Chapter 003.5: Untrustworthy

“Eliza-san, let's go back now okay? It's already 07:15! Class is about to start.”

“You can go ahead. I still have to finish this paper works.”

“But those are still for the next month. And that's not even your job!”

“Why do you look so upset now? You were just seriously happy earlier. What are you being mad for? I even praised you for having a good voice. Humph. Did you disliked it?”

“I'm not mad. And I appreciate your compliment Rose.”

“But that's not what we're seeing right now. You look mad. Or at least upset.”

“I'm not.”

“Eliza-san, then why? What are you being mad about?

“I said I'm not mad!”

“O-Okay....”

“Ehem. Anyway we really need to go Elizabeth.”

“I still need to finish this.”

“But for what reason?!”

“Eliza-san, why don't you wanna go back?”

“Because I still need to finish this.”

“Stop that! We already know that's just an excuse. Did you got into fight with Mark or something?”

“Eh? You're in a fight with Mark-kun?! But earlier....”

“Nope. We're not fighting.”

I bet he doesn't even know that I'm angry. I bet he is flirting with other girls again. Or he's messing around with that bitch. Even though both of them are already taken, he still flirt with her.

He doesn't even care about me at all.

“Sniff...”

“Eh?”

“H-Hey...!”

Unknowingly, warm water starts rolling down my face. I can feel that even my breath became warm. I tried to wipe it but it just keep flowing out for some reason.

Why am I even crying?

Although Mark lied to me earlier, it's not like he'll leave me. He said he won't. This is only the first time he lied to me. He probably have reasons.

But what if I'm wrong? What if this is just me averting my eyes from reality? What if everything he said before are just nothing but lies?

Like what Rose had said, it's just to fool me. What if... What if he'll actually leave me alone as well...?

I can't take that!

And if it will end anyway, might as well end it soon. So that everything would be done already. So that I can... I can start coping...

But I don't want that!

I started crying really hard but I kept my mouth shut so I'm shivering uncontrollably. Mary patted my back and Rose is clearly confused of what to do. And meanwhile, I can't just stop crying!

“Eliza-san, did we do something wrong..? If then we apologize.”

“.........”

I tried to speak but I can't so I just shook my head.

It's not their fault. They're not to blame. So there's no need to apologize.

“Then why did you suddenly started crying?!”

“Eh~! Rose-chan shh~! Don't shout.”

“Uh, err, I'm sorry.”

No. I said there's no need for you to be sorry. You did nothing wrong.

Yes. It's not your fault Rose. Neither Mary's. It's all Mark's fault. He's the one who need to apologize for lying to me.

I took a plain black handkerchief from the side pocket of my skirt. This was given to me by Mark to commemorate the night we became a couple. This is our sign— the sign that we are together.

However, we will break up anyway. So this is not necessary anymore.

Right?

I tried to shoot it to the trash bin but it went short and fell gently on the wooden plank floor.

I stared at it for a while then wiped my eyes with my right hand.

“I apologize. Let's go back now.”

I stood up and went to the front door.

“Wait wait wait! Eliza-san! You left your handkerchief. Hey!”

I halted my steps and looked at Mary who's giving me that black fabric.

I turned my eyes from it then continue walking away.

“Uh...”

—We're walking back to the classroom. The amount of students wandering around the campus are starting to decrease.

I stopped walking when we're right beside the canteen near the student's plaza.

“What's wrong Eliza-san?”

I pointed at the canteen.

“I'm hungry.”

“Eh. But uh, class is about to start you know.”

“Just what's wrong with you Elizabeth?”

“Nothing. Just hungry.”

“But we're gonna be late.”

“Then leave.”

I turned around and walked towards the canteen.

“Humph! Don't boss me around.”

“Ehhh~! Eliza-san?! Rose as well?!”

Mary and Rose followed suit. I can feel their presence behind me.

“Wait Elizabeth! Why do you even wanted to eat all of sudden? I never known you as a glutton.”

You haven't met me for long so don't talk like as if you know me very well.

“I'm hungry.”

“Eliza-san, did you forget to eat your breakfast?”

“I did not.”

“Then why would you be hungry so early in the morning?!”

“Because I'm hungry.”

Why does she pry too much? Why won't she just believe me? Ah right. Even Mark lied to me so why won't she? I'm really untrustworthy isn't it?

“Wha--”

“Do you have a problem Eliza-san?”

“None. Just hungry.”

