Heart Beats

Like the first time, Liu Yue and I came to the living room, and Liu Yue turned on the stereo. It was Deng Lijun's "Just Like Your Tender", which Liu Yue seemed to particularly like.

When gentle and soft music filled the living room, under the soft light, Liu Yue and I hugged each other and moved slowly in the living room.

Jumping and jumping, Liu Yue slowly pulled me close to the sofa and fell down on the sofa

That night was destined to be unforgettable.

Early the next morning, I got on the bus back to Jianghai. Liu Yue personally took me to the station and bought me a lot of food on the way.

"Go back to work hard, remember to write often, and I will write to you!" Liu Yue stood under the window, looking up at me, her eyes moist.

When the car started, I reluctantly waved goodbye to Liu Yue. The car went a long way. I looked back and saw Liu Yue still standing there, looking lonely and lonely.

Meeting is always so exciting and exciting, leaving is always so sad and palpitating. I looked out of my window at the green fields. When can I see Liu Yue again?

Liu Yue still didn't talk about her past with me this time. She doesn't say, I still don't ask. I know when it's time to say, Liu Yue will tell me.

Leave Liuyue and return to Jianghai. I will face Qinger and farewell to Qinger!

At the thought of this, I couldn't help feeling at a loss. I didn't know how to tell Qinger. I was very hesitant.

Back in Jianghai, I didn't think how to say goodbye to Qinger. I lacked enough courage and courage. Qinger was impeccable to me, and I couldn't find a reason; I dare not face Qing'er with a kind heart or the hurt eyes in her eyes.

I know I am an asshole, and I am despised by others. However, I seem to be pulled by some force, and I walk down a one-way street without hesitation. I can't turn back.

Although I didn't say goodbye to Qinger, my heart has lost Qinger, and I unknowingly began to alienate Qinger. In addition to my work, I am filled with Liu Yue every day. In my mind and in my heart, only Liu Yue and Qinger have no place at all.

Looking back on my emotional change process, I felt that I was terrible and shameless, desecrated Qinger's love for me, and was not worthy to accept Qinger's love. At the same time, I deeply felt that the love between Qinger and me was so fragile. In front of Liu Yue, my belief and attachment to love immediately disappeared and became shattered.

Time is passing day by day, and in a blink of an eye, a month has passed. The summer heat has receded, and the cool autumn has quietly infiltrated everyone's body.

During this month, Liu Yue and I exchanged letters in addition to calling through the BB machine, maintaining the frequency of weekly letters.

I wrote to Liu Yue. In addition to confiding in my love affair, she reported her recent work. When Liu Yue wrote back to me, she talked more about my work, helped me analyze the problems and solutions in my work, and encouraged me to work well. Occasionally, she would also talk about her work in the Propaganda Department of the Provincial Party Committee.

I firmly remember Liu Yue's words: Men must have a career.

In addition to missing Liu Yue, I devote more time to my work. I almost never rest on weekends. I usually interview outside. Even if I have not arranged my interview task, I will take the initiative to find topics and go to interview.

In addition to work reasons, I do not want to create opportunities with Qinger. Every time Qinger calls me or calls me, I am always busy and on business. When Qinger came to my dormitory several times to see me, she always got the cold shoulder. I interviewed in the county.

From the tone in which Qinger called me, I felt that Qinger missed me very much on the one hand, but also loved me very much on the other hand, and told me not to work too hard and pay more attention to my health.

I feel that I and Qinger are talking less and less now, and there is nothing to say between them. Qinger's soft talk was my favorite condiment before, but now, in my eyes, it is full of boredom and boredom, and it has become chattering, very superficial and very tender. And talking with Liu Yue is so full of charm and philosophy, so mature and deep

I know I'm changing. From mind to heart, I can't stop myself. I can't stop myself. I'm slipping deeper and deeper in the mire of abundance

My nearly crazy work has won Liu Fei's praise and praise. At the same time, my name appears more and more frequently in the newspaper. At most one day, there are four pages of the newspaper. Except for four pages of advertisements, each page has my important manuscript. My colleagues in the Department of Public Information also looked at me with great admiration and respect. In particular, Chen Jing reads my articles in this newspaper every day, and then publicly praises and comments in the office, while not shy of looking at me warmly.

I know that respect comes from strength, especially in newspapers and pens. If you can't write a manuscript, you can't stand in the Department of Public Information, and no one will really take you seriously. I got their respect with my ability.

