I don't understand

At that moment, I still held the idea of muddling along, thinking that one day is one day, one moment is one moment, muddle along

After a while, the top of the mountain reached the ancient temple on the mountain. At this time, there were not many pilgrims, and the incense burner in the middle of the yard was filled with residual and smoking incense.

Liu Yue looked serious and pulled me. First she put on incense, respectfully lit the incense and inserted it into the ashes of the incense burner, and then bowed with her hands together.

I stood next to Liu Yue, learning to behave like Liu Yue.

Then, Liu Yue led me into the hall, knelt down in front of the Buddha statue in the middle of the hall, bowed and bowed in a standard posture

I also learned the appearance of Liu Yue nearby, closed my eyes and kowtowed, and murmured in my heart: Buddha bless me and Sister Yue'er to be married, to be happy for a hundred years, and to grow old together... Amen

After burning the incense, Liu Yue and I wandered around the top of the mountain for a while to see if it was getting late, so we went back down the mountain.

On the way back, Liu Yue looked at me and said, "Feng, did you make a wish when worshipping Buddha?"

"Of course I made a wish. I hope the Buddha bless us forever and hope we can be beautiful and happy... What's your wish?" I said.

When Liu Yue heard me say this, her eyes showed longing and gratification. However, I could see that there was still some melancholy and dissociation in them.

"I also made a wish. I hope that Buddha will bless A Feng to grow up healthily, be happy every day, develop his career and become a real man..." Liu Yue said softly, looking at the gray city.

Liu Yue's wish only blessed me, not us, which made me somewhat regretful.

Liu Yue saw my regret and gently pressed her lips, saying nothing.

Until now, until Liu Yue said that she loved me, I almost knew nothing about Liu Yue's past, and I just skimmed through her personality and habits, and looked at the flowers at a glance. The passionate flame covered everything.

I hold a principle. If she doesn't say it, I won't ask. I'm naturally a curious but not inquisitive person. My heart is extremely calm, although I want to know.

The path down the mountain was another one, winding and winding. I was unfamiliar with it, so I followed Liu Yue.

Walking around, Liu Yue took me into the deep forest. There was no sign of people around. There was no road ahead. There was only a dense cluster of bamboo forests, and there was a thick layer of fresh bamboo leaves scattered on the ground.

Liu Yue stopped, suddenly turned around and looked at me with eager and expectant eyes: "Feng, here is very hidden and quiet, no one comes here..."

I know, hold Liu Yue tightly

There was silence all around. Only the birds in the forest were twittering and flying. Occasionally, a gust of mountain wind blew by, and the rustle of leaves came from

After the end, Liu Yue looked at me with a naughty smile: "Feng, do you like it?"

"I like it, but I'm a bit afraid of others seeing it."

Liu Yue smiled: "Ah Feng, remember this day, one year, one day, Liu Yue and Jiang Feng visited here and left a strong impression..."

I smiled, and Liu Yue also smiled.

My love for Liu Yue is getting deeper and stronger. In addition, I think Liu Yue is also getting better and more intimate with me, even though I still see a trace of melancholy and confusion in her eyes from time to time.

The dinner was eaten in Liu Yue's dormitory. Liu Yue cooked several dishes and opened a bottle of red wine to see me off.

This scene reminds me of the first time I had dinner at Liu Yue's home. Liu Yue also stir-fried vegetables, opened wine and raised a glass.

With a fresh and excited mood, I ate, drank, and chatted with Liu Yue in a warm atmosphere.

After a bottle of red wine was drunk, Liu Yue opened a second bottle, and we continued to drink.

I can see that Liu Yue is very interested in drinking today, and her white face shows a slight blush, which is more enchanting and charming.

"Ah Feng, I have something to say to you for a long time, but I haven't had the chance to say it through..." Liu Yue lit two cigarettes, handed me one, took a slow breath, spit it out gracefully, and looked at me with serious and melancholy eyes.

"You say."

"We..." Liu Yue paused: "Feng, we... do you think it is possible between us at last?"

"Why not?" I asked. Actually, I know what Liu Yue meant.

"No, you know, because of age, because I am a woman, because you are a man, I am 12 years older than you!"

"Is age so important?" I continued to ask, playing with my glass.

"Maybe age is not so important in our eyes, but in the eyes of the world, in the eyes of people around us, and in the eyes of your family... it is very important! Men can be older than women, but women can't be older than men..."

"I don't care, I don't care!" I raised my voice.

