YOAKE/DAWN

NICHIBOTSU

My memories are indeed changing rapidly,going through life after life has left me not properly thinking on the details anymore.

Here I am watching Nagreboshi,the last time he will know calm and joy as he works a field that tonight he will realize he can never inherit,he kneels and happily takes weed after weed after weed from the plant garden to help his Grandmother that joyfully thrust his work to the fire when my love was thrown out for his lineage.

I hate all of this for him,I never really talked to any soul about him,I go through life after life to feel all the good feelings with him again and to train my littlest hope to be the strongest she can be for our goal.
She promised she would do anything for me,these words when she was barely able to say Ga'ma,it did not change even when I talked to her each year until....

Until that awful day happened to her,I never would have known the depths of my own will until that....truly awful day began, leaving me alone of any ally in life and if I could defy it.
Even in death.

Now I can do something about it,I finally have enough power to stop tonight from occuring after one more awful string of tomorrows.

Now though,Nagareboshi walks towards me,hand slightly bloodied from his overly hasty manner of weeding which he does purposely to achieve the goal of passive hand holding which I humor happily,this era has the best means by far in my eyes in comparison to Sakuras era.

Too bold,too forward.

This passive behavior that pitifully died in him is all I really needed to survive lifetimes of waiting hundreds of years to love and die again for.

"What is the matter?You look as though you have ridden to a far away land in your mind and left me here by myself.I know I am not a fun sort but am I not better than something only a mind can craft?"

I smirk at him,he had no way with words but some how that is more endearing to me than any banter,I had banter but no love from another.
All he knew was how to force himself upon me and talk sweetly.

If I had not needed at the time a way to save Nagareboshi I would have just sliced off the part in question but I had a greater goal.
The life of one love and the future birth and my other love.

Every sin,every lost life,every action makes these two worth it in my mind.

Nagareboshi,that blunt man,he will not even move an inch until I reply to him,which I take full advantage of as the sun sets so that his darkened by the sun hands becomes a golden,inviting hue which I kiss making him jump like I stung him.

Only just hours ago he stole he one of many first kisses from me and now he acts as he does now.

Good thing I know his mind as I do.
How much he adored my forwardness the first time and this time.

"I am only here..forever.Yoake....forever."

If only forever would be like this now,us standing in the plain of your adopted father before the hell coming tonight.
If only I was not spending days thieving only to spend nights watching you,breathing in your scent,your presence.

If only I did not have to do evil to save my two goods.

But in the end...

I can and I WILL save you,both of you,forever this time.