I don't communicate with Chen Jing, and I don't have any other ideas for Chen Jing, because I have Liu Yue in my heart, my sister Yue'er. What's more, I recently discovered that Liu Fei, who was divorced once, originally had such a deep interest in Chen Jing. It was when I happened to meet him when I returned to the office after work. At that time, Liu Fei was confessing his true feelings to Chen Jing, while I was standing at the door and heard the key words. I immediately remembered that when Chen Jing looked at me with that kind of eyes, Liu Fei's eyes were full of jealousy and unhappiness. Even though they disappeared in a flash, they could not escape my same keen eyes.

I don't want to offend Liu Fei because he is my leader. Liu Yue said to me: respect and respect the leaders. Don't fight against the leaders. If you offend the leaders, there will be no good end.

Therefore, I always communicate with Chen Jing politely with a pure colleague's eyes and smile, although her smile looks at me vaguely.

There is one thing that makes me unhappy. Liu Yue sent me these letters from the reception room downstairs. Although Liu Yue used an ordinary envelope and the sender didn't write the address and name there, I always felt that Liu Fei's eyes were always full of a different meaning when he delivered the letter to me. What's the meaning, I can't say. Anyway, I felt very awkward.

I sometimes feel that Liu Fei's eyes behind his lenses are often full of wisdom and alertness, or cunning and nimble.

During this month, when I passed Liu Yue's closed office every day, I always felt an inexplicable expectation and watch. I thought that the door of the office might suddenly open that day, and there was my Director Liu. However, I was afraid that the door would open. Liu Yue's seat was not Liu Yue, but Liu Fei. That means Liu Yue's transfer formalities have been completed and Liu Yue has left completely.

I passed by Liu Yue's office with a complex mood, which is the same every day.

At 9:30 that morning, I had just returned to the newspaper office from a meeting outside, when the messenger just left. I rushed to the mail room excitedly and looked forward to seeing if there was any letter sent to me by Liu Yue. According to my calculation, the time should be about the same.

Every time I receive this letter, I finish reading it, I respond to it, and then I fall into the expectation of waiting for the next letter. This expectation is full of sweetness and suffering, happiness and longing, as well as pain and enjoyment.

In Liu Yue's reply to me, there was little talk about our common tomorrow and future, and almost no vision and fantasy, which made me feel reluctant. Every time I received a letter, I thought maybe Liu Yue would talk about our future in this letter.

I was always fond of fantasy.

At the gate of the reception room, I happened to meet Mei Ling standing inside.

When she saw me, Mei Ling's affectionate eyes were full of provocation: "Jiang Feng, have you come back from an interview? Here is your letter."

With that, Mei Lingyang raised a white envelope in her hand.

Damn it, Mei Ling always looks at me like this. I didn't understand it at that time. Later, I experienced more romantic scenes, and I knew that Mei Ling's eyes were called peach eyes, which were specially used to seduce men.

"Yes, the interview is back," I said politely, took the envelope in Mei Ling's hand and said, "Thank you, Director Mei."

As soon as I looked at the beautiful font on the envelope, I knew it was Liu Yue's, and I couldn't help laughing.

Mei Ling looked at me and looked at the envelope in my hand: "The letter from my girlfriend? You look so high..."

Seeing Mei Ling's attentive and questioning eyes, my heart jumped and I quickly made a look of disapproval, smiled noncommittally, and turned upstairs.

When I walked up the stairs, I looked back. Mei Ling was still looking at me, and her eyes seemed thoughtful.

My heart beat even harder and I quickly ran back to the office in three steps.

When I returned to the office, I was not eager to read the letter. Although I couldn't wait in my heart, I wanted to leave this joy in the dormitory. Where can I read Liu Yue's letter safely and without scruples. In the office, I always felt Liu Fei's suspicious eyes hovering around me. He was probably doubting something, but there was no conclusive evidence.

I kept all the letters Liu Yue sent to me completely, not in my office, but under the pillow mat of my dormitory bed, in the dead of night. When I thought Liu Yue couldn't sleep, I would find out Liu Yue's letter, read it carefully, and recall Liu Yue's delicacy and tenderness, recall every action and smile together with Liu Yue, and sleep safely in warm memories

It is quiet in the office. Liu Fei is reading a newspaper. Chen Jing is typing on a 386 computer. There is no computer in front of my desk. I only write by hand.

I said hello to Liu Fei and Chen Jing, sat at my desk and began to write the meeting I just interviewed. After 30 minutes, a news release was completed. I checked it once, attached the release sign, signed my name, and handed it to Liu Fei: "Director Liu, it's finished, here you are."

"Jiang Feng, you are really a fast shooter, and the speed of manuscript is really fast!" Chen Jing looked back at me, his eyes were full of water spirit: "Alas... why don't I have the speed of you, I wish my brain could be so useful..."