"You can't care, you can't care, but some people will care, some people will care..." Liu Yue continued calmly: "Although love has no age limit, there are some secular things, and there are some marriage... brother-in-law love is always an impassable threshold..."

I looked up at Liu Yue, The tone was firm: "But I will step over, I will not care about all the resistance of the world, nothing can stop me from loving you, nothing can stop me from being with you, no matter how many difficulties and obstacles, nothing can stop me from pursuing love, nothing can stop our love! Moon, I hope you have the same firm faith as me, as long as we love each other sincerely, nothing can stop us! Never!"

At that moment, my determination was incomparably firm, my will was incomparably strong, my tone was incomparably firm, I felt that I was suddenly very man!

With my encouragement, Liu Yue's eyes shone with hope and enthusiasm: "Do you really think so?"

"Yes!"

"So - where do you love me?"

"I love everything about you, your appearance, your heart, your soul, your body, your temperament, your quality... In short, I love both your strengths and weaknesses!" I said in a breath.

"However, one day, I will be old, and I will be older than you..." Liu Yue's eyes dimmed again.

"Your body is aging, your heart is not aging, your soul, in my heart, in my eyes, you will always be young and beautiful, you will always be vigorous and young, what I love most is your fresh heart and not old temperament, you will never be old in my heart... forever..." I reached out and held Liu Yue's hand across the table, and stared at Liu Yue with my eyes very sincere.

Liu Yue seemed to be moved and her eyes were wet: "Feng, I love you... I will be right to you, and I will love you in the future..."

I was also touched, holding Liu Yue's hand tightly and feeling the heat and beat from Liu Yue's thin fingers: "Moon, I love you so much, I will spend my life with you and care for you..."

At that moment, we looked at each other with tenderness. I saw that Liu Yue's eyes were full of incomparable affection and tenderness.

At that moment, I knew that the end of Qing'er and me was coming! Although I still don't know how to face Qinger and how to end it.

My heart suddenly flashed a little uneasy, and then the expression on my face moved slightly.

"What's the matter with you?" Liu Yue said with a smile, keenly aware of the change in my expression.

"Nothing, drink!" I released Liu Yue's hand and raised my glass: "Moon, come, drink to us, drink to our tomorrow!"

Liu Yue stared at me silently for about 2 seconds, which made me feel very uncomfortable. I think Liu Yue's eyes seem to have seen through my heart and what I think. I think I am very mean, dirty, shameless and dirty, and my heart is full of feelings of shame.

Fortunately, Liu Yue just looked at it, and then raised his glass to clink it with me and killed it.

"A Feng, when we were colleagues and colleagues, I valued you very much and appreciated you very much. You are smart, sharp, smart, sociable, quick to accept new things, and have the talent of being a reporter in politics. I know that as long as you work hard, you will soon be ahead of your peers, and you will be outstanding..." Liu Yue put down the glass and picked up the bottle, Pour me wine and say: "Now, you are my man, my beloved man, and I have higher hopes for you... Men can't indulge in their children's private affairs, men must have a career, good men are ambitious, and big men should run the world... I hope you have a lofty ideal, have your own life goals, have a correct outlook on life and values, and live a positive life. I hope you can become the best of men People... I will be your strong backing and the strongest supporter... "

This is the wish and ideal of every man, and it is also the deepest desire in my heart. I am encouraged by Liu Yue's words, and I nod: "I remember!"

"In your circle and around you, don't compare yourself with your peers, but compare yourself with the best people, no matter how much older they are, whether men or women, what they can have and do, as long as you work hard, as long as you work hard, you can have and do... I firmly believe that Feng, you will be the best man and the most successful man..."

Nothing is more inspiring than this. I clenched my fist confidently: "Sister, I will work hard to do things well, I will continuously improve my ability, I will prove my ability, I will realize my ideal, I will realize my life value, I will never live up to your expectations..."

At that moment, I was very ambitious.

Liu Yue smiled reassuringly and looked at me with a trusting gaze, "I have always believed in my own vision, and I know I can't be mistaken... Remember, at any time, even if it's not for me, it's also necessary to have ideals and achievements... Of course, for me, I'll be even happier... Society is very complex and cruel, and many times, only ability is not enough, and there must be enough external forces..."

"External force?"

"Yes, external forces..." Liu Yue smiled softly: "silly boy, external forces are relationships. Later, you will know that relationships are also productivity..."

I nodded vaguely.

After drinking the second bottle, Liu Yue's face turned even redder and looked at me enchantingly: "Feng, let's dance..."