Chapter 28:

My Education

I Didn't Even Want to Live, But God Forced Me to Reincarnate!


From that day onwards, I’ve been friends with the pri—I mean, Luca. Yes, I shouldn’t be addressing to him as the prince anymore. It’s just “Luca”. Forget his title~!Bookmark here

He’s the first friend of the same age that I’ve ever made and stayed in touch with.Bookmark here

The more time I spent with him, the more I know that he’s such a prideful little one, as he has hard times admitting things like defeat—and he even had a hard time when I told him to apologize to all the maids and others that fell into his pranks.Bookmark here

Yes, this is what happened. I could still feel the frustration from remembering this particular event.Bookmark here

“Excuse me, but Luca wants to say something to you,” I half-dragged Luca by his shirt. He seemed quite reluctant to follow through with my suggestion.Bookmark here

But he has to apologize, at all cost!Bookmark here

It’s bad if he is not used to admit his mistakes and apologize!!Bookmark here

In front of me, there was the young maid we teased the other day.Bookmark here

“Y-yes, what is it?” The maid pondered.Bookmark here

“For the other day, I’m really sorry for the prank. Also...,” I shifted my eyes towards Luca who was standing behind me.Bookmark here

“Hey, come on, say it, too!”Bookmark here

“...,” Luca faced away in response.Bookmark here

“Hello, this is not our deal!”Bookmark here

Luca timidly glanced at the young maid, who was attentively looking at the prince, worrying over what might the prince want to tell her.Bookmark here

“...that... the other day... you didn’t get sick, right?”Bookmark here

Luca finally opened his mouth, but boy, that’s now what I expected to hear!Bookmark here

“Oh, the water prank the other day? I’m okay,” the young maid exhaled in relief.Bookmark here

“Then, all is good,” Luca started to walk away.Bookmark here

...WAIT WHAT?!Bookmark here

BUT!! THAT!! IS NO WAY A PROPER APOLOGY!Bookmark here

I quickly grabbed his shirt again.Bookmark here

All is good, what?! You need to properly apologize!! Say s-o-r-r-y, at least!”Bookmark here

“Uuuugh...,” his ears were getting red again.Bookmark here

“Ahaha, it’s okay, it’s okay, I get it,” the young maid smiled, after seeing Luca’s reaction.Bookmark here

“See? She already got it!” Luca argued.Bookmark here

There is no need to say what she’s already understood, so he thought.Bookmark here

“Arrggghhhhh!!” I was left speechless.Bookmark here

Well, but I think his apology got across, so it’s okay, at the end of the day.Bookmark here

This... can be counted as an improvement... right?Bookmark here

Haha...Bookmark here

Ahaha...Bookmark here

From that day too, he has never skipped any of his private education and training. He stopped his mischief in exchange of my accompanion.Bookmark here

(Well, I did threat him that I would not see him anymore if he continued all his mischief!)Bookmark here

He also tried to get along with the other kids around—such as the maids’ kids who are now wary of him, and I usually would encourage them to not be that cautious around us.Bookmark here

(The result is not that good, but oh well)Bookmark here

Luca has gotten closer to his sister, and now he’s starting to accept and understand his role as a big brother. Instead of pouting in jealousy when his mother needs to tend to his sister, he’d even assist his mother nowadays, as I suggested to him.Bookmark here

(To my surprise, he listened to others’ advices quite earnestly!!)Bookmark here

He was unwilling to assist his mother in anything involving Leti before this, but thankfully he’s started opening up for Leti.Bookmark here

Even Leti seems to develop an attachment to Luca. Like how she seems to be smiling whenever Luca comes to see her. Perhaps developing their bonds as siblings also helped in mending his loneliness.Bookmark here

Thankfully, he doesn’t become a doting brother that has a sis-con, despite how cute Leti is. Perhaps it has something to do with his own natural predisposition, as he has hard times in being honest.Bookmark here

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Besides just playing with Luca, I was also squeezed into his education or training from time to time! Nobody seemed to object my participation, and Luca was glad—I mean motivated, to have a rival!Bookmark here