“You've been saying that over and over again! You now sounds like a robot programmed to say she's hungry in loop.”

“Because I am hungry.”

"God! Okay then. Just hurry up!“

We all went to one of the stalls that sells burger.

”Oh miss vice president! It's a pleasant surprise to have you here. What do you want to eat? Egg burger ? Hamburger? Cheeseburger? I'll serve you the biggest bun, ham, patty, or egg. Or even all of those in one serving exclusively just for you!”

I'm about to refuse but other vendors screamed.

“Don't listen to him miss Hecate! Come to my stall and I'll serve you 3 bowls worth of macaroni soup! My dish is creamy you know.”

“What are you all suggesting to her?! Do you want to fatten her up? But oh wait. That sounds beautiful. It's miss Hecate after all. I'm sure she'll still be beautiful. Cute in fact! But come to me and buy a buko panda juice from me. This is deliciously sweet and natural!”

“Hahahahahaha! Of course it would be natural. The school long ago prohibited unnatural drinks!”

“All of you are making her buy? Come to my stall and eat whatever you'd like for free. This is my tribute for blessing me with your heavenly voice!”

“Oh right! Thank you miss Hecate for that beautiful performance. Your voice was entrancing! You surely made my day. So I'll serve you anything and it will all be on the house!”

“Me too! Me too! Please come here miss Hecate!”

“I left my stall earlier to listen to you and it was worth it. Please eat here at my stall and bless my business with your presence!”

“Please don't be like that. I'll pay for what I eat at suitable price. Business is business after all.”

“Ooooohh~! As expected of our goddess! So kind!”

“Business is business indeed but I'll still give fifty percent off to your total purchase.”

“I'll make it free just for today. It's special day after all!”

“I'll half my prices for you anytime miss Hecate.”

“All of you shut up! Miss Hecate came to me first. Don't steal her from me!”

“What are you being mad for mister old man?”

““““Hahahahahahaha!””””

“Heh. Elizabeth is really popular.”

“Hehe. Are you jealous Rose-chan?”

“Wha— I have my own fan base you know. I'm also quite popular!”

“Hehehe. We all do but it's really nothing compared to Eliza-san's. They didn't even noticed us.”

“Humph.”

They praised me and suggested me sweet offers sounding all sincere. But I know they're just currying favor with me. They're all exaggerating as well.

They are only doing it because even if I only have limited influence as the vice president of the SSG, it is still there. They all just wanted to get some benefits.

They don't really care about me at all. If I am just a normal highschool girl, they might not even know that I exist.

And this position seems to be meaningless now. I joined here to make myself worthy of Mark and to have some sort of power for him.

But when I slightly got to know him and he showed his life to me, I realized my power isn't even worth of comparison.

And even if it's just influence in the school, he knows our president as well. I even noticed that they seem to be close to each other.

Taking all of this into account, I'm just nothing. My worth to Mark amount to nothing. Well of course, what can I even do? I have no worthy ability or whatsoever right? I'm useless. So naturally he won't care about me.

There's no reason as to why he won't lie to me. He... He of course won't put his trust to me. A-And why would he? I'm just nobody. I'm easily replaceable.

But I don't know why he still stays? Oh. He's just probably bored as usual. I'm just his temporary entertainment. He will eventually leave me alone.

So.. So what's the meaning of keeping our relationship for long if it's going to end sooner or later anyway? We... We should really break up. We're really breaking up Mark.

L-Let's break up.... Mark..... We're done.

This hurts my heart and I wanted to cry.

“Eh?!”

“E-Elizabeth! Why are you crying again?!”

“I'm not.”

“Sure you do!”

Right. I'm still at school. I shouldn't cry.

I tried to wipe my tears with my bare hands but Mary held my hand and wiped my eyes with a pink handkerchief.

“Please don't wipe yourself with that stained hands of yours. You're going to dirty your beautiful face.”

Ah. Right. I'm currently eating an oily cheeseburger.

“Hey! Slow down! Don't choke yourself. Eat slowly. Good thing we're in somewhat secluded area and there's not much people. Otherwise, you'll ruin your good image! Ah! Something is really wrong with you today.”

“Can you tell us what's bothering you Eliza-san?”

“Nothing is bothering me.”

I stood up and walked away to go back to our classroom.

“Hey! Wash your hands! And why are you leaving us. My god. I'm starting to be exhausted by this.”

“Uh. Let's be considerate Rose-chan.. hehe.”

“Humph! I already am.”