That Tears

That night, although I did not win, I feel so great! Finally, I got back my old feelings that had been lost for long time. I can’t describe how I am feeling now but I am so happy! Not only that, before I went home, Yamada Rina ask me to exchange phone number with each other. She said to call her anytime I need her. Also, I can’t forget how the reaction toward me changes from before until the end of the show. At first, they seemed disappointed with my appearance, but at the end, they seem so happy to see me singing on the stage. Is this the power of music? When I arrived home, Ai were waiting for me at dining table.

“Yuka! I am so proud with you! Why I am so teary tonight?” Ai said while wipe her tears on her face.

“Are you my mom? Why are you crying?” I ask Ai.

“You are my best friend! How can I am not proud with you! Really, I feel so happy that you can sing on the stage like old days!”

I still feel all of this is dream. If its really dream, let me sleep longer. If its real, let this moment last longer. Wait, I can use this phrase for my next song!

On the next day, Yui ask me to meet with her at her house. Ai said she will have a date with Kai. It been long time they don’t spend time together as Kai is busy with his part time work. Yui is live with her aunt right now. She still in rehabilitation phase , so she can’t really engage in physical activities. When I arrive at Yui’s house, I am amaze on how big her house.

“Yuka! You really come today! Please come in!” Yui invite me to her house excitedly.

“Thank you!”

While I enter Yui’s house, I can see a large chandelier hanging inside her house.

“Yui, is this really your house? I don’t know you are from rich family,” I ask Yui, still not believing what happen now.

“Yes, this is my house! Although my mom and my dad not living here anymore since my sister passed away a few years ago. Now, my aunt is live with me here.”

“Where is her?”

“She have to go work this morning. So, today I have something to show you. Look, at there!” Yui said while pointing something near their dining table.

“Piano?! Do you know how to play piano, Yui?” I ask her.

“A little bit. But I can try play some songs. Do you want to hear it?”

“Of course!”

Yui take a sit ready her finger before playing piano. Then, she start playing a song that sound familiar.

“Is this our debut song?”

“Correct! Ready for the next son, Yuka!”

She start playing piano again. This time, it kind slow beat tempo song. Wait, this song is…

“This is my song, right? ‘Without You’,” I said confidently.

“You are right! This song is one of my favorite song and I have keep it in my playlist. Okay, ready for the last one.”

I don’t know that this session have become segment where I need to guess the songs. For the last song, it quite upbeat song. At first I thought it our song but it feel different. This song although it sound like a happy song, I don’t know why I feel sad hearing this song. Suddenly, I remember this song. I always heard this song when I am still in high school.

“I Give My Love To You by MiMi, right?”

Then, Yui stop playing piano abruptly.

“Are you okay, Yui?” I am asking, worry with her suddenly stop playing piano.

“I… am okay. Can you wait for a while? I need to go toilet first.”

Is she reminded her memory with her sister?

After a few minutes, she come out from toilet.

“Do you want to drink juice, Yuka?”

“Yes. Do you need any help?”

“Its okay, Yuka.” I can see Yui’s nose a bit red. Is she really crying in the toilet earlier?

“Have a drink Yuka! I hope you enjoy it!”

“Thank you!”

Both us sip a orange juice. I look at my phone and I see many comments about my performance last night.

I think my opinion about her slowly changing. She did not deserve all the hate!

Her voice are so beautiful!

I think she need to duet with Yamada Rina in the future! It will sound great!

There are also some comments that I never heard before

I want her to step me!

I want to marry her!

She is mine!!

I am really surprised with sudden changes that happen to me. Before, I almost thought that I needed to end everything but now I feel I can go through all of this.

“Yuka, can I ask you something?” Yui’s question breaks the silence between us.

“What is it Yui?”

“Do you like singing?”

“I like singing! It has become half of my life now. I feel I cant live without music right now,” I said it confidently.

“Really? For me, I don’t know if I can singing again like before. I feel all of the things that I done before is useless.”

“Why are you saying that, Yui? I thought you are very enthusiastic about singing.”

“If you have a talent, you can do everything. But, look at me. The feelings when I singing before, all is gone now. I feel like my emotion is dried up. After the accident, I start to look back at what I have been doing until now. I want to become like my sister but I cant with my injury now.”

“Why do you look so depressed?! Yui that I know always stay positive and hardworking person, but why you look so pessimistic just now? You don’t need to become like your sister. You can just become yourself, like what I have said to you before.”

“If so, how? I don’t even know how to become myself. If I can become myself, can I start singing again? Its easy for you right? You have a talent in singing. You don’t need to worry this much because you still have people who are there for you. How about me? My aunt is busy with her work. I also don’t know where and what my parent doing just now. I lost my sister and I have been betrayed by ‘that’ person. Do you know what I feel now?!” Yui said as she have been confine all of this for a long time.

“I don’t have a talent. All the things I done until now is because of my hardworking. You can do it if you try a bit hard than before.”

I want Yui to like singing like before. But…

“It irritates me to hear that from you! Can you get out from my house now?!” Yui’s sudden changes in her action surprise me.

“Yui-“

“Now!!”

With a heavy heart, I left Yui’s house. Why she so angry? Did I say something wrong? When I think back what I said to her, maybe I don’t understand what is her feeling right now? The most important, who is the person that betrayed Yui? Is that me? I don’t think so. If she referred to me, she just could say that I was betraying her. Or maybe its Haruna… I feel dizzy thinking about what happened earlier.

As I open the house’s door, I see that Ai is crying by herself on the sofa.

“Why are you crying, Ai?”

“I hate Kai!”