Interlude 3 - ‘Grace’

I had a dream of something so very happy that I wondered if such a thing could be possible.

Sugary treats on my lips, restless legs amid a strobe of lights, jellyfish hovering sky high.

The back of someone near and dear, but as to who, I do not know. I could only feel him by.

I dive forward, hoping for an embrace. Legs, limber and graceful. Arms, lively and warm.

It is but a dream after all. Its fun fades with time. Its noise blends with my thoughts.

My consciousness comes and goes. A bitter feeling left on my tongue again.

I dream because I have none of these. I dream because I’m left alone.

No hands to touch the keys, nor to grasp happiness for myself.

No legs to chase after pleasures, nor to find freedom outside.

No voice to sing my grievances, nor to call out for help.

I am alone in this dark. I am forgotten in this place.

Only vague memories recount who I was.

Someone normal. Someone alive.

Aspiring goals of a musical genius.

That was what people said of me.

Yet, I longed to go past the walls.

I hoped to play for the world.

Practice to make them proud.

Perfect to grant any chance.

A cage bird, groomed fancy.

Happy in blissful ignorance.

But when I finally became free.

A flash of lights was all I recall.

A shriek of metal, sudden and grim.

The world tumbled and tumbled by.

A new cage formed with my cries.

And all at once, pain from all sides.

The echo of sirens in the distance.

It fell on hopeless ears.

Darkness was all I saw.

Numbness all that I felt.

Too broken to claw forward.

Legs split and torn asunder.

Pain keeping me speechless.

A sense of doom awash in fear.

The end coming not quickly.

Instead, sorrow steeped within.

Mind lingering in this limbo.

Soul gripped by unseen hands.

*Beep* *Beep* *Beep*

A warning keeps me alive.

It speaks of borrowed time.

For who and what purpose,

That I am meant to exist?

All that I can do is dream.

Pray silently for the best.

Find a purpose for living.

A measure of ‘grace’.

All I could be.

All I am n-

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