Surprisingly tasteless

"I didn't feel that the passionate kisses that used to fascinate me now taste like nothing at all.".

I haven't seen you for more than a month, so Qing'er naturally wants to get more intimate with me.

My mind is churning violently, and I'm wondering whether to have a showdown with Qinger.

Qinger's gentle affection made me unable to speak. I pushed Qinger away gently.

Qinger obviously felt my coldness, but she didn't give up, instead, she more tenderly arched into my arms.

I lay there in a daze, with the charm and tenderness of Liu Yue in my mind, and the sweet kiss of Qinger in my mind, the blood flowing, and the pain in my heart

I saw Qing'er's eyes staring at me in the dark, very close to mine. I could clearly see the fear and anxiety in Qing'er's eyes

"I haven't rested yet, and I haven't felt myself, so go to bed early..." Seeing Qinger's eyes, I dismissed the idea of showdown with her at the moment, turned around, turned my back to Qinger, and at the same time made a secret decision in my heart that I must speak clearly with Qinger tomorrow.

Qinger was silent, lying behind me.

My mind was wandering and I slowly fell asleep.

In my sleep, I dreamt of Liu Yue. I dreamt that Liu Yue and I were walking together in the moonlight mountains, chatting together, imagining the future and looking forward to tomorrow

The next day, I woke up. Qinger got up and was sitting at the desk in a daze with red eyes.

I felt a burst of apology, "What's the matter? Didn't sleep well?"

When Qinger saw me wake up, she stood up hurriedly and smiled reluctantly: "Nothing... nothing, I'll cook for you..."

After a while, the meal was ready. Qinger and I ate silently together. While eating, my bb machine rang. I opened it and said, "Meet at the gate of the municipal party committee in 20 minutes. There is an urgent interview task. -- Liu Fei"

"No, I have something urgent. I need to gather urgently!" I put down my job and said to Qinger.

Qinger put down her job and looked at me silently, her eyes full of melancholy.

I picked up my briefcase in a hurry and rode my bike to the door of the municipal party committee.

Arrived at the gate of the municipal party committee, boarded a waiting minibus, and then learned that a big leader suddenly came to the province. I would like to interview with him. The leader would go to the county below to inspect for three days.

After the car started, I suddenly found that I forgot to bring the BB machine and left it in the dormitory.

I regret my impatience, but I can't help it.

Three days later, I successfully completed the interview task, returned to the social media and returned directly to the dormitory.

The dormitory is quiet, everything is still in order as before, and my BB machine is safely placed on the pillow.

I walked over in three steps and two steps, grabbed the BB machine, and looked at it. It was turned off.

I pressed the power-on button, but there was no movement. Then I found that the BB battery was dead.

I'm relieved that there is no electricity. It's good. If there is no electricity, Qing'er will not see the information inside.

The reason why I think so is that I don't want the information in the BB to stimulate Qinger, although I intend to leave her.

However, then, another idea flashed in my mind. When did the BB machine run out of electricity? Was it not long after I left or just not? If it just disappeared, didn't Qinger see the content of the SMS before she left?

My heart is nervous again. I really don't want to over-stimulate Qinger.

I lay down on the bed tired and smelled the fragrance of the pillow. After washing, I immediately realized that Qinger washed the pillowcase after I left.

Then I found that not only the pillowcases, but also the sheets were clean and freshly washed.

My heart suddenly burst into a frenzy and opened the mattress under the pillow to see what I had stored under the mattress.

When I opened it, I was stunned. Nearly 10 letters sent to me by Liu Yue under the mattress were completely missing, one was missing!

My head was suddenly covered with blood. Why is the letter missing? Where has the letter gone?

Holding the soft mattress, I suddenly realized that it must be after I left in a hurry that Qinger dried the mattress, washed the sheets and pillowcases for me. When drying the mattress, Liu Yue's letter was exposed

Then, the letter must have been taken away by Qinger. Then, Qinger must have seen all the contents of the letter. Then, I don't need to say anything about Liu Yue. Qinger must have known all about it

Sitting in my dormitory, my mind turned upside down, like the blow these letters brought to Qinger, and the storm I was about to face

Or Qinger will come soon and angrily ask me about my treachery; Or Qinger will go back to my hometown directly, find my parents, move to rescue the soldiers, and then I will wait for my father's beating and my mother's crying; Or Qinger's parents will find my unit and accuse me of Chen Shimei

My mind is foggy, and I think of the storm I will face

"My mood was frantic and frustrated. I could have taken the initiative to solve this problem myself, but now I have become quite passive.".

I don't know what is coming.

