Into a DEEPER Hole.

I came inside Agatta's house, although I had been there before everything looked different, not because they rearranged the furniture or painted it of a different color, just because my mind was upside down, all just happened so suddenly, dinner was over, my mom told Agatta I was a 'dessert she especially made for her' and then she threw me out suggesting she was going to be 'busy' with my dad. And Agatta just accepted all of that and now here we are. What's going to happen now? What has Agatta in mind? Is she really going to let me sleep here?

"Do you want to take a bath first or…" Said Agatta, she didn't pause just as soon as she said that time stopped in my mind, what is she going to say next? "Copy the notes?"

I let my breath out, I didn't realize but I have been holding it since I entered her house.

"I'll copy the notes, so you can go ahead and have a bath first." I answered calmly.

"No, I'll wait until you have a bath."

"Eh? What do you mean by that?" Panic came back to me after hearing this.

"I mean, if I take a bath first you are- you are… going to have perv thoughts while you bathe won't you?" She turned red while saying this.

Indeed, I would dive my whole body in the tub if I would take a bath in the water she just used, even if I drew there could be no better way to die than that. But I couldn't say that out loud, also I didn't want to make Agatta wait too long to take a bath just because of me copying the notes. So it would be better if I bathe first.

"Then I'll take a bath first. Thank you."

"Ok, the bath is…"

"The first door upstairs, right?"

"Yes, exactly."

"Thank you. Now, if you excuse me." I said picking up the backpack my mother did for me. Then I went upstairs.

The bathroom was big and made you feel comfortable, the lightbulb gave a yellow tone, which contrasted with the white of the rest of the lightbulbs in the house, as soon as you stepped inside this room it was clear that it was entirely different to rest of the-

Wait a minute.

Why the hell do I know where exactly is the bathroom in Agatta's house?

I mean, I have been here before, but the only rooms I have ever been in are the living room, the kitchen and a toilet downstairs. I have never take a bath here, why would I know where the bathroom-

Or have I?

Suddenly a vague memory came to my mind. We were just children, it was raining outside but we didn’t stop playing because of that, Agatta’s mother was busy making dinner, so she had yet to realize we were still playing outside. Her husband got home, he didn’t get caught by the rain thanks to his car, but he realized soon that both of us were not inside, so they both dragged us in.

“Seriously, you kids should have come in as soon as it started to rain. Why were you still outside?” Asked his dad.

“We were pretending to be frogs, because frogs love the rain and we too love rain!” I answered.

“Yeah! Rain!” Replied Agatta, but she sneezed and interrupted our joy.

“Yeah, and colds also love the rain, but you won’t be pretending them. Now, hurry both of you, go take a bath.” He intervened.

I don’t remember what happened after it, we surely took a bath but why was I at their house?

I couldn’t remember after I took a time to think about it. So I just let it go and took my bath. Before I went out Agatta knocked on the door.

“Impo, I’m going to leave you a towel here.”

“Ah, thank you Agatta.”

“Do you need anything else?”

“No, thanks again.”

“It’s ok, I left my notebooks on the dinner table, so once you’re finished you can go there and copy the notes.”

“Thanks again-again Agatta, you are helping me a lot here.”

“Don’t mention it.”

After I took my bath and got dressed, I left the bathroom. I didn’t know where Agatta was, but I saw a room open and the light on, so I walked towards it. Indeed she was there and I could tell that was her room. It all seemed so clean and organized, not that my room is a total mess compared to hers, but… ok yeah, my room is a total mess compared to hers. She was sitting doing homework I guess, so I knocked on the door to let her know she could take a bath now.

“Ah, sorry, I didn’t hear you going out of the bathroom.” She said as soon as she saw me.

“It’s ok, I just wanted to let you know it was free already.” I replied.

“Thank you, then I better get going before it gets too late.”

“Yes, I will be copying the notes downstairs then.”

“Go ahead, also, we have some yogurt in the fridge, so feel free to take one if you like.”

“Thank you, but I ate plenty at dinner, I’m done for today.”

