Chapter 11:
How Not to Be a Medium
I got scared as I threw away the layers of things, and there was still no trace of the box in which the watch should have been. Fear began to fill my heart, I couldn't wait for Tristan to show himself after gathering enough energy, I wanted to see him and talk to him ... What should I tell him? I gave up searching for a moment, wondering if this was what I should have done, but then realized I owed him it. I was the bad one, at least I had to apologize for everything.
After a while, I exclaimed triumphantly, finally finding that damned watch, but again I had some doubts. I didn't feel confident knowing that I would have to admit my mistake. I had to pull myself together and understand what I felt myself, although so far I was sure that I knew it perfectly well.
A few times I almost grabbed my watch and then withdrew my hand, still trying to summon my courage and searching my head for the right words. I finally grabbed it and pressed it to my chest, pouring all my power into it and summoning the spirit. I didn't sense his presence yet, but I was afraid that when that happened, I wouldn't be able to speak my words, even though I wanted to see him so badly. I closed my eyes and felt that I couldn't hold back my tears any longer.
"Tristan, I don't know if you're already here, and if you can hear me well if you can't show up yet. I wanted to apologize to you for everything. I was mean to you and I couldn't appreciate how lovely you are. I don't deserve someone like you in my life. I've told you so many times to disappear." I laughed through my tears. "I really don't want this to ever happen. It turns out how selfish I am. I just want you for myself, and then I seriously meant that I love you. I needed alcohol to summon the courage to say it out loud. I'm sorry I couldn't understand it sooner. Please just come back to me, I miss you now more than ever." I still didn't feel his presence and just squeezed my eyes shut tighter. "Thank you for the gift, the bracelet is beautiful, I will wear it with pride and boast that it is my beloved's own handiwork."
Suddenly I felt someone hugging me, I recognized this specific spiritual touch without any problems. I let myself be embraced as if all the air was gone and I began to cry even more.
"I'd have been waiting for you forever, but it's nice you understood it a little earlier," Tristan replied, his voice weak but slightly amused. "I love you too."
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