Chapter 15

The season changed and spring was upon them. Akaza was finally used to their relationship, even though the cheesy moments gave him goosebumps and his body rejected it, he was comfortable enough to show affection.

“So,” said Akaza one day, his voice full of doubt, “There’s a new festival in town, and I was wondering whether you wanted to go?”

Akaza knew this was a sensitive topic for Kyo. Last time he was around humans, he almost killed one, but Akaza was confident Kyo would be able to get through it without a hitch. Kyo, who was working on another piece of wood in the middle of the room, looked up at Akaza, his hands frozen. Even though Kyo opened his mouth nothing came out of it, and he just blankly stared back at his hands. The memory of his senses being filled by humans, creeping in like worms on his skin.

“It’s okay,” said Akaza sitting down next to Kyo, holding his hands, “We don't have to go. We will have loads of other opportunities.” Akaza gave Kyo a kiss on the cheek, he didn't want to cause trouble for him, he couldn't care less about a festival, he just wanted to experience different things together.

Kyo stared at his lover’s eyes, which transmitted love and worry over him, but also a great sense of reassurance that he would be there for Kyo whenever he was ready.

“What are you working on?” asked Akaza, leaning his head on Kyo’s shoulder.

“I'm trying to carve us together, but I’m bad at this,” said Kyo with a smile on his face, kissing the top of Akaza’s head.

“You really like carving wood, huh? I thought you only took it up to make the nameplate for our house.”

“Well, I love you so much that it just flows out in different ways,” said Kyo, smirking, anticipating Akaza’s reaction.

“Geez. Always with love in your mouth,” said Akaza, his cheeks in shades of pink, his eyes darting to his side.

“I would prefer to have you always in my mouth, you know.”

“You sound like a pervy old man,” said Akaza, interlacing their fingers.

“I think this married life suits me just right though,” said Kyo, brushing the back of Akaza’s hand with his thumb.

“I don't see a ring on my finger,” replied Akaza, lifting his left hand to show it to Kyo.

“There,” said Kyo, grabbing Akaza’s hand, biting the base of his ring finger, “A temporary ring until I get you a proper one.”

Akaza, flushed, got up and went to the kitchen, “You better propose in a big way, or else I won't accept it.”

Kyo followed and hugged him from behind, “Always the best for you,” he said, kissing Akaza’s neck.

After dinner, Akaza prompted Kyo to lay down to give him a massage, straddling his hips, and spreading oil on Kyo’s shoulders and back. A long time passed in silence, Akaza slowly rubbing Kyo’s toned muscles and Kyo enjoying his touch.

“My dick hurts,” said Kyo trying to turn around, “Can we change positions now?”

“No,” replied Akaza, pressing his legs to Kyo’s side so he wouldn’t move, “You’ll push me down the second I let you.”

“But my baby is massaging my back and feels so erotic.”

“What’s erotic about this?” Complained Akaza, rubbing harder on Kyo’s back.

“Well,” Kyo hesitated for a second before continuing, “I can feel your junior rubbing my ass.”

“...shut up,” said Akaza, his face red, conscious about the fact his dick was indeed rubbing on Kyo through the fabric of their clothes.

“Ahh, that doesn't help my dick babe. You’re probably looking so hot right now.”

“Don't call me babe, and not today. I just want you to relax for a bit.”

“Should I call you love? Sweetie? Aka-chan?” said Kyo, teasing him, “Besides, this is causing more tension to my junior instead.”

“You're so embarrassing,” said Akaza, stopping his hands, “There, finito. Was the massage good?

“Great,” said Kyo, turning around when Akaza finally released his hold on his sides. Akaza was still straddling Kyo when he lifted his back from the floor and hugged Akaza, nestling his face on his neck. His arms tightly holding him closer. Akaza ran his fingers on Kyo’s hair and when Kyo looked up with puppy eyes, Akaza kissed his forehead and caressed his cheeks before pulling his face against his neck again.

“I still have nightmares about that night,” said Kyo, after a long pause, finally breaking the silence.

“I know,” said Akaza, holding Kyo closer, still fondling his hair, “You grind your teeth, toss, and turn erratically when you have them.”

“If you knew. Why didn't you say anything?”

“Because I could more or less tell what was causing it,” said Akaza, lightly kissing Kyo’s temple, “I knew that when you were ready, you would talk to me about it. That's why I'm holding you like this. When you're asleep and have nightmares, if I hug you like this, close to my heart, soon you start to relax.”

“That's so embarrassing,” said Kyo, his face sinking deeper. And in a whisper, he said, “I’m scared that I'll hurt you again.”

“Me? Not humans?”

“You’re my priority. I could be hurting anyone in my way, I just can’t take it if I hurt you again.”

“I believe in you. I know you won’t hurt me again.”

“How can you say that? What makes you so sure?”

“My instincts, I guess. Believe in the me that believes in you,” said Akaza, pulling Kyo’s face up, giving him a peck on his lips.

“Thank you,” said Kyo, staring Akaza in the eyes for a few seconds before he nuzzled himself on his neck again.