Companion - Arc 3

I was there, yet again.

I woke up again at night, she was still beside me, sleeping silently, but then I heard them again, their loud screams, tormenting me once again, I looked at her but she wasn't phased at all, she was still asleep, safe and sound, I realised that I was the only victim.

Going outside it was the same, the earth was pitch black while the sky was just there, not able to light it all up, I could see their eyes up at the red sky, looking at me, screaming with hatred, louder and louder, as I started to break down.

I was only pretending, I pretended to be fine after all of it, but I was scared, I wasnted to cry but I didn't have the reason to do it, and now because of this, I can only scream, their loud cries for help, with them looking at me with disgust, I was the reason why they're dead, I was the reason, now they're tormenting me, I can't take this anymore, I want to die, I want to die, I want to die, I want to die, just stop it already, stop torturing me and just kill me already, I'm scared, I just want to die, seeing them burn before me, seeing my parents die in front of me, what did I do to deserve this? I should've just died back there, why did they protect me? why did they have to make me live? I can't handle this all, my memories, I shouldn't have remembered, but why? I can't do this, I can't, I just want to end it all and die.

She slapped me, I was talking in my sleep, I had a nightmare and she woke me up, while crying she said "you were having a nightmare.", all I could do was thank her, I was embarrassed, she heard everything, she then went outside telling me that she'd search for something to eat, I then insisted in helping her, I was embarrassed, with her taking care of me all this time, I then decided I wanted to die because of what happened before, yet here she was, still taking care of me, I was embarrassed, and so I'll do everything to also take care of her, as it's the least I can do for her, to thank her, and to apologise for everything.