Chapter 3:
I Command It While I Sing It
The first thing Shelly learned about the world was warmth.
The warmth of the blankets wrapped around her.
The warmth of the fire burning beside her cradle.
And the warmth of the arms that held her whenever she cried.
She did not know what a family was. She did not know the meaning of a name, the importance of a noble title, or why the people who looked at her sometimes smiled and sometimes went strangely quiet.
She knew only hunger, sleep, and the comfort of being held.
For the first few weeks, Suzia tried to make certain that was enough.
Every morning, she visited the nursery before breakfast. Sometimes she stayed for a few minutes. Sometimes she remained until a servant reminded her that the household was waiting.
She learned the little sounds Shelly made when she was hungry and the way her fingers curled when she was about to fall asleep. She discovered that the child liked being carried near the windows, where the morning light spilled across the floor.
And she learned to turn Shelly's face gently against her shoulder whenever the baby yawned.
Not because she was ashamed.
That was what she told herself.
She simply did not want to see the strange little teeth.
Yet there were mornings when Shelly opened her eyes and looked directly at her, and Suzia forgot about the teeth altogether.
Her daughter had the most remarkable eyes.
Dark and clear, they seemed to follow everything around her with an attention that made Suzia smile.
"You look at me as though you're trying to understand me," she whispered one morning.
Shelly blinked.
Suzia laughed softly.
"Well, don't expect me to explain the world just yet. I'm still trying to understand it myself."
The baby made a small noise.
Suzia kissed her forehead.
"There. That's better."
For a little while, everything was simple.
Then Halton began asking questions.
Not about whether Shelly was eating enough.
Not about whether she slept peacefully.
Not even about whether Suzia was recovering well.
He asked how often she cried.
Whether the servants had heard her.
Whether she had made any unusual sounds.
And whether anyone outside the nursery had seen her mouth.
At first, Suzia answered patiently.
Then, one morning, she finally put down the silver spoon she had been holding.
"She's your daughter, Halton. Not a problem to be inspected."
Halton stood beside the window, dressed for a meeting with the estate stewards. He looked at her reflection in the glass.
"I never said she was a problem."
"You ask the same questions every day."
"Because the situation hasn't changed."
"What situation?"
He turned.
Suzia held his gaze.
"Your daughter was born with an unusual mouth. That is what you mean, isn't it?"
Halton's expression hardened.
"Lower your voice."
"Why? Is the nursery listening?"
"The servants are always listening."
"Then perhaps you should stop giving them something to whisper about."
For a moment, Halton looked genuinely offended.
Suzia almost regretted her words.
Almost.
She had spent years learning when to challenge her husband and when to let his temper pass. Halton was not a man who enjoyed being questioned, especially when he believed he was protecting his family.
But this was different.
This was their child.
"She has done nothing wrong," Suzia said.
"I know that."
"Then stop looking at her as though she has."
Halton glanced toward the cradle.
Shelly was asleep beneath a pale blanket, one hand resting beside her face.
He looked away first.
"I'm trying to prevent a disaster."
Suzia stared at him.
"She's a baby."
"And a baby becomes a child. A child becomes an adult. Whatever happened when she was born may not remain harmless forever."
The room seemed to grow colder.
Suzia slowly rose from her chair.
"What exactly are you afraid will happen?"
Halton said nothing.
She studied his face.
"You're remembering something."
His eyes returned to hers.
"What?"
"Something from your family's past. Ever since she was born, you've been behaving as though you recognize what happened."
For a brief moment, Halton seemed unable to decide whether to answer.
Then his expression closed.
"You're tired, Suzia."
She hated it when he did that.
He would take a question, wrap it in concern for her, and set it aside as though that made it disappear.
"I'm tired because I gave birth three weeks ago," she replied. "I am not confused."
"I didn't say you were."
"Then answer me."
Halton glanced toward the door.
"I have a meeting."
He left before she could stop him.
Suzia remained beside the table, listening to his footsteps fade down the corridor.
Then Shelly stirred.
A small, uncertain sound escaped her.
Suzia immediately returned to the cradle.
"I'm here," she whispered, lifting her daughter into her arms. "I'm here."
Shelly settled against her chest.
Suzia closed her eyes.
She wanted to believe that love would be enough to protect her child.
She was beginning to suspect that Halton knew something she did not.
And that frightened her more than the strange cry ever had.
---
Camy discovered that being an older sister was more difficult than she had expected.
Before Shelly was born, she had imagined teaching her little sister everything.
How to run through the garden without falling.
How to persuade the kitchen servants to give her honey cakes before dinner.
How to sneak into the library and pretend to read the enormous books that Father said were too difficult for children.
She had even decided that Shelly would have to call her Big Sister Camy.
Not just Camy.
That was important.
But three weeks had passed, and Camy had been allowed to visit the nursery only twice.
On the third morning, she decided that was enough.
She marched down the corridor with all the determination a five-year-old could manage.
A maid carrying folded linen nearly dropped the entire pile when Camy appeared around the corner.
"Lady Camy! Where are you going?"
"To see my sister."