Eh?Bookmark here

What about my own “noble” education?? Shouldn’t it also start, just as how Luca’s started on his education?Bookmark here

For your information, Altaire would often have his private noble education with a tutor Dad hired for him, starting when he was four, especially during when my parents were busy enough that at times, they couldn’t spare enough time to privately educate Altaire.Bookmark here

The private sessions are reduced when Alt-nii started to enter school, as he’d have education on morals and etiquette in school, as well. He may need to have some courses on other things such as dancing or leading his partner in a dance—but that will be for when he’s older.Bookmark here

As for me...Bookmark here

Well, needless to say that I’ve long passed that stage (in my past incarnation).Bookmark here

But obviously, the matter regarding my education is finally being talked out.Bookmark here

It’s about time.Bookmark here

I have expected it to come!Bookmark here

“Hey, Lyra, what kind of teacher do you like? What about the ones you’ve met during when you accompanied Luca?”Bookmark here

My mom was considering on the tutor she’d hire for me, and she is aware that I sometimes accompanied Luca on his private education.Bookmark here

“Hmmm, all of them are okay, Mom!” I answered honestly, as I don’t have any favorite among them.Bookmark here

They are all good teachers.Bookmark here

“Is that so? Well... I guess I should go and talk to them, then.”Bookmark here

And that’s how Mom finds out that I showed a remarkable attitude and result during my sessions with Luca and his tutors.Bookmark here

(Luca was really taken aback by this and as competitive as he is, vows that he will defeat me if he tries hard enough).Bookmark here

The tutors talked about this with my mom and they agreed on testing me before my mom decided on educating me.Bookmark here

Truthfully, after years and years of education, especially the queen’s training, the correct etiquette and attitude’s been drilled to my head. Now I’m in dilemma.Bookmark here

If I were to show all that I can do and know, they will surely wonder on how can I grasp all that despite not having been educated all this time?Bookmark here

But, if I were to deliberately make mistakes and limit my abilities to a normal 4 year-old’s, I’d be doomed to repeat all I’ve been through.Bookmark here

Between the two of them... I finally decided.Bookmark here

I’d just go all out and show them what I’m capable of!!Bookmark here

So that I can have more free time!!Bookmark here

No way in hell I’m going to invest my time in something that I’ve been learning all my life (yes, all my life, literally, during my past incarnation).Bookmark here

It is certainly not a safe thing to do, but I don’t want to waste my second life.Bookmark here

I will come up with excuses for how can I do that...Bookmark here

Like, intuition, or from shows I’ve seen, or story books, or learning from other people’s behavior that I observed, things like that. They are now under the impression that I’m a fast learner—an absurdly fast one.Bookmark here

Or I was just born gifted to be a noble.Bookmark here

Oh, whatever, let’s just face it head-on, after the deed’s done.Bookmark here

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After showing my remarkable ability that can even pass the queen’s selection test, my parents and the tutors all trembled in horror.Bookmark here

“This child is... extraordinarily gifted!”Bookmark here

“How can it be, a four year old...?!”Bookmark here

“Hey, Lyra-sama, could you tell us how could you do that? Were you especially trained all this time?”Bookmark here

The tutors all questioned me. My parents also stared at me with puzzled expressions.Bookmark here

[Oh yeah, I was trained to be the perfect example of a noble lady for 13 years of my life. Eh? Don’t get me wrong, this is my second life. I was talking about my first life! Hohoho!!]Bookmark here

...wait, ‘hohoho’? Who was it? It is definitely not the present me, and not the past me.Bookmark here

It was so out-of-character!!Bookmark here

But, I can’t answer them like that!! I definitely can’t!! What will they say about it afterwards? How will they judge me?!Bookmark here

More importantly... what will my parents think of a child like me?Bookmark here

They must think that the whole idea of their child... wasn’t really their child—or rather, she was someone else’s reincarnation... would totally be a revolting thought.Bookmark here

They must think that I—the soul of Reinst—took over the body of their child. I won’t completely be their child that way, as I retained who I was, before even being born as their child.Bookmark here

