Adiko

A memory from my childhood.

It was insignificant, only a random one out of many. Still, I remember it as clearly as though it only happened yesterday. It was an unpleasant memory, to the point that it made me cry back then.

“Mommy, daddy!” said my little brother. “Sister stole my toy train and now she said it’s gone.”

“What the heck are you saying, you lost it yourself” Said an exasperated girl, me.

“C’mon now Jesse, you can’t blame others for what you did, now apologize to him,” said my dad in a disappointed tone.

“But he’s the one blaming me! Shouldn’t he take responsibility for his own actions?”

“I will not hear another word from you, now apologize or I’ll take away your phone”

“FUCK NO! NOT AGAIN!”. Shouted the daughter right before she got slapped by the father.

I wonder why I was that mad back then, but after thinking for a bit, it makes sense. This wasn’t the first time my little brother has done this to me, he had been blaming all of his actions, big or small, before all of this, and always had our parents on his side. This of course leads to me not having a good relationship with my brother, so I treat him like he’s a nuisance to have around. But I didn’t mind though, I would have prefered this kind of relationship over the bro-con thing, jeez, how do some women have attractions toward their own little brother, they are such brats to have around. However, this unfriendly relationship between me and my brother would later be the main reason why my life is as bad as it is now, who would have thought? Perhaps the reason why the memory still feels so very present to me is because it’s a foreshadow to my wretched up future.

So bright

Even though my eyelids are closed, I can still feel the light shining on my eyes and burning them. Not finding this discomfort negligible, I open my eyes to find out the source of it. A lamp, the type that is usually seen in hospitals, is the first thing entering my vision.

“Oh, finally up from your beauty sleep gu hu hu hu hu?

A laugh that feels like an act, though expressing signs of amusement, you can clearly tell it’s all fake. Who laughs like that jeez. Waking up and finding I’m not somewhere I know is bad enough, but why do you have to add a creepy and unfamiliar voice from a guy that has his back bended like a mutant sensei mouse covered in a lab coat as well. Wait a minute, unfamiliar place, hospital lamp, creepy mad scientist, goddamn, I’m in a lab acting as the testing rabbit for a crazy messed up dude am I. Well, the fact that I’m alive is good news though, I was on the highest floor of a collapsed skyscraper, so I guess I shouldn’t complain since this isn’t the worst outcome?

Well, whatever way my life goes, hopefully this time, I can be happy.