I spent two days in a state of anxiety, but nothing happened. The things I imagined didn't appear. However, I didn't receive any BB messages and phone calls from Qinger. Qinger seemed to be testing my will with great patience, or waiting for me to take the initiative to find her.

I set my mind to face it bravely since it has already happened. Anyway, it will come to this step sooner or later.

On the morning of the third day, I received a large, bulging envelope. My heart jumped violently at the familiar font on the envelope

The letter was sent by Qinger. I'm familiar with Qinger's handwriting.

My colleagues in the office were all there, and I didn't open the envelope. After finishing the task at hand, I rushed to the dormitory with the envelope in a hurry.

After closing the door of the dormitory, I tore open the big envelope impatiently, and suddenly dropped out a stack of envelopes, which fell to the ground in a scattered manner.

I knew at a glance that these were Liu Yue's letters, which were found and taken away by Qinger. After five days, Qinger must have carefully studied and pondered over these five days

I can't imagine Qinger's mood and state when reading these letters. I dare not think more.

My heart was in a mess, and I slowly squatted down on the ground and picked up the envelope that had fallen on the ground. Only then did I discover that there was still a letter on the ground, a sealed letter, and on the envelope was Qinger's familiar font.

I know that this must be a letter written by Qinger to me. This letter must contain all the pain and sadness of Qinger these days.

I picked up all the envelopes on the ground and packed them. I took the envelope written by Qinger to me and looked left and right in my hand, but I still didn't have the courage to open it. I don't know how much pain and remorse Qinger will face after opening it. When I think of this, I went to open the envelope with courage.

I lay on the bed in the dormitory, my eyes were dull and weak, and my mood was terrible.

Just then, my BB machine rang. I opened it and saw Liu Yue's message: "Feng, I have finished accompanying you and returned to Xijing safely. -- Yue'er"

When I think of Liu Yue, my heart suddenly surges with great courage and great strength. I think I should be brave to meet everything and face everything. In the face of all the storms, I should be a brave petrel, the petrel described by Golgiby.

I sat up from the bed, took Qinger's envelope, opened it without hesitation, drew out the letter paper, and unfolded it

However, to my surprise, there was only one piece of writing paper in the envelope, which was almost blank, without any words, and only a few punctuation marks:

At the same time, the letter paper was covered with water stains, little water stains

There are seven question marks, exclamation marks and ellipses. I understand that this represents our seven-year relationship from high school to college.

I understand that this is Qinger's wordless expression of strong doubt, incomparable anger and great sadness. Qinger's sky must have collapsed at the moment, and the great sadness must have knocked her down

My heart swelled with great guilt. I felt deeply sorry for Qinger and failed Qinger. I had no courage to look back

I know that Qinger didn't take any more measures. She was silently bearing all this

I didn't expect that things would be solved in this way, which greatly surprised me. I know that everything between me and Qinger is over, and everything from high school to college is gone

I know that I have deeply hurt Qinger. Qinger may never contact me again. These simple punctuation marks, as well as the water stains on the letter, have told me how Qinger is suffering and suffering

It all ended in this way, and ended silently

I suddenly felt a great loss in my heart. Instead of what I thought was the storm, Qing'er was greeted with an extremely simple and wordless letter paper that was almost blank

My heart ached

The following days were calm, and I was still busy every day. Qinger had no more information and news.

Perhaps everything really ended like this. After several days of anxiety, my heart gradually calmed down.

Liu Yue still sent me a letter every week and BB information once a day, talking about work, life, today and tomorrow, as before

I can't believe that this thing will calm down so smoothly and quietly. Everything I expected didn't happen, but it made me feel a little abnormal. I even can't believe that the happiness of Liu Yue and I really came this way, and it really became a reality. I really can be qualified to fall in love with Liu Yue without obstacles in my heart

That day, I received a call from the third student in the same dormitory of the university. He also graduated and stayed in school to work.

From the third, I finally learned the news of Qinger.

"Xu Qing is discharged..." This is the first sentence that the third told me.

"Ah - what's the matter?" I asked hurriedly.

"Ask knowingly, Jiang Feng, you are really nothing!" This is the second sentence that the third man said to me, with a cold tone.

After that, the third man hung up.

I am numb. Is Qing'er just discharged from hospital because I have been in hospital?

I touched the phone and called the third: "Third, tell me, what happened to Qinger?"

"It's okay, Qing'er has been seriously ill and has recovered... Qing'er has nothing to do with you from now on. You can go to your sunny path. I'm blind and have made a friend like you!" said the third person viciously on the phone "What's wrong with Qing'er? What's wrong with Qing'er? Where can Qing'er feel sorry for you? You bastard, how dare you hurt her like this... You and that old lady of yours should die together..."