Chapter 1:

Chapter 1

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Bright white light illuminates the corridor, the sound of wheels on stretchers being dragged and people everywhere whispering. Bookmark here

-Will be all right. (?) Bookmark here

-I hope so. (?) Bookmark here

-You will see, soon, soon, we will be sitting in a park enjoying the view. While an angel runs with a big smile on his face around the trees. (?) Bookmark here

Her face had changed, the worry was gone, she smiles a little and discreetly and I continue. Bookmark here

-And you know what else? You will get his attention, telling him not to run so much so he doesn't fall and get hurt, and I will say "leave him Rochely, he's just having fun like any kid". (?)Bookmark here

-You know, I always loved that side of you, you always see things in a positive way Logan. (Rochely) Bookmark here

The world started to spin more slowly at that moment, just like the first time we met. I continue with the same silly mania from that time, looking into his eyes, losing myself in his world, and wondering if he would ever be mine. Bookmark here

-Did you ever think what his name will be? (Rochely) Bookmark here

His simple words put me back in reality and the world goes on normally. Bookmark here

-I didn't think of any, because whatever name I chose you would reject and put one that you thought. (Logan) Bookmark here

-Hahahaha, this is not entirely true, I accept your opinions. (Rochely) Bookmark here

-Cleiton. (Logan) Bookmark here

-What? Hahahaha, we will not name our son Cleiton. (Rochely) Bookmark here

-You see, you always do that. (Logan) Bookmark here

We started to laugh a little remembering the things that happened until now, until we stopped and a silence permeated, I start looking in your eyes and before I get lost again in your world I ask. Bookmark here

-So, what is the name are you thinking to put? (Logan) Bookmark here

-Hmmm, you know I was thinking of a big name for him, I was thinking of putting Arthur. (Rochely)Bookmark here

-I liked, Arthur of the medieval stories of King Arthur, a little boy who lived on the streets, but with a big heart. Only he manages to remove the legendary Excalibur sword, thus becoming king. (Logan) Bookmark here

-Yes, just like in the stories, a little boy ... (Rochely) Bookmark here

-But with a big heart. (Logan and Rochely) Bookmark here

-Sir, it's time to start. (doctor) Bookmark here

-Ok, we're going. (Logan) Bookmark here

He returns to the operating room to wait for us inside. I look at Rochely and there was no longer a worried look on her, she had a serene face, just waiting for my words. Bookmark here

-Let's go dear? Our son is waiting for us. (Logan) Bookmark here

-Ok. (Rochely) Bookmark here

I hold her hand and smile, she smiles back at me, it was time for us to go, I let go of her hand and start pushing her stretcher over to the nurses. Bookmark here

The surgery starts, the doctors didn't stop for a minute, I was watching, unable to do anything, my sweet Rochely was suffering while giving birth to our boy, but she was always a strong woman, much stronger than me, I knew that she would handle it, my faith in her told me it would be okay. A few hours of surgery passed, but for me it had been an eternity and it seemed that it would take another eternity, until a small cry illuminates my hopes. It was so small and looked so fragile, the nurse who was holding it came towards me and handed it to me, I held it it weighed almost nothing, but my arms felt like they were holding something big like a whole world, I knew in that moment that this was my world, that was where I got lost in my wife's eyes and wondered if I would ever have it. Bookmark here

-Look Rochely, our boy, our boy was born. He is not handsome? (Logan) Bookmark here

-Hunf ... he is ... beautiful ... (Rochely) Bookmark here

Something was wrong, she didn't look too good. Bookmark here

-Rochely? (Logan) Bookmark here

-Sir something is wrong, her heart rate is slowing. (doctor) Bookmark here

At that moment I felt a tremor, as if the world was in ruins and falling apart. Bookmark here

Desperate... Bookmark here

-Rochely? Hey Rochely please answer me. (Logan) Bookmark here

Afraid... Bookmark here

-Please don't leave me Rochely. (Logan) Bookmark here

Feeling that the worst would happen...Bookmark here

-Look at him, isn't it beautiful? (Logan)Bookmark here

All I got was just a smile.Bookmark here

-Yes ... he's beautiful ... but I'm a little ... tired now ... I think I'm going to sleep a little ... (Rochely)Bookmark here

-No Rochely, you can't sleep now! Hold tight. Hey Rochely! Rochely! Rochely! (Logan)Bookmark here

I kept calling his name, while his eyes were closing, until it was all over, like a sound of a stretched rope being cut to indicate the end of a life. The heartbeat no longer captured any more from Rochely. That sound that machine made began to penetrate my mind, the doctors running and screaming in despair, everything was over, the world started to spin more slowly, even though I was not looking into his eyes, even though I was not lost in his world. That distressing sensation, all that noise, my face being filled with tears without realizing it, it was all over for me, I close my eyes. I keep hearing those noises until a powerful crash appears.Bookmark here

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I open my eyes and see nothing, just the same scene and the same noises, until it is repeated again.Bookmark here

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Where could all this noise be coming from?Bookmark here

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Where?Bookmark here

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I keep looking until my eyes find him, I was looking at my son.Bookmark here

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I slowly approach my ear to his chest until I touch him.Bookmark here


All that noise disappeared, I could just hear your heart, little by little the noise was calming me down.Bookmark here


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