...I don’t want to be shunned, no, no.Bookmark here

I must hide this abnormality of mine, at all cost!!Bookmark here

...like hell I could say this honest answer?Bookmark here

“Uh... I... somehow could grasp it. From what I’ve read. From what I heard. And from seeing the other nobles around me... And no, I didn’t get any kind of special training...”Bookmark here

As I said that, the tutors murmured and my parents were silent, thinking.Bookmark here

“Learning from her environment and the things she read and heard alone...? Seriously?!” A tutor shouted in her disbelief.Bookmark here

They still couldn’t comprehend my results and answers. No indication of cheating, no way that could happen under their strict supervision. And no bribing.Bookmark here

“Lyra... wow... just wow...” (This is Dad, not Mom.)Bookmark here

“As expected of my daughter!” (This is Mom, she sounds just like Dad here, but that means she must be very proud of her daughter. She even claps her hands in happiness—before getting confused about how I could do all that)Bookmark here

Those were the lines that I heard from my parents after they decided to abort their “thinking” mode.Bookmark here

In the end, I was dismissed after the results were out.Bookmark here

At the end of the day, my parents didn’t say anything but... they would surely be curious and even suspicious, right?Bookmark here

I am so prepared to their questioning at home, but what comes out of Mom’s mouth during when we are home, surprises me.Bookmark here

“So, Lyra... you can choose : will you go through all the education of what you’ve shown that you’re capable of, just in case... or not?”Bookmark here

Huh?Bookmark here

“...I can choose?”Bookmark here

“Yes, dear.”Bookmark here

Where is my questioning, Mom, Dad?Bookmark here

But they don’t seem to give me any follow-up questions after what were questioned to me at the castle.Bookmark here

Their gazes are fixed on me, and I don’t sense anything negative from their gazes. They are fully waiting for me to answer.Bookmark here

“...Can I invest my time to learn other things?”Bookmark here

Dad and Mom smiled.Bookmark here

“Of course, dear, tell us what you would like to know.” (Mom)Bookmark here

“Or you are also free to just enjoy your time to relax, you know.” (Dad, with his typical spoiling attitude.)Bookmark here

And that is how I won’t have to relearn everything that I’ve already mastered!Bookmark here

But sometimes, I’d drop by in Luca’s training session just to update my knowledge and to lit the fire of competition in Luca’s eyes.Bookmark here

“Khhhh---how can you know that? ...As the prince of this country, I won’t lose! I will show you what I’m capable of when I’m serious! Just you see, this time I lost because I wasn’t being serious at all!”Bookmark here

Or, any similar line.Bookmark here

It’s quite fun teasing him!Bookmark here

Oh, and, due to my remarkable result especially in terms of the noble lady’s education and training, the tutors highly recommended me to be the prince’s suitor.Bookmark here

The king is interested in this possibility, of course!Bookmark here

I knew it!! The king’s ulterior motive!!Bookmark here

That’s why, he invited me and Dad to drink a tea with Luca...Bookmark here

(This is... definitely a set-up!! I can sense a danger flag from his invitation!!)Bookmark here

“Say, Cyan, what about betrothing my son to your daughter?”Bookmark here

“””HUH?!””” (Me, Dad, and Luca, in unison)Bookmark here

As I expected!! Bookmark here

“W-w-wait, Titus. You said the other day that it wasn’t your intention at all...?”Bookmark here

“Yeah, but everyone’s been recommending that idea to me. I’m also interested in becoming in-laws with you!” The king’s eyes were suddenly lit.Bookmark here

“...,” Dad went silent and his gaze went very far away.Bookmark here

“W, w, what?! What are you talking about, Father?” Luca asked.Bookmark here

“Well, it’s a good idea, son. You got to be with Lyra all the time, that way!”Bookmark here

...King-sama, please stop encouraging your son...Bookmark here

He may accept that offer with how our relationship is, right now.Bookmark here

He really did enjoy my company.Bookmark here

I started to sweat bullets and got all fidgety. My face also turned stiff, thinking about the future.Bookmark here

It’s not that I hate Luca, but I can’t say that I love him, as well. For now, he’s just a friend.Bookmark here