"Her Ladyship is resting."
"Then I'll be quiet."
"The Marquis said—"
"Father says a lot of things."
The maid looked horrified.
Camy considered that a victory and continued walking.
The nursery door was open.
Inside, Suzia sat beside the cradle, speaking to another servant. When she noticed Camy, she raised an eyebrow.
"Shouldn't you be with your tutor?"
"I finished my letters."
"All of them?"
Camy hesitated.
"Most of them."
Suzia tried not to smile.
"And the rest?"
"I'll finish them later."
"Of course you will."
Camy hurried toward the cradle.
"Can I hold her today?"
Suzia watched her daughter peer over the wooden railing.
Shelly was awake, moving her hands beneath the blanket.
"Not by yourself," Suzia said. "But you can sit beside me."
Camy climbed onto the cushioned chair, then leaned forward.
"Hello, Shelly."
The baby turned her head.
Camy's face brightened.
"She heard me!"
"She probably did."
"Does she know I'm her sister?"
"Not yet."
"How do I tell her?"
Suzia paused.
Then she smiled.
"You keep coming back. Eventually, she'll know."
Camy considered this with great seriousness.
Then she held out one finger.
Shelly's tiny hand closed around it.
Camy gasped.
"Mother!"
"I can see."
"She's holding me!"
"She is."
"She likes me."
Suzia watched the delight spread across Camy's face.
"Perhaps she does."
Camy leaned closer, whispering as though she were sharing a secret.
"Don't worry, Shelly. I'll teach you everything."
The baby stared at her.
Camy smiled.
"And if anyone is mean to you, I'll tell Father."
For a moment, Suzia could not speak.
She watched Camy stroke the blanket and chatter about the garden, the kitchen, and the little white rabbit she had seen near the stables.
Camy had not mentioned Shelly's mouth.
She had not recoiled.
She had not asked why her sister looked different.
She had simply accepted the small hand wrapped around her finger.
Suzia wanted to preserve that moment.
She wanted to believe that, years from now, Camy would remember it.
But when the nursery door opened, the moment broke.
Halton entered with a man Suzia recognized as the family's steward, Master Orven.
Camy straightened immediately.
"Father!"
Halton looked at her, then at Shelly.
"What are you doing here?"
"Visiting my sister."
"I thought your tutor was waiting."
"I finished my letters."
"All of them?"
Camy's eyes shifted toward her mother.
"Most of them."
For the briefest moment, Halton almost smiled.
Then he noticed her hand resting against Shelly's.
"Come away from the cradle."
Camy blinked.
"Why?"
"Because I asked you to."
She reluctantly withdrew her hand.
Shelly's fingers opened and closed once before settling against the blanket.
Camy noticed.
"She was holding me."
"I saw."
"Can I stay a little longer?"
"No."
The answer came too quickly.
Camy's expression fell.
Suzia rose from her chair.
"Halton, she was being gentle."
"I am not accusing her of anything."
"Then why send her away?"
"Because I have business to discuss."
Camy slid from the chair.
She looked at Shelly one last time.
"I'll come back tomorrow," she promised.
Halton said nothing.
Camy hurried out, passing the steward at the door.
Once she was gone, Halton closed the nursery door.
Suzia folded her arms.
"What business requires you to remove a five-year-old from her sister's room?"
"Private business."
"About Shelly?"
He did not answer.
The steward shifted uncomfortably.
Halton noticed.
"Master Orven, you may speak freely. My wife knows that something must be done."
Suzia's eyes narrowed.
"Something must be done?"
Halton ignored her.
"How many people have spoken about the night of the birth?"
"None openly, my lord," Orven replied. "The household has accepted the explanation concerning the storm."
"And privately?"
The steward hesitated.
"There have been questions."
"From whom?"
"Mostly from the servants who were in the west corridor. They saw the broken windows."
Halton's face darkened.
"Then those servants will be reassigned."
Orven bowed.
"Of course."
Suzia stared at her husband.
"You're moving people because they saw broken glass?"
"Because people talk."
"And if they do?"
Halton turned toward her.
"Do you want the entire nobility discussing our daughter?"
Suzia opened her mouth.
Then stopped.
There it was.
Not the old story.
Not the broken windows.
Not even the strange cry.
The nobility.
The reputation of House Halton.
The possibility that the family might become the subject of gossip.
Halton had not said that he was ashamed of Shelly.
But Suzia was beginning to understand how much of his fear came from the thought of other people seeing her.
She looked toward the cradle.
Shelly had fallen asleep again.
"She's not a scandal," Suzia whispered.
"No," Halton said. "But she could become one."
The words hung between them.
Suzia felt something inside her harden.
"Then I hope you remember what you said when she grows old enough to understand you."
Halton's eyes narrowed.
"What is that supposed to mean?"
"It means that one day, she will know how you treated her."
Neither spoke.
The steward stared fixedly at the floor.
At last, Halton dismissed him.
Orven left quietly.
Halton remained by the door.
Suzia sat beside the cradle and lifted Shelly's hand into her own.
"She will know love," she said.
Halton looked at her.
"I intend to protect her."
