Chapter 18:

In the name of Love

Little green apocalypse


This hidden and shameful feeling.

The feeling of something you want to get from another.

Yes… I was jealous.

I wanted everything she had.

Everything I couldn’t have had.

She was both the one I admired and the one I hated the most in the world.

Without you, I won’t be alive.

But because of you…

I wondered about my life.

When mom isn’t home anymore.

I thought I had done something wrong.

Why couldn’t I figure it out?

Why are my principles so far removed for hers?

… I don’t want to be in this cage anymore if she’s not here.

Give me the power.

Why are you refusing?

I don’t interest you anymore?

Nobody cared about him.

Why did he have to die?

This world doesn’t care about the weak.

Is it normal?

… What do you want, miserable people?

Are these the people you admire so much, sister?

… I can’t understand you.

I don’t follow you.

… Yes. I’m different from you.

I have to make you evolve.

I’ll bring you to my world.

… Ah.

You finally grant it to me…

It’s time…


28 days.

Today, it’s raining.

The soils needed it badly.

Hiko told me not to go out in the rain.

Me, who thought that I could try while mom wasn’t there…

… I wonder where Hiko go again.

He leaves every morning, to do some sort of things.

But at least, I have Harp left.

Besides, Harp is starting to take up space…

It could end up being a problem.


What is that smell?

… Almond?

Ah! Stop it, Harp! Stop fidgeting.

What do you want?

Do you want a song?

Mom used to sing some to me back then.

I learned them all. Which one do you want?

… Eh? Did I grab some almond while I was sleeping?

So, I was saying…


By the light of the moon…!

My friend Pierrot.”

Yes, that’s it!

You have a rather deep voice, Harp…

All in all, you must be a boy.

“I didn’t mean to wake you up, but can you let go of me now, Lyre?”


I forgot to open my eyes…

This is not an almond pillow.

“Hiko, why aren’t you an almond pillow?”

“I don’t think I have this kind of function in fact.”


“Did you hear me?”

“… You could say that.”

“Really, I could have stopped you, but I never heard you sing. So, I was curious.”


“I… I’ll sing you something another day, if you insist…”


“Don’t move, I’ll cook you something to eat.”


How do I always end up putting myself in awkward positions?

… I might be too laid back these days.

The word ‘Laid back’ and ‘Survival’ aren’t meant to go together, right?

I heard it this time.

Hiko didn’t tell me…

Still not wanting to worry me…

I understood it. My sister did terrible things, didn’t she?

The responsibility lies with me.

Well, I didn’t know anything about her.

But I remain her big sister for all that.

What child would not be lost without his family?

… I will not give up on you, Harp.

Your life matters too much to me to leave you all alone.

Stay warm and enjoy…

Mom is going to save the world.

“You won’t kidnap my Harp!”

“Cries of distress.”

“… Why do you have to name the way you scream?”

“It adds to the melodrama.”

“It’s not your Harp… It’s ours.”

“Then? Girl or Boy, expert in ‘what’s going on in her own body’, Lyre?”

“I don’t know.”

“How am I supposed to tell?”

“… Lyre. I have something to tell you, it will only take about 30 minutes.”

“I don’t like it when you look like that.”

“You’re going to become a mother, right? You must know that.”

“… Are you sure?”

“Absolutely! Listen…”







My consciousness has awakened.

I’m on the other side of the wall.

The shock will never leave my mind.

“It’s vulgar. It’s disgusting. It’s obscene. It’s depraved. It’s shameful.”


“You have to stop with this!”

“Ah… I can’t look at you anymore.”

I will never dare to look a man in the eye again.

“Ah… I’m the one who has to do the dirty work.”

“Has your mother ever killed someone?”

“Why this question? Yes, one time.”


“She told me she hid the corpse in a bush.”

“When I went to see, there were only chocolate eggs.”

“… I think she lied to you.”

“So, there was nothing buried, basically?”

“Did you dig…?”

“… I was curious.”

“You scare me sometimes.”


“I don’t like this weather.”

“But it will water nature. It’s not that bad.”

“And if not, why don’t you like it?”

“I can’t train my power.”

“If I accidentally blew up the house, I’m not just going to blame myself my whole life. My mother will enslave me until the end of time…”

“… I don’t think it’s allowed in our country.”

“But that’s what she said…”

“Stop believing everyone, word on word!”

“Besides what have you prepared?”

“A basic breakfast. Milk, chocolate and a slice of bread.”


“Do you find it strange? Was it out of date?”

“No. It changes.”

“Mom used to make me eat rucks and jam.”

“She said she was afraid of the effects of calcium on my body.”


“Don’t tell me I did something wrong?”

“No, no! Don’t worry, I’m managing my body better now. There are no more worries.”

“Do you have any allergies?”

“Uh… No, I don’t think so.”

“If something happened to you…”

“I will commit love suicide.”

“Don’t do that!”

“Don’t ever think about that kind of nonsense. How do you think I would see it, if you actually did this?”

“Do you think I’ll be happy?”

“.. Yes?”

“I will curse you in the hereafter. You will never know eternal rest. At every street corner, I will whistle a blow to make you believe in madness…”

“Understood! Stop that!”

“… If something happens to me, take good care of Harp.”

“And if you have any problems, you can always ask mom…”



“We will live happily together.”

“The days will pass. You will see Harp grow as you age.”

“And you’ll se me grow old too, at the same time.”

“And, one day, Harp will have some children too.”


“Yes. Some.”

“They’ll all call you ‘Grandma’.”

“And your role will be to give them sweets.”

“Stop with your stories! You’re doing it on purpose to confuse me!”

“Impossible. Unbelievable.”

“And we’ll sleep together every day.”

“… It’s already the case.”

“Besides, I shouldn’t be sleeping with you.”

“You could do ‘that’ again.”

“I did not do anything!”

Hiko is a peverse

“It’s ‘Perverse’! And I’m not!”



My purity has been defiled.

“If you say that in front of your mother, you can say goodbye to those happy days, both of us…”


“Are we really gonna stay in bed all day?”

“Do you have a better idea?”


“Give me your hand.”

“Put it at the level of my ribs.”

“… If you try to go higher, I’ll kick you.”

“I wouldn’t do anything…”

“I’m going to… No that’s not a good idea.”

“Can you separate my beats from his?”


“How often does your heart beat?”

“… Every second and a half?”


“Yes, I can feel it.”

“Already well formed after such a short time?”


“I’m afraid he’ll try to get out earlier than expected…”

“Why do you say that?”

“Your body speed mode gives me the impression that it might turn out like this.”

“We need your mother. She will already know more than we do when we explain the situation to her.”

“… Besides, can you finally tell if it’s a girl or a boy?”



“… I will not tell you!”

“So, you know it!”


“Tell me!”


“Come on! Don’t be kidding!”

“No way!”

It’s funny.

I’m scared Hiko.

But you’ve already noticed.

I’m worried.

What if… I can’t do it?

What if I couldn’t reach the gate…?

… I don’t think that’s the right expression.

Better to laugh about it, right?

I understood it.

This is all you taught me.

I will make you proud!


Help me, Hiko…

“… The savior or the world is afraid of thunder, eh?”

“Harp is also afraid of it…”

“That’s no reason you should be too.”

Believe in me!