This dark room of my mind

Two different worlds, and only one thin, painted dark dye and flat glass window separates them, through which a cold breeze passed.

 I am in the darkness of a room smelling books, wood, dust and parchment. The closeness of the room suffocates me, everything in it is the same: old drawers, a table, a wardrobe, a small oil lamp, a bed and many shelfs filled with books, which are the only salvation for me, one of only two freedoms that I have. Imagining that I saving worlds, slaying monsters and dragons, learning impossible things and casting magic. How I escape dungeon in which  my freedom was deprived.                                                                                                                                              

  My second freedom is a window overlooking a living street. A small grocery store, residential buildings , a playground and a bakery. All these places are filled with life and light.                  

You may wonder what keeps me in this room?                                                                                  

 In reply, I will only tell you that the sunlight is deadly for me. According to the grumpy governess who lives on the floor below and has been raising me since the day of my birth, and the only person with whom I have contacted, even if its was unpleasant experience. It has been like this since the very moment I was born and her frau left this world. The day when my fate sealed to loneliness.                                                                                                                                       

Evening came, after finishing my daily reading, I lay down on the bed and immersed myself in my thoughts.                                                                                                                                                  

 "How many years have I been here? How long will I stay? Is there a person somewhere that 

will fill the void in me? Why?                                                                                                                      

Why am I so lonely?                                                                                                                                      

 WHY AM I SO LONELY?                                                                                                                                

 WHY AM I SO ..."     

... Silence and darkness familiar to me enveloped my body and I fell into the void...