Chapter 26

Nina

Dear diary,

Tomorrow is the opening evening for the exhibition. I have found what to wear, and I believe I’m as prepared as I can be. I haven’t heard much from Mel, but she told me she would pick me up at seven.

Oh, I wish I could tell you I didn’t want to go, but I would be lying if I did. I do not know how to behave in a crowd, but the thought of seeing Mel and spending the evening with her is occupying my thoughts more and more. I’ve tried to tell myself that that kind of life is no longer mine and I shouldn’t reach for it, but I can no longer control my thoughts.

I’ve even started planning what to tell her afterwards and what I can suggest so we can meet again. I do not know if it’s the right thing to do, and I really should think about what I’m doing, but every time I try, my thoughts wander, and I come to no conclusion. I wish you could answer me and give me your advice, but alas, that is not possible.

I need to rest now. Wish me luck, and I hope I do not make a fool of myself.