The continuation of last chapter cause my idiotic self randomly started writing a kind of poem

Okay,maybe I'll continue the summary shit here cause mid way I got way emotional and started writing someone poem kinda thingy..I dunno I'm stupid

So yeah I love him...but that doesnt mean I wouldn't try getting over him..

He is my best friend,he comes in my first friend circle and I only have 5 people in my first circle

His best friends,are my best friends 

Maybe years later he would introduce us to his wife..his wife who he truly loves..maybe he'd look at me with those chocolate brown eyes..but not with the kinda gaze that held me captive everytime I looked In them..but with the one of friendliness,maybe he'd try to set me up with his friend..and this time he'd truly mean it

Maybe

Maybe I would be the wife he would introduce to all the world.

Maybe

Maybe..

I dunno.. I guess I'm too young to think of it..I mean I dont wanna get married that's for sure

if I am marrying someone.. I want that someone to be him and him only

But enough about him 

My academics,my studies..

Pause-..this just feels so good ya know.. to let it out .

Anyways continuing,my marks have been bad..as I have stated all those recent chapters about me crying,curled up in a blanket..yes they are true and yes I am miserable but I think in the end it'll pay right?

All this hardwork I'm putting..

I just really hope it does..

Okay I wont be too dramatic cause I'm no more emotional and crying and all that stuff,I am calm right now..

I am seeing books in front of me and my to do list which still has an item to check but I think instead of staying up late and ending up procrastinating and then regretting and then all the self hate..why dont I go to sleep,wake up early,start a fresh day,tell myself that I can do it cause I damn well can and get to it 

Okay?

Sound good?

So yeah obviously there is a lot to tell..new city means new boys,new friends,weird incidents

And I would be writing a bit more than I usually do..cause well this helps alot..and if anyone has anything to say..be it any kinda advice..maybe in the way I write my chapters..I know the way I do them Is really shitty and if I was a reader I would've cussed at myslef so dman bad..I dont even know how Kishiko does it..I mean how can you read all the shit I write without throwing your phone outta the window  dude?

But hey thank you,you are angel

And from Lara angel,it Is something..I kinda started writing again cause of you..

So thank you

And if any kind of advice,clarification you want..I'm here.

Not now tho..I gotta sleep now

Where there is a will there is a way

LaraAngel