating the stew. It's not bad.

The inn lady then gave me a room to sleep in. I can rest for now. But only for some time. I'm thankful that I was given much help. But I don't know if I can do it. If I can become independent. I'm scared. I don't know who I can talk to or how to talk to anyone. I'm lazy and give up easily. I don't even try first and don't listen or learn. Life isn't even that tough to me but I'm making it more difficult for myself by being me.

I want to go home...