I love this small talk with Agatta, it always makes me feel comfortable and relaxed. I think it reminds me of the small talks my parents have around the house on weekends, when we are all at home, mom always asks him what he would like to have for dinner and he agrees to whatever she can do with the things that are already in the fridge. It makes me feel like we are already married, and that feels great, I don’t have a worry in the world when I’m around Agatta, she has a very strong motherly aura that allows you to take everything in an easy way.

I finished copying the notes I missed, then I started doing homework when I found the envelope my mother put inside my backpack. Just before the seal it was written with red ink the phrase: ‘Which one is going to be?’ and a hearth at the end of the phrase. I opened it just to find inside 3 condoms and a marriage registration format.

WHAT THE HELL DOES THAT MEAN?!

Is she trying to say that it is ok to do it with protection if you’re not married?

Where did she get the format of the marriage registration?

Why does she have condoms? And why is she giving them to me?

I decided to hide the envelope from Agatta, I don’t even want to know what she would do if she saw this.

Just then I hear her footsteps coming down the stairs. I hid it really quick and then pretended to be doing homework.

“How are you doing?” She instantly asked.

“G-g-great, thank you again for this.”

“It’s ok.” Then she took a seat right in front of me at the table, paused for a bit and then she said with an embarrassed tone: “Hey, I've been thinking about it and…”

My heart just skipped a beat after hearing this.

“I don’t want you to sleep in a futon…”

Then she said this and it beated harder than ever.

“So maybe…”

It’s so loud, I can barely listen to her.

“You can sleep in my bed…”

IT’S ABOUT TO BURST!

“And I’ll sleep in my parent’s bedroom.”

My head collapsed, it hit the table so hard Agatta got worried and next to me to see if I was actually ok.

“EH?! WHAT HAPPENED? ARE YOU OK? IMPO-KUN!”

Well, that was certainly something I never thought I would feel. But after seeing how worried I made Agatta I lifted my head immediately and told her:

“No, there’s no need for that Agatta. I’ll sleep in a futon, I don’t mind really.”

“No, you must be really tired already to fall asleep for a moment like that.” Apparently she thought that I passed out just now. “Let me help you with the homework so you can go to bed as soon as possible!”

And so she did, she basically gave me all the answers and just explained how to get them. Once we were almost finished I stopped for a second, this time I really felt tired, I really was going to fall asleep for real.

“Come on!” Said Agatta. “We are almost finished, one last push!”

A phrase that she and I have heard so much over the years, that’s how the coaches always motivate us, so I did as she said and pushed again. I didn’t know why I was so tired, I mean, it was just a regular day.

Wait. It wasn’t. So much has happened today, not only I got hit on by three girls two times, but also by a teacher and I ran a lot today chasing Agatta.

Agatta.

That’s right, it was just this morning that she told me she couldn’t be my girlfriend anymore.

Then why are we both like this, why did she help me when those girls in the stairs were harassing me? Why did she stop the women’s swimming club advisor from hitting on me? What exactly is going through her mind?

Once I finished, Agatta yawned to make it obvious that she too was tired. I put my notebooks in my school pack, close it and before anything else happened I asked Agatta:

“Hey, Agatta.”

“Mhm? What is it?”

“Do you really don’t want to be my girlfriend anymore?” I asked with a sad tone.

She didn’t answer. Maybe she didn’t even remember that she said that in the morning.

When she finally spoke she just told me.

“Let’s go to sleep, it’s been a long day. We will talk about it at another time.” Then she stood up and walked towards the stairs.

My heart felt worse than ever, I felt a void in me that was even worse that what I felt in the morning.

“Agatta.” I said as she was about to go upstairs. She turned and when our eyes found I let a tear go down and the words: “I love you*.”

But she didn’t say anything back, she just turned red a little and then went upstairs.

*Writters Note (W.N.) Here Impo is intended to use the japanese word スキ ‘suki’ that means “I love you” however, as many of you already know, it is different from the word 愛してる ‘aishiteru’ which also means “I love you” but it has a deeper meaning. I intend to use these two later in the novel, I’ll let you know when I use which one in a note like this one.

Thank you so much for all the support so far, it means a lot to me that people would read and find funny what I write.

Yours truly, DAVH NMX.