Is it the Truth or a Lie

I don't know if I've been okay

But I have told myself that for many days

I have tried and tried but I can't undo

All those times I convinced myself I was fine to you

Now is that true with all the times I have lied

I don't know where the lies end and the truth begins

Have I always been fine or has it always been lies

I want to know but don't know how to understand 

All these years of pain has it all been a dream

Or is it the truth I am hiding under a mask of fears

Even now when you ask how are you

I always reply with I'm good

But is that really true or is it just a façade 

I want to know but know how to