A Thought From Christmas

I just got done wrapping gifts for my sister. It’s 10pm on Christmas Eve. I wish I had this too man. Every year Christmas is always a disappointment, because while everyone gets gifts and is excited, I know nothing is gonna happen because my family doesn’t really take Christmas seriously.
I think the real reason Christmas gifts appeal to me so much is cause there’s only so many you get, and it’s a surprise and exciting. I honestly only remember one time where I was surprised with. Gift. I don’t wanna have to ask for everything I get. And I am super picky and want niche things, but I just wish there would be one person who would know that and gut punch me with a surprise gift. Even at my friends secret Santa, I got a gift card bro. I know my friend meant well but I was really excited to see what kind of gift I would get honestly. I guess all that is to say, I want gifts too man. I feel like I put in a lot of effort getting people gifts, or at least it feels that way. I just want to wake up Christmas morning excited, knowing that I’ll get something cool. To everyone, Christmas is a time of excitement. To me, it’s the day where jolliness dies.