Volume 1 Chapter 1 : "Why did life feel like death"

"In some lab, there is a trembled voice"

"I am dying 99th time in this world, and the interesting thing is that I am dying 95 times by none other than by my real mother, who was dead".

"Let's start from zero".

"My name is Shin Tomoko ".

"I am the son of a famous company leader, also known as being rich. His name is Somoko Hinso".

"He had a love marriage with my mother. He can do anything for his wife".

"He is kindhearted, he always cared about his wife and his only child, which is me, of course".

"My father and mother were kind-hearted, they always forgave everyone easily. He even asked her servant so nicely. Every time, if a servant did something wrong."

"They only say, 'don't worry, it can be solved next time right.

"He even says her servant".Hey, you have a fever, you need to rest. Go and rest and don't worry about your salary, we will not cut it.

"But when I was 4 years old, he started to come home late, and the reason was that he was always busy at his work. After all, he is the biggest company owner".

"And one day, when I was alone at home with my caretaker because my mother was at her some urgent work, someone entered our home".

"His face was covered with a mask; on that mask, there was a finger pointing left".

"He said, " Hey, listen, just give me this kid and I will surely leave you untouched".

The caretaker was sacred, but she didn't give me to her, "she said. I can't give you, young master, any way.

He said. "Oh so be ready to die"

"He killed my caretaker ".

"Now I was in her hand, he was going to kill me with the knife, but then the door opened".

It was my mother, "she said," what is going on here, you. How did you get here? no way

Leave my child now "

"He said, " I can't leave your son, I have to kill your son, if I didn't, then there would be nothing correct.

"She started to grab the knife from him, but while she was grabbing it, the knife was placed at her stomach".

"He started shouting, and then after shouting, he started crying. He was crying like he had some deep connection with my mother"

" My mother whispered in that man's ears "

"I was unable to listen to what she said but after that, he stopped crying and ran out of the house"

When my father found out about my mother's death. They did many things only to find the murderer of his wife so that he could kill him.

"In the end, he couldn't find him". But they didn't lose hope, they tried for a whole month to find him. He skipped dinner, breakfast, and everything.

"After one month of searching, he had a fever, but he was the leader of the company, so he had to be in the company too. He went to his company, and then he collapsed on the company stairs.

"When he woke up beside her, she was her manager. She was deeply in love with my father. Seeing him like this broke her heart, so she started crying".

"Seeing her like this Dad said sorry to her manager at that moment manager told his feelings to my dad"

"I love you you know it but you wouldn't listen to my feelings right Please stop this stop torching yourself please If your wife were alive she would of course be angry with you"

"My dad was in shock but then he said" Well I am very happy to hear this from you well so now let me say this will you marry me "

Tears from his eyes." She said," Yes, of course I will do.

"Like this, they become a married couple in a single week"

"Then after a whole month, he came home and said one thing only," Hey Iraka, from today, you will be the only one there; there will be no one else, only you will take care of my son in this home. I am moving to another house.

"Iraka was a butler of my father he had hired him after the marriage of her and my stepmother he was very old and he was very cold with all in our house he didn't talk much with others Some people were saying he was an assassin once"

"Then Father left home without taking anything with him"

" When he left I started crying "

"Then Butler looked at me with a very cold and dangerous look on his face "

"I was scared of that look." Well, of course, even if any other kid were in my place, they would do the same.

"Then he took me to the room and sat on the sofa and played something on the screen it was anime or I say 18+ anime which usually kids don't watch because of adult things like dirty jokes, violence, etc"

"At first I was scared, but after 1st episode finished, I was happy. Then he said to me Now it's dinner time but you know, after watching the 1st episode, who will stop? So I said in baby language, No, I want anime."

"This was my first time I spoke and the first letter was no I want anime and this was not beside my mother or father it was beside the butler "

"He sees me with a dangerous look for a moment, then he starts laughing. Next moment, he becomes like some joker. Now he was acting completely different from before it was like personalities switched"

"Hey, you know what? From now on, your name will be Sugimoto Kimora. It's better, and it will be easy to say from now on, I will call you this".

"Well, like I said before, he turned in joker mode, he gave me the name of his favorite anime character. Well, I can't say I don't like it, in fact, I love it".

"Like this, we had our fun sitting on the sofa watching anime ".

But after 2 months butler got a call from my father "He said" Hey I want to tell you something"

"Butler said," What do you want to talk about?

"Dad said " From now on my house is yours because you did like I said Now you can leave her in some orphanage and return to serve me in my new home "

Butler was shocked. "He said," What you did said he is your son, right? How can you do that to him?

"Dad answered with a cold personality." Listen, from now on, he is no longer my son. I have told all that he is dead.

"So it will be better for you to throw him in some orphanage, got it, and return to your duty in my new house from tomorrow, got it Then cut the call."

