ITAMI NO TANJO/BIRTH OF PAIN.

NICHIBOTSU

I was born under a blood moon.
Cursed over a natural occurrence.

Can a world like this truly be worth it to remain as it currently is?
I asked myself this as centuries passed,asked myself this as I remember my old self too.

I was a thief because I had no choice
A beggar when I thought I had a shot at a honest meal and a thief to those that wanted to make a meal out of my personal well being and I hated them all,Yet I never wanted to do more than just disappear.

Just to disappear.

1570,FUKUI.

"Kill that demon child!She will be our deaths,blood moon children are cursed...."

I am being cradled in my father's arms,he has such a tight hold and it hurts so much I am crying even louder but he just holds on tighter to me as he runs so far up the path toward the cemetery.
The cries of the villagers are increasing and my ears are hurting so I close them up to the point that my ears pop so whatever my father screams to me goes unheard as he hides me in the deepest part of the woods just beyond mothers grave.

A place no one cares to tread,not even a marker for her except a flower basket that father leaves every week hidden by the brook where I am now being placed in a hole he dug a few days ago,I helped him.

I can not hear him but I can just barely make out his eyes in the dusk now.
He is weeping.

"Why?What is happening?Father??!"

I start to scream but he hits me hard in the jaw,crying the harder but my mouth hurts so much I cannot cry out and he hastily wiping my face leaving his hands bloody.
I see torches and some glowing lights reflecting off the swords they hold.
Are they after me?

"Father...don't go...I will be good I promise,I didn't hurt anyone!"

My screaming words fail to be heard from the pain in my jaw,he looks back to me after rising up and says something I can not hear then I can tell he screams something then runs well past the brook and the villagers follow after him hard and fast.
I try to rise up and follow but I am only five years old and too short to reach up.

Father?
Father?
"Father!!"

1582,KYOTO

I was pulled up two days later by a pickpocket who had an idea that a small girl with big eyes and small hands would come in handy to get him lots of coin,he tossed me a rice ball that he dropped on the ground.
I never had anything so delicious even to this day as that grass riddled rice ball.

His name was Okaniri,he may have been a thief and a liar but he was one of only four people that had ever loved me in my whole life.

He tried to keep me from seeing the body of my father but I screamed so much and so hard to see my father after he pulled me out that he relented,Okaniri did have the kindness to hide my fathers broken,mangled body but later when I learned how to use my will I saw what they did to my father because of what they thought I was.
What they thought I did.

They paid for that sin and for that mistake with their lives and the lives of their descendants as well,but I am getting ahead of myself.

Aren't I?
My time has been long and I am beginning to forget my timelines,so many of them now...


My life in Fukui had ended that day,my next years until I turned seventeen would become nothing but thieving and toying with others that thought I was trash.

Honestly,if I really think about it now I kind of understand why I was thought of that  way but being a demon for a time of birth?
For someone seeing me then dying?

I only thought about it for a moment,seeing that boy die.
But thinking something in anger is not the same as doing so,that little child of a Lord did so to that boy.
So angry that the boy had always looked on me,even as children I believe he looked on at me as his one love but that girl wanted to marry a future Lord,a great warrior he may have been if he had not eyes for me.

She used her toy and smashed the pointy end into his temple and screamed to everyone that the "Demon girl did it!"
I was only just taking my father's laundry to the river,I did not even know she was there or that boy until I heard him scream.

None of that really matters.

Now I am here...back again in Fushimi Ward.
A month before my happiness is born and a year before it ended.

"I am coming,my love it is almost enough now. Just she and I have one more timeline left and I will have us happy forever.All four of us,I swear it."