"Those are not always the same thing."
For a moment, neither moved.
Then Halton left.
Suzia did not call him back.
---
That evening, Halton went to his study alone.
He locked the door.
The room smelled of old paper, polished wood, and the fading smoke of the fireplace. Tall shelves covered the walls, filled with records of marriages, land transfers, royal decrees, and generations of family history.
Halton knew every shelf.
He knew which records were valuable, which were useless, and which should never have been preserved.
He crossed the room and stopped before a cabinet at the far end.
Its key hung from a chain beneath his shirt.
He removed it.
The lock turned with a soft click.
Inside lay a collection of old documents bound in dark leather.
Most concerned the early history of House Halton.
Some were written in a language few scholars still understood.
Halton had not opened the cabinet in years.
He pulled out a narrow volume and placed it on the desk.
Dust rose from its cover.
For several moments, he simply stared at it.
Then he opened it.
The pages were yellowed and brittle. The writing was cramped, the ink faded in places.
He turned through the first several pages until he found the passage he remembered.
There was no illustration.
No name.
Only a short account written by an ancestor whose identity had been lost.
In the winter of the seventh reign, a child was born beneath a silent sky.
The child spoke before it wept.
Those who heard the voice obeyed, though no command had been given.
Halton stopped reading.
His mouth had gone dry.
He forced himself to continue.
The child was hidden from the court. Its name was removed from the family record.
For the voice was not a gift that could be safely inherited.
Below the passage, someone had drawn a symbol.
A circle divided by a vertical line.
At its center was a small, dark mark shaped almost like an open mouth.
Halton stared at it.
He remembered his grandfather turning the page away from him all those years ago.
He remembered the old man's anger.
Some things must never be spoken of again.
At the time, Halton had thought it was nonsense.
Now he read the final line.
Should the voice return, do not mistake its first command for its greatest.
A sudden sound came from the corridor.
Halton snapped the book shut.
Someone knocked.
He shoved the volume back into the cabinet and locked it.
"Enter."
The door opened.
A servant bowed.
"My lord, Lady Suzia requests your presence in the nursery."
Halton's attention sharpened.
"Why?"
"The child is crying."
He stood immediately.
"Has she broken anything?"
The servant looked startled.
"No, my lord."
Halton realized what he had asked.
He adjusted his coat.
"Very well. Tell Lady Suzia I am coming."
The servant bowed and left.
Halton remained still for a moment.
Then he looked back at the cabinet.
The child's first command.
He could not stop thinking about the words.
The child had cried, and the glass had broken.
He had shouted, Stop.
And Shelly had stopped.
Was that all it had been?
A coincidence?
Or had she heard him?
Had she understood?
Halton extinguished the lamp and left his study.
---
In the nursery, Suzia was holding Shelly near the window.
The child had been crying for several minutes, though not as loudly as she had on the night of her birth.
Suzia rocked her gently.
"There, there. What is it?"
Shelly's little face tightened.
Another cry rose from her throat.
A candle flickered.
Suzia froze.
The flame steadied.
She looked toward the window.
Nothing happened.
She let out a slow breath and continued rocking the baby.
When Halton entered, she turned toward him.
"She's been unsettled all evening."
"Has anything happened?"
"No."
He approached cautiously.
Shelly's cries softened.
Then she opened her mouth.
Halton saw the tiny teeth.
He remembered the book.
He remembered the command.
For a moment, he considered speaking.
He could test it.
He could tell her to stop.
If nothing happened, perhaps he could finally put the old story aside.
If something did—
He looked at Suzia.
She was watching him.
He could not do it.
Not to his own daughter.
Instead, he reached out and touched Shelly's blanket.
"She's tired," he said.
Suzia looked unconvinced.
"She was sleeping perfectly well this afternoon."
"Babies change."
"That sounds like something a man says when he doesn't know what else to say."
Despite himself, Halton almost smiled.
Then Shelly fell silent.
Her eyes opened.
She looked at him.
The room seemed to hold its breath.
Halton stared back.
He had faced angry nobles, difficult negotiations, and threats against his estate without losing his composure.
But he could not look away from the child in his wife's arms.
Shelly's mouth moved.
A tiny sound escaped her.
Not a cry.
Not a word.
Just a soft, breathy noise.
Halton stepped backward.
Suzia noticed.
"What is it?"
"Nothing."
He turned toward the door.
"Halton?"
"I need to speak with the steward."
He left before she could ask another question.
Suzia watched the door close.
Then she looked down at Shelly.
The baby had already fallen asleep.
Suzia pressed a kiss to her forehead.
"You don't have to be anything special," she whispered. "You only have to be my daughter."
Shelly slept on.
Beyond the nursery, Halton walked through the dim corridor toward his study.
He had spent the evening hoping the old story was false.
Now he was no longer certain that he wanted it to be.
Because if the story was true, then Shelly's birth had not been an isolated misfortune.
It was the return of something his family had once tried to erase.
And if the last line of the old record meant what he feared it meant, then the greatest danger was not what Shelly had done when she was born.
It was what she might one day learn to say.
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