The audition day, kind of.

So today is audition day, kind of nervous. I have performed in front of an actual people and not just randos on internet, technically, even though everyone just walks by and don't care about me, but this time they actually care and probably judge me critically.

I am contemplating if I should play my own songs or do a cover of something that I like but popular enough that they might know the song. If I play my own songs, well it's my song, I feel more comfortable doing it and also boost my song a little bit too. If I do covers, they might enjoy it more because it's something more familiar. Goddammit, I just don't know.

Actually, what the hell am I thinking when I'm applying there, I need at least a drummer and a bassist, because I will never play with backing tracks, it's too restricting.

I should have applied with our band instead, I'm a dumb dumb that can't manage myself, thank you Hanako for organizing me and the band, sort of.

So, I guess I'll just not show up, and waste away again like the usual.

It's only 9 in the morning, I opened my laptop and start streaming out of nowhere, with messed up hair and barely alive looks and all. Oh, I want get some cup ramen and tea or lemon juice, I'll just leave the stream running and get them.

I'm in the kitchen checking the cupboards and the fridge, couldn't find any, do I have to get one from convenience store? it's like 5 minutes away but it's also a summer so it's still hot. Ah whatever, I'd get some in the store, maybe with snacks too.

I just walk outside still not washing my face or my hair, well I fixed my bangs a little bit so it doesn't cover my eyes but still, it looks like I just woke up.

It's burning outside, I wish I have my hat right now so my head is not boiling, not to mention my hairs is making me sweat quite a bit, I should've tied them, or maybe cut them so I don't have to deal with it anymore.

My hair is not that long, it's a little bit past my shoulders, and I only have bangs that covers my forehead, but it's kinda hot this summer when I don't have my big round hat on. I wonder if I can cut it myself, I don't really feel like going into a salon for some reason I don't know.

I am finally inside the convenience store, god bless the AC, my head can stop boiling now. I walk to the instant noodles section, and holy discount, 50% discount for the spicy ramen? are they insane? I counted all of them and there are 12 cups, I'll get them all, don't want to miss this amazing discount.

Then as for the juice, I'll just get these cold green teas, nothing can defeat the freshness of green tea in a hot day, maybe other than a cold watermelon.

I checked out and go back immediately to my house. The new store clerk looked at me astonished when checking my stuff, or maybe weirded out is a better word, but he gave me that vibe for some reason.

Ah, home sweet home, nothing is better than that. I go to the kitchen to prepare the ramen, and then bring it with two bottles of green tea in case one is not enough to quench my thirst.

I check my laptop.

"Oh, I was getting these at the store." I say innocently to my viewers while showing my cup ramen and green tea, after they have been waiting for 20 minutes.

"I thought ghost started the stream." one of the chatters said. "If it was a ghost, wouldn't it be visible? I've heard cameras can see ghosts." I don't know if it's real, but you know.

"If it was real, we'd be seeing a lot of ghosts in socials lol."

"That make sense. Anyway, I'm bored, I had a plan to join an audition earlier for a concert in a livehouse, but my plan is completely destroyed after I remember one thing. I don't want to play with a backing track."

Then the chat flooded me with "why?" and "you have a band."

"I know I have Natsuzora Cider, new single coming soon by the way. But I just feel like being live by myself sometimes, because I never experienced that with actual in person audience that actually cares about the music."

"Just play guitar and sing." one of them chatted.

"But it doesn't sound right, it's hollow. I know I did that often on stream or when I was singing by myself at that park for some reason, but in live house they are paying for the tickets. I don't want to half ass for those paying people and make them feel ripped off."

It's been more than 5 minutes, I think my ramen is overcooked and be a soggy mess now. "Anyway, let me eat this ramen and let's watch something, what do you want to watch? send me some videos and don't you dare send gross videos."

There are quite a bit of videos that they sent, some are cute one like animals, there are also concerts, but one that got my interest is this one, solo camping. I don't know why, I think it's because it's a winter solo camping and the heat just make me long for some cold, or my inner monkey missed the nature.

"I probably should do solo camping at some point, don't know where though, it sounds kind of relaxing." I said to chat just before I slurped my first ramen of the day.

"Outdoor live?" One of them asked, honestly sounds not too bad, if the connection is good.

"Probably, though people would get mad if I sing."

"Winter should be pretty empty."

"Well, looking from this video, looks like it."

"Just don't die from freezing."

"If I follow a tutorial properly, should be fine. I might not look like it, but I'm pretty tough."

"Can't wait for winter camping stream then."

"Yeah, I don't know. I can't carry that many things, I can't even drive, maybe in the far future."

"She chickened out lol."

"Shut up."

I should get the normal variant ones, the spiciness just hits me and now I'm starting to sweat. I started chugging the green tea and fortunately it's not too bad, the spiciness is pretty much subdued.

After that I just chat around with no direction until I feel sleepy after 6 hours of talking and doing nothing.