rock n roll won't stop ringing!

So yesterday was fun, the game keep screwing me with horrendous luck while Hanako sweeps us like it's nothing. After playing games, we did a little practice well more like Olivia taught us to play drums, and I suck. I can't coordinate my hands and my legs well, I keep messing up simple beats, it was at that point I realized that I should stick to programming drums instead.

I'm such an untalented loser.

I still don't have any new ideas, and I still don't know what to do, can you imagine being a neet and not have anything to do, even stupid things that can get you last for at least a day until something happening? it's terrifying, boredom is the worst.

I could do something, but I don't know why I don't do it, knowing full well that if I let my mind free for a little bit, those negative feelings will start creeping in and ruins me again, and I'll feel like shit for days for no absolute reason.

I'll open my laptop and try finding something that I could do, or get some ideas, or getting sucked into a rabbit hole, whatever, just don't let me slip again, I already have good friends around me, I don't want them and my mom to be worried again because I'm such a mess.

I'm checking my channel, seems like our new song still going strong, it's not a smash hit but it's bigger than I usually got in this channel, especially on the earlier stuff back when I was in high school, I should check them too.

I can just sort it to oldest, and I forgot that my first music that I uploaded was this cover of "Rock n' Roll Won't Stop Ringing!" by Shinsei Kamattechan that I recorded when I was in middle school even, i still look adorable and fresh back then, well at least that's what I thought, I don't think people agree with that.

If I recall correctly, it was recorded with a pretty crap phone that I put in this desk and propped it against the wall with books holding the back of it just in case it drops while recording.Honestly it looks horrible, but at least I was having fun back then.

I was wearing a pink shirt and blue skirt with cute flairs, is this even me? or someone hacked my account and uploaded this thing, because we looks so different nowadays, most of my cuteness are gone eaten by wild dogs.

Somehow, me in middle school is better at playing than I am right now, I don't know why, though I feel like my current singing is better because I don't hold back at all, while back then I'm scared to disturb the neighbors or my parents.

The sound and image quality sucks, even for my standard, which is not that high. The lofi noises in my current songs are totally artistic choice, not because I don't know how to record properly and not having the right equipment, at least I can hear relatively c;early compared to this video where it's just compressed mess and not to mention echoes and reverbs.

Shinsei Kamattechan deserves better, I think I'll recreate this cover, but first I need to learn how to play it, should be easy, it's just 4 chords.

So not long after that, I'm ready to do it, just need to get the appropriate clothing. I don't think the clothes that I used in that video still fits me, well whatever, my high school uniform is good enough.

Now I use a proper tripod, but for the mic I don't have those tall mic stand that used in concerts or studios, and I can't hold it with my hand because duh, I am playing the guitar. I hope technology has advanced enough that my phone's mic can sound at least listenable. And no plugging my guitar directly to my laptop too, because I didn't do it back then, and the mic might pick up the strumming sound which is distracting.

So everything is plugged in and ready to go, why did I put this much effort for recreating my old video, that I literally recorded with barely any preparation? I don't know, sometimes I just feel like it.

Press record, and here we go. oh I should use my headphones to listen to the song. I can't plug it to my phone because it's too far, I can plug it to my laptop and place it close to me, but there is no table or anything for me to put my laptop on, and I don't want to record beside my bed because it's a mess, putting it on the floor is stupid, I could accidentally stepped or jumped on it, this is the only time that I want a wireless earphones or headphones.

I can also just plug my laptop to the amp and have the sounds clashing with each other and make it unlistenable.

Screw it, I'll just wing it, who cares if it sucks, not like it's out of ordinary anyway.

I'm tapping my foot to count when the guitar part started, because the first part of the intro is just piano, after that I should remember the time and everything, at least until the bridge where I just stand in silence as it's only piano and drums for a little bit.

Yesterday night, in the TSUTAYA in front of the train station
I rented Kamattechan
I rented Number Girl
That's what they call "Rock 'N' Roll"
But I don't get the appeal at all
do da turatura oh yeah! yeah! yeah!

I change the lyrics on the fly a little bit, to make it more relatable to me.

At dusk, going home after my extracurricular activities
I listened to Kamattechan again
I listened to Number Girl again
Something is different now
I took out the MD and my ear buds
But why won't it stop ringing in my ears?!
do da turatura oh yeah! yeah! yeah!

I'm not even at the climax but I'm already so pumped up, I can't hold myself, but I have to, it's only the bridge, it's only just a build up to something more.

I can still hear the song from that day, from far away
I'm yelling, far away, close to you, right next to you
Watch me from afar, I'm still the same as that day
This shock I felt for the first time
Give it to me forever, forever
More, more, give more to me
More, more, more, more, give more to me!

All that build up, now I can explode and release everything all at once, my heart can barely handle the excitement from just covering this song, such an incredible feeling that I can shout it out all at once.

I spit out aiming at the faraway you
I'm yelling, far away, close to you, right next to you
Most of recent music is crap!
That's the kind of thing you say, that's right, no matter the era

That's why I'll yell right now, right now, I'll yell right now
I'll make my guitar ring for you
Even if you don't understand, right now, now, the meaning of this song
I make it ring now, it's the time to make it ring
Rock 'N' Roll won't stop ringing

I don't know how, but an anthemic song about how they find the love of rock music can bring me to tears, but I am literally on the verge of crying right now, it's insane how a song can make you feel that way.

Before I stop the video, I bow in front of the camera, and said"To Shinsei Kamattechan, thank you for making this wonderful song and get me into music, I won't be where I am right now without your music." I lift my head, and with huge smile and almost crying, "oh my god, I can't stop it, I'll stop the video before I burst into tears!"

It's not tears of sadness like usual, it's tears of happiness and excitement, I can't stop it, and just let it happen until it all stops by itself, I wonder if my song have made someone emotional like this, I don't know if my song is good enough to make someone cry, but I hope it brings something to someone out there.

Now let's check the video, if it's crap or not, and it's fine actually, nothing too serious, though a little bit awkward when I just stand there doing nothing.

I have an idea!

"Hey, let's cover this!" I also attached the link to the song. "But, just record it at home with your phone like I just did, and then Olivia will combine all of them and make it look cool!" then I sent the video also.

"Why are you wearing a school uniform?" Olivia asks.

"Also, please add something like how I went from being alone now in a band, use the one from my first video."

"You didn't answer my question...."

"I just like it."