Love and Sex

****Warning: Proceed with Caution*****

Spring: 2014

                   When I was a first-year student at Kisaragi High School, I confessed to a guy whom I had liked since junior high school. He was a year older and he doted on me. His name was Akira Yamamoto.                    

               "Aki-Senpai, I really like you. I've always liked you since junior high school. Please go out with me", I confessed my feelings on the rooftop. Akira blushed a little, "Thank you for liking me, Haru-chan". He left.

                     Confessing my love for him was the most daring thing I had ever done in my life. I went home and couldn't sleep. My heart raced and my brain kept replaying his facial expressions and his reply. I tossed and turned whilst smiling like an idiot.

                       The next day, he came to my classroom before the first period and asked me to meet him on the rooftop after school. I couldn't concentrate on anything anymore. I wanted to know what Aki-senpai thought of me. Even though I was excited to hear Senpai's reply, I didn't want the day to end. I didn't want to get rejected.       

                School got over and I headed straight to the rooftop. Aki-senpai was already there, waiting for me. My heart raced more and more as I took each step. When I was at arm's length. He pulled me in for a hug. 

                         "I can hear your heartbeat. It's beating so fast. Do you like me this much?", he whispered into my ears. It made me weak. I nodded.                

          Akira let go of the hug, looked me straight in the eyes, and leaned in for a kiss. I reciprocated. I didn't know why Aki-senpai was doing this to me but I didn't mind.            

      "I like you, too, Haru-chan", said Akira, letting go of the kiss. Akira asked me to date him and we became boyfriends. 

                We did a lot of things together. He picked me up from home as well as dropped me off at home after school every day. One month in and he had proved to be the best boyfriend ever.                       

On my birthday, the 29th of May, he brought flowers and gifts for me. I had turned sixteen. Akira asked me to have sex with him. I didn't want to but I was scared to lose him so I agreed. We went to his house after school. He bought pastries on his way home. No one was home. We went directly to his room.                      

             "Tea? Coffee? Juice?", he asked.                                          "None", I replied.                 

              "Ok. Let's dive in", he said, taking out the pastries. He dipped his index finger in the frosting cream and ordered me to lick it. I did as he told me to. And soon we were kissing and sucking each other's mouths. We took off each other's clothing. He sucked my nipple and I felt aroused. He was hard. He asked for a blowjob and I refused. I was scared. 

                "You won't do it, bitch. Fuck", Aki-senpai's tone of voice changed. I got all the more scared. He pushed me and I was laying on my back.                      

             "Aki-senpai, I'm scared. Let's stop. Please", I said, trembling. I couldn't move. Aki-senpai was a martial artist. He was incredibly strong. Aki-senpai proceeded to nibble on my neck. I kept protesting. I kept fighting back. Akira came back to his senses.                          "I'm sorry, Haru-chan", he said, "I don't know what was on my mind".                 

                    I cried. I was inconsolable. I picked my clothes, put them on and ran away. 

      When I reached home, I wiped my tears on the front door.  I didn't want my parents to see me crying. When I entered, everyone was waiting to surprise me. "Happy Birthday, Haru", they said in sync. I had to put on a fake smile the whole time. 

                In the next few days, Aki-senpai kept on apologizing and I eventually forgave him. Days passed by and it was already two months. This was the time when our class got a new, young, and beautiful homeroom teacher, Fuyuko Goto. Everyone liked her. It wasn't just her pretty face or cute voice. She had the talent to teach and a big personality. She stood for what was right and was never scared of anyone.                   

                 Everything was going alright in my life until that day, Aki-senpai invited me over again. His parents wouldn't be home and he'd have the house all to himself and he had invited some friends over. I didn't have a friend at school so I thought it would be a good opportunity for me. I informed my parents that I would be late.                      

            When we reached his place, it was lonely. No one was there and he assured me his friends would be a little late. 

                      "Why don't we have a drink first?", he offered. I never said no to soft drinks. After a glass of Coke, I rested on the sofa and fell asleep. 
                       I woke up with a headache, and my limbs felt numb. I couldn't see anything. I was blindfolded. My hands were tied to what I presumed was a bed. I felt naked and cold.        

                     "Aki-senpai, this isn't funny. Please get these off me", I struggled. I felt someone's lips on mine. It was disgusting. I heard voices. Was it in my head? Was I dreaming? Someone took off the blindfold. It was Akira Yamamoto. I looked around and saw boys and girls in Kisaragi High School uniforms. I was naked. The people were holding up their smartphones taking pictures and videos.  What is happening? I tried going back to sleep so that when I wake up it'll all be alright. I couldn't sleep. The pain was unbearable. They were using my body as an ashtray. My tears were unstoppable.