Same place, Same time

       I don't understand why I was so nervous and overthinking it. We both came late, so we just said hi to each other and went our ways. Respectively I speedrunned to class, while she had to go where I was. Thank god I still arrived on time. On the third break, Alan came up to me out of nowhere and asked me what happened between Shara and me. I didn't understand. Why would he ask me such things?

 "I saw that you spoke to each other just a minute ago"

"Okay, and what's the big deal?" after I asked that I think he realized that his reaction was slightly hysterical and questionable. I was looking at him like what are you on bro? He tried to brush it off by saying that he was just curious and wanted to ask me if I want to go somewhere after school. Well, why not. It's been a while. But there is still a lot of time before I can do that. I hope time will go fast at least this time.

      It did not. Him asking what happened between Shara and me got me wondering if something will actually change. Will we talk in school? Only one way to find out. Classes were starting and ending one by one, and nothing really happened. The last class ended. Everyone packed their things and left, including me. As I was walking down the stairs, someone touched my shoulder. I turned around.

 "Hey, do you have any plans today?" it was Shara.

"I am sorry, but I promised Alan that we will go somewhere, but I will definitely have time tomorrow so if you would be still interested."

"Well, okay. Don't forget it." and she walked away. I'll be honest, I don't feel like going anywhere today. But I already said yes so there is no way out for me. I don't want to be an asshole so...

       We agreed to go home to leave our school bags, etc. and meet at the same restaurant as last time at 3 pm. I have a good two hours to recharge a bit. Even though I don't feel like going, I'm usually glad I did go in the end and there is no reason for it to be different this time.

       I don't think lying in my bed is a good idea because I will probably feel dead for the rest of the day. I believe everyone knows what I am talking about. I lose and fall asleep most of the time, but surely not today.

I lost.