If we were getting engaged but then in the future, he finds someone else he truly loves or if I were to be attracted by another man, what will happen?Bookmark here

Needless to say, I was really used to killing my own feelings, but I never really felt love before, so I don’t have the courage to say that it will be fine.Bookmark here

Being betrothed to the crown prince is a heavy burden!! I can’t afford to make any mistake!! Any mistake made could even get me (or even my family) accused of lese majeste.Bookmark here

Still, I tried to keep my composure.Bookmark here

Lyra, recall the high degree of submission that you’ve acquired as Reinst... Yes, just like that, keep calm... don’t think. Your fate is not really in your hands... Let it go to the flow of fate...Bookmark here

Why is it hard to regain my way of thinking and life back then as Reinst, now, after years as Lyra?!Bookmark here

I think I could pretend to be calm, but... it might not be as perfect as it was.Bookmark here

I felt that Luca stared at me for quite some time, before he finally spoke.Bookmark here

“Nah, Lyra is my friend! Don’t say anything weird, Father!”Bookmark here

At his words, I breathed out in relief. And Dad was very astonished with the unexpected answer.Bookmark here

Be as unexpected as it may be, but it works in my favor, so... I’ll gratefully accept it!Bookmark here

“Hmm? And here I’m sure you would agree with this idea, Luca! That’s too bad...”Bookmark here

“I, I’m still four, Father! Should we be talking about my engagement now?”Bookmark here

“Well, I thought you are fond of Lyra to that extent. After all, I also want you to get married because of love, not only for the benefits it might bring to our country. But if you say so, then let’s not talk about this anymore.”Bookmark here

“...Thanks, Father. I will definitely consult the matter to you in the future, when the time comes. But for now, stop your weird suggestions!”Bookmark here

Dad’s stiff expression finally loosened after hearing that.Bookmark here

What an eccentric king.Bookmark here

Since he was engaged to his wife by his own choice, so that might affect his way of thinking regarding his son’s betrothal.Bookmark here

It’s rather unusual for nobles to get married out of love, but that’s a good thing that the king is on the “Marriage of Love” faction!Bookmark here

Yes, promote that romance!! It shouldn’t be restricted to books and shows, it should be spread out to the reality!Bookmark here

...realistically speaking, it should still be hard though if a noble wants to court a commoner.Bookmark here

Also... from Luca’s reaction, he doesn’t seem to view me that way at all. Yes, yes, I am just his friend, after all!Bookmark here

Besides, we’re only kids!! Too early to talk about romance.Bookmark here

My mental age is worrying me, however. There’s no way I’d be attracted to kids, but hey, physically, I am also a kid. If I were to love somebody around my real mental age, we would have a wide age gap, don’t you think?Bookmark here

Like, my mental age is only a few years younger than both of my parents, I believe, if I counted the age gap right.Bookmark here

Though I don’t deny that my mental age seems to have regressed a little bit, due to me getting used to acting in accordance to my physical body’s age.Bookmark here

The body affects the mind, besides the mind affects the body?Bookmark here

I can’t decide if it is a good thing… or a bad thing?Bookmark here

Ah well, let’s just enjoy my second childhood~!Bookmark here

...Bookmark here

Anyway, how does a normal child spend their childhood...?Bookmark here

Back when I was still Reinst, I spent my childhood with... studying and training?Bookmark here

Since I wanted to gain my mother’s praise and love, at all cost...Bookmark here

Huh? Is that what a normal child does during their childhood?Bookmark here

Could it be that...Bookmark here

I didn’t have a good childhood in my first playthrough?!Bookmark here

So, my mental age regression is because deep down I want to reclaim my lost childhood...?Bookmark here

I can speculate all I want, but I can’t prove if it’s correct or not.Bookmark here

...Living a life where you can do what you want to do seems nice, though.Bookmark here

And I have taken my first big step by refusing to repeat all my studies.Bookmark here

Let’s not have any regret in this second life!Bookmark here

And that’s how I finally get to establish my goal of life at four years old* (*second playthrough).Bookmark here

To finally live my life to the fullest, this time.Bookmark here

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