BACK WITH MONA

Going to class as usual but I can’t focus as I kept seeing them. It must be that I forget to take my medicine. I was rushing as I was late so I left it in my room. As I remember I have a same bottle of the medicine in my bag where Mona gave me on previous day. So I took a pill. I started to sweat and I still saw them. Mina sat on my left while Johnny sat on my right. They sat so close to me; I could feel their stink breath and their anger.

“Gerrard, are you ok? you are shaking? Asked Ms Mag.

Leslie kicked my leg and whispered, “Ms Mag asked whether you are okay or not?”

I stood up unbalanced and tried to stand up firmly with Leslie’s help and panicky replied “I’m okay”

“I think you need to wash your face to be cleared” Ms Goh continues “Anyone can help him”

“No! I can go by myself” I shouted

I walked out of the class and was directed to a restroom where I needed to walk past the hallway. I kept hearing sounds. I was unable to move forward as I saw Johnny and Mina in front of me. Suddenly Johnny patted my shoulder and said “You are lying”

“Give me back my life” screamed a lady with blood covering her face

The bloody lady seems to turn out to be Mona. What Mona! But how come? or Mina. I couldn’t differentiate.

I kneeled “Sorry for what I have done. What did you want from me? Want my life? if that is so come and take it”

Mona was running to me in the background and hugged my back and said “Please don’t act like this, I’m so worried about you” She moved in front of me and touched my face with both of her hands and said, “All that is just a hallucination”

“I still see them…their face is full of blood”

“Seem like your hallucination is getting worse” Mona took a pill from the bottle “This medicine is given by my therapist. She told me that this medicine would reduce the frequency of seeing them. Give me the previous bottle that I gave you”

After ate the pill that Mona gave me, I no longer saw them but I felt so dizzy. Thus, Mina offered to send me to her home to rest without my mom seeing my current state. As I was having blurry vision, I was pretty sure that Leslie grabbed something on the floor but Why?.

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After sleeping for 5 hours continuously in Mona’s bed, I felt much better, and temporarily, I didn’t see them.

Knock! Knock!

“Gerrard, Are you awake?”

“Ya, please come in”

“How do you feel now?”

“Fresh, Mona!” I hold her hand and said “I wish we could reconcile since we still have lingering loving feelings toward each other. Give me a second chance”

Mona smiled and I lifted her head to gaze deeply into each other’s eyes for an extended amount of time. Her almond brown eyes with her pinkish skin were so mesmerizing. I could feel her breathing deeply and she slowly moved her gaze to my lips and then back up to my eyes. Soon after I couldn’t control myself, I touched Mina’s arms and then her neck. I brushed my lips on hers gently then slowly opened my mouth. She inserted her tongue and danced with my tongue in a motion. She is a great kisser. The kiss became steamy, sloppy and wet kissing. Somehow became a little more deeply that we started to kiss each other’s neck, grazing erogenous zones, sucking, and licking earlobes. Her hand began to stimulate my body more directly.

Ring! Ring! Ring! (Phone rang)

“Wait”

“What!”

“Stop for a while, it is my mom calling. I need to answer it”

“ok”

I hang up the phone “I got to go”

“Now! But we are almost there!”

“babe, I’m sorry, My mom needs me. Besides, we have plenty of time in the future”

“ok” Mona looked disappointed “Babe, do not forget to take the pill I gave you”

“All right. Oh ya, before I left, you looked stunning in a ponytail but as I remember you don’t like to tie your hair”

“But you like it”

“You don’t have to. Just be yourself”

Put up my clothes and kiss her goodbye. That was so close but the feeling was kind of different. It was not the same feeling when we did it for the first time or perhaps, it was way too long since we last made out or it was post-coital dysphoria caused by Lena’s incident? Arg? Leave it aside, but overall, it was a great start for me and Mona.

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I couldn’t sleep for the whole night, so early in the next morning, I rushed to the scene of the accident with some praying rituals like burning joss sticks and joss paper to pray for absolution as I believe it is a form of spiritual communication. I saw along the roadsides there was a small altar, lighted red candles lined up neatly. Was it prepared by Jonny and Mina’s family? I looked around but couldn’t see anyone. I was jumpy when Mona tapped me on my shoulder.

“Here you are, Surprise!”

I patted her head and hugged her “Ya, I’m surprised to see you. Why didn’t you give me a call”?

“I did but no answer so I worried”

I took out my phone to check on it “I put my phone in silent mode so I didn’t notice it. Between, how do you know I’m here?”

“My sixth sense. Nah!, this is the power of love”

“haha! I dreamt of them so I here to repent I guess?” I kneel to burn the joss stick and paper

“Repent! I will never forgive you! You will never be able to repay” murmured Mona

“Pardon” I looked at Mona “Did you say something?”

“I said everything will be okay”

“Thanks”

“Have you done, babe?“

“ya”

“Let go to have breakfast” Mona held my hand

Before I left the scene, I clasped my hands together in a praying gesture to express my repentance while bowing over three times. “What did you want to eat?”

“Cantonese soy sauce pan-fried noodles”

“I thought you hated it as I remember last time, when we were having breakfast with Johnny and Mina. You said that you do not want to go to the stall for the rest of your life”

“People do change”

“But I hope you didn’t force yourself to change because of me. You know I don’t like it. Forcing a relationship will only lead to drained than energized, therefore it won’t last long”.

“I didn’t force myself. I really like it so much”

I know she hates it so much but somehow; I feel she tried to force herself to be by type of girl I like. In some stance, I feel she resemble Mina in terms of her taste, her action, and her dressing style but sometimes she looks like herself. What am I thinking? Am I still in love with Mina? By the way, I can’t really remember what Mina looks like. Kind of blurred

“Are you coming”

I shouted and ran to her “Coming”