Couldn't you have been immortal?

SOO-A

I do as I had planned since I finished watching the second of their lives together.
I go to an internet cafe,thinking it may do me better to hear voices,rel life people about me to keep me grounded from dealing with this surreal event of viewing my parents.
Living and dying.
Over and over.....
"For me..."

I take what I had joted down before,adding the more I saw later because I could not sleep after watching what i had.
Touching a pink and jade sash I witness a life of two thieves that happened to be trying to steal the same jeweled sword from a Japanese warlord during the early warring states period(how did they get to japan??)and they both were forced to kill each other,only having briefly a moment to actually talk together they in that life,Always seemed to find each other and like in the others I witness last night they always could not be anything other than simply magnetized by each other.

A sash of crimson and white happened to be a life where mom witness the murder of a chinese princess that visited here when we were still paying them tributes,dad only was to be sent to be an a man servant but saw her terrified running away.
Mom took a death of whipping for his life,she could have gotten away and he if not only he would have left the caravan to fulfill the arrangement he could have lived but he died soon after from what many thought was a brain tumor taking him but I saw his eyes.
He died the moment she did just his body did not catch up till a week later.

More and more that night I watched,it is nearly noon when I came to this cafe and I am drinking more mocha mint chip lattes than is healthy but I am obsessed...

Later

"Dad,mom.I think we need to talk,I brought our favorite pepper popcorn and the blueberry soda you have to have dad..."I laugh as I remember the times where they would have to have,
"IMPORTANT TALKS" and dad would always have these snacks by so that if anyone were to almost say something too mean or too angry or too far we would stuff our mouths until we were calm again.
"I hadn't had these since I was fourteen.Remember mom?I could not get over how you and dad wouldn't let me go to the arcade but I did not know then about the rapist who hung out there that hadn't been caught yet,how he went after girls like me.How you both were with the group helping the authorities to find him."
"You know....I snuck out once to go,it was grounded for a year kind of late, I went and it only had a few people there and I saw the guy.That guy tried so hard to get me alone,by the bathroom stalls....."I shiver recalling the memory.
"But dad,somehow you just knew I was there,you punched him and got the authorities there in time....not an hour later you bought me an ice cream and I asked you'Why didn't you tell mom?Am I forever going to be grounded for this?'i promise you I thought that you would never forgive me but you looked at me and said in a whisper."
"You got scared.Right?Well the lesson appears to be learned and if I told your mother she would thrash you for disobedience and me for not letting her get to beat that snake up.Eat your candy chip ice cream,we will go home my little grumpy kitty...."

My eyes start to flood,all the things you begin to forget about in adult hood always seem to make an appearance after the main adults in your life begin to go away.

"Why go through all of this for me?"I ask there tombstones,looking away to the bright mid-day sun and trying to let the breeze cool me as i chew a large mouthful of popcorn and my dads favorite soda.

"Why?I am not worth it......"