"My butler saw me with a sad look on his face, then he shifted to his joker personality again, "he said to me," Hey, from tomorrow you will go to school.

"I already heard my dad's words but I kept my mouth quiet I was thinking he would throw me in an orphanage in the name of school"

Next morning

"He took me to a school and enrolled me". I was confused why he would do this, then suddenly I heard him say that I am her grandson and he said he will return to take me when he gets a break.

"Then I got into school and learned new things"

"After the end of class, he came to take me and then he took me to his brother's son's house and told him to take care o,f me, then he left".

"His brother's son at first looked at me with a serious face then asked me my name When I told her my real name he was in that same look"

"But after I told her the name, Butler gave me, he turned into Joker like Butler. he started to be very nice to me. He speaks gently to me. He said he is living alone and that he is not married."

At that time, "he asked me," did uncle do the same with you too.

"I said " me too?

"Yes I was like you but that idiot uncle made me an otaku"

"I asked" otaku?

"Then he explained to me what otaku means"

"So that's what otaku means"

"He grabbed my hand then took me into the living room" played 18+ content that is not allowed for children like me to see"

"He told me everything about 18+ things" even that joker showed me his 18+ magazine. Seriously, man, who shows an 18+ magazine to a 5-year-old kid and tells him about what happened between women and men?

"Like this, my most beautiful moments ended I fell asleep then when I woke up in front of me was a butler who was in her brother's stupid son's house scolding him to show me 18+ magazines"

"Well I thought it could happen but instead he was saying Why didn't you give him that magazine which I gifted you at your 4th birthday"

"Man seriously he was like some freaking joker"

"But the moment of happiness was for just a few years".

"After 1 year his brother's son was murdered by someone he was not crying in his eyes After a whole 1 year, a,r I saw the dangerous look on his face instead of a joker face but after a few minutes he calmed down "

"After one week he turned fully normal"

"I had many friends in school, also many girls said they liked me. I was very intelligent in my studies, and I was always number one in the whole school".

"But sometimes what we see and hear is wrong".

One day, when I got to school. I heard what I wish I hadn't. "My friends badmouthed me"

" Hey, you, you know I hate that guy, I mean, see her, he always says sorry, did I do something wrong, forgive me, and many more things".

"Yeah, dude, you are saying the truth. I mean, we were being a little close to him, and he started thinking as a friend, no way".

"Enough guys stop badmouthing about him"

"Shiori, I knew it, she is the best friend I could ever ask for".

"Now no badmouthing only see this"

"My friends started to say out loud in class"

"Hey hey class attention Shiori has another video of him"

What? "Really I am coming"

"Seriously after 2 days, you have come up with a new video now this time which video is it the one where he was going to the toilet, or where he was going to slip on stairs huh"

"Well, this time is a big thing, you know what I have got the video of where some boys bullied him. "By the way, I asked them to do this.

"Seriously you are so cruel Shiori she considers you as her best friend"

"Huh, best friend, why would I become his best friend? No way?" she laughed.

"No way this can't be she is my best friend why why did she do this"

" At that time, I opened the door and just sat in my seat. I ignored everyone talking.

"After I returned home, I was silent". My butler asked me what happened when I told her the full story he hugged me gently like a grandfather. At that moment I cried very loudly.

"After that, we started to have more fun. Like this, we spent happy moments for 4 years, then my butler, whom I called my grandfather, was murdered too".At that moment in my heart, I felt nothing but a very large weight.

"So after that, I have no one beside me.

I go to school, then get home and sit in a place where my butler and I used to sit to watch anime".

"But now I start watching alone. I was feeling very lonely because I had no one besides me now. About money, it was his pension that was coming to me. My dad was unknown to this, but the butler had no grandson; it was I, her real son".

"Like this, when I turned 17, the Pension stopped coming, then I started a part-time job in a convenience store".

"I became a boy who is just as stupid as a pig. Hair mess, dark holes under eyes, because no one cared about my personality".

"One day, when I was going out of my convenience store to get home, a truck behind me was going to hit me".

Well, looks like my story is going to start right? " It is Truck Kun after all, the one biggest plot of isekai anime." I saw that Truck Kun had a face.

"The next moment, I wake up in another world, but not in my own body, but in a dead boy's body".

"When I woke up, there were many monsters beside me. I was going to run, but then one of them killed me. The next moment, I woke up, and I was regenerated. Then I tried to run, but I was killed. Then I woke up again, being regenerated automatically, and was alive again. But was killed again".

After waking up the 5th time, I saw a lady with a white coat beside me. When I completely opened my eyes, I was in some lab. But in that moment the lady was the thing that made me cry.

Because she was none other than my mother who had died in my world.

I was going to say, but I remembered if I said she would die another time because of me, so I didn't say anything, but I was unaware that I was going to be tortured.

From banri tada .: if you like it let me know your thoughts in comment. Next chapter will release this sunday