One Sad Night-Last Part

“Marina!”

This voice sound like Nami’s. Then, I can see Nami and Shinji are here and notice they were running from the other side of restaurant.

“Marina! Are you okay? Where is that bastard? So brave of him to appear in front of you again.”

Nami sound so angry right now. But what should I