The day it all changed

“I just want you as a friend”, “I have a boyfriend”.

"Who would have thought that such simple words could hurt so much"

it all started about 7 years ago there I made my first mistake, I fell in love with a girl I had never seen,

It seemed like a day like any other. I just sat and listened to the class topics that my teachers were giving until the science teacher came through the door and asked me to come with him. I got up from my seat and asked the teacher who was giving the class if I could withdraw, to which he replied with a dry "yes".

I walked out of the classroom and caught up with the science teacher.

"How can I help you professor?" I was surprised and a little scared that maybe I had done something I didn't remember and I was in trouble.

"I need your help to make a little Ferris wheel for the Christmas festival. You are smart and you know about robotics. I couldn't think of a better person for the job than you" replied the teacher with a smile.

I could feel my soul return to my body, I was not in trouble.

We walked to the school lab while the teacher told me the general idea.

When we arrived, the teacher also told me that 2 classmates from another group were also going to help and that we were the mechanical team and that we would have to work with the decoration team to make it look good.

I knew almost all of my classmates from the other group, after all, I've been in this school for years.

I went into the classroom and there I saw one of my friends. His name was Chris. He was very tall. His hair was reddish brown. He was a very social person and was friends with everyone

“I knew you would be chosen for the team” said Chris happily

Behind him was another person it was a new classmate and like Chris and I she was wearing a navy blue shirt, a brown sweater blue jeans and black shoes, she was not very tall I would say about 5´2 Her hair was an intense black color with brown tips and did not go beyond her shoulders, through her glasses you could see beautiful brown eyes that shone like stars.

She approached me and greeted me

“Hello, I'm Selene, what's your name? She asked me with a high-pitched voice and a big smile

"Ni…nice to meet you, my name is Marshall" I answered nervously. A really beautiful classmate was talking to me, how should I react? What should a normal person do?

“Well, talk about how we are going to do this and advance what you can, I will be in the teachers' lounge, I will see you in about 3 hours. Good luck” said the professor happily and left the laboratory

“Eh?”

“3 hours is a lot” said Chris

“3 hours of not having class” replied Selene

I stared at the situation thinking what a normal person would do

“It would be 3 hours off if we weren't confined to this laboratory!!” Chris said a little annoyed

"it's better than sitting down taking history class" said very confident Selene

She was really sure of herself and was excited to be in the laboratory.

"Yeah, we already know you fell in love and you spent almost 4 years trying to make her love you and in the end you gave up and you hated crabs, we all know how it ends" Said a serious and slightly annoyed voice.

Why does he always have to be so aggressive when he speaks? Would it kill him to have a little tact? That voice belongs to my friend Peter, he always seems to be upset and doesn't care what others have to say, although deep down he is a great person who can always help you with his raw truth

"Forget her and your other 2 traumas you didn't had a relationship with them and you suffer as if you married” He said with an annoyed tone again

“Let him finish, I want to know how his trauma started” Said a calmer voice

Although I appreciate the attempt to help me, you just want to know how it started to give me a lecture later. That second voice is from Arthur. He and Peter are 2 of the 4 people I trust. He is an interesting person without a doubt, he is always there to support you, but he doesn't take jokes very well and gets upset very quickly

"I'm going to go out for some air, I'll be back" I said a little annoyed and got up and walked away from the table from the bar we were at.

Peter is right, they already know how the story ends and every time I talk about this I end up depressed, maybe I should stop trying to get a date, maybe my destiny is to be alone forever.

I sighed, put on my headphones, and started watching WikTok.

My home page is as weird as usual, going from bad jokes and dark humor to fun facts, then some game clips to go back to bad jokes, not forgetting the occasional dancing cosplayer. As i played video after video something caught my attention

She was a Vtuber. Her name was Yasury. Her model had silver hair with a touch of purple. The video was very simple because it was just her promoting her Vwitch. Her voice seemed beautiful to me and even though it's a character she had a really engaging personality.

I closed WikTok to open Vwitch and search for her channel, she didn't have a lot of followers but it seems that the few she did have were very loyal and donated large amounts of money,

“am I really going to sink so low as to compete with those people and donate all my money for a drawing to greet me? Even the question offends! I lost respect for myself a long time ago”.

I went to her stream I followed her and I subscribed and bought coins to greet her, I put a simple but concise message so that she remembers me

The donation alert sounded and the narrator said my message “Hello, I come from WikTok I saw your video and you captivated me so you'll see me here often ;)”

She smiled and said “thanks for those 100 coins CrabsCracker you have a very weird name hehehe, promise to see me often?”

Indeed, my name may seem strange, but I swore to hate crabs so that Selene would hate me and thus I would not fall in love with her again, but well, my message worked, I will promise to see her every stream, so I will write another message and to make sure that she reads it I'm going to send another 100 coins.

Once again the narrator announced my message "I promise you, as long as you remember me I will be here supporting you"

"hehehe I think it's good, baby, I hope to see you every stream okay?" she said playfully

At that moment I heard a very serious voice speaking to me

"and I thought we couldn't sink any lower, it always surprises me how useless we are".

That voice is the consequence of my bad decisions is always waiting to insult me ​​and make me doubt myself

“it's not falling lower, she answered and she waits for us in every stream”

“you're really pathetic of course she's going to wait for you every stream now you're another one who gives her money just for talking, she doesn't care about you she doesn't care about us we are just a source of money for her and you know I'm right ask Peter and Arthur they will tell you the same as me”

“I don't have to tell them about this it's my private life”

“You don't want to tell them because you know they will despise you for doing that kind of stupid thing”

“Even if that was the case I don't mind”

“You don't mind? for once stop lying to yourself we both know that what matters most to you is what they think of you”

“I don't have to listen to you so leave me alone!!”

"You know I'm right, but it's okay I'll leave you alone... for now"

And as he arrived he left.

I stayed watching Yasury's stream for a while and occasionally sent coins to make comments about what was happening and she would remember me.

It was then that Arthur came looking for me

“Are you okay? It seemed strange to me that you weren't back yet”

I quickly hid my phone so he wouldn't see Yasury's stream

“I'm fine it's just that Peter can be too rough sometimes and you know how I get with this subject”

“Don't give it much importance you know Peter, let's go back to the table Chris just called us and he's going to come for a while”

“So in the end they did let him come. Well we should order a round of wings for when he arrives”

“Come on, that's the attitude” Arthur said with a big smile and patting me on the back

As we walked back I could only think that I didn't say goodbye to Yasury. I wonder if actually trying to flirt with a Vtuber would be a good idea.