Love Love Love

Love… Love LOVE LOVE! LOVE!!! ITS NOT REAL. LOVE IS MERELY A FANTASY! Oh what’s that? It’s real? You’ve felt it? Sure. But are you even real? You people seem to disappear the moment I look for you in real life. Your so called “love” seems to collapse with a slight breeze. AND YOU DARE TO CALL THAT LOVE!!?? What about those who love you, you say? WHAT ABOUT THEM? WHERE ARE THEY? DO YOU MEAN TO SUGGEST THAT I HAVE AN INSATIABLE GREED FOR LOVE? THAT THE LOVE I HAVE WONT SATISFY ME? WHERE IS IT THEN? WHERES THE ETERNAL HAPPINESS THEY SPEAK OF? WHERES MY SHARE OF LOVE? WHEN DO I GET MY PART? WHAT MORE DO I NEED TO DO? HOW MUCH MORE LOVE CAN I GIVE JUST TO BE LEFT EMPTY HANDED? NONE OF YOU CAN CONVINCE ME THAT MY LOVE IS OUT THERE. I MUST BE DAMNED TO NOT GET MY SHARE OF LOVE. I NEVER WILL. So don’t…Don’t tell me otherwise.

I won’t see my dreams again, will I? Not like this. I won’t be able to taste the success again will I? I won’t work hard enough, or get lucky enough, or even simply do the right things.I’ll forever be stuck. There’s barriers I’ve never crossed and never will… haha… those happen to be pretty low for me. I guess it’s ok, now I know. There’s nothing to chase anymore. Maybe… far away…. Maybe in the West, I’ll find what I’m looking for. A place of peace. A place of green sprawling grass blessed either the warmth of the sun and the beauty of morning birds.Maybe I’ll settle down and simply be done. I won’t have to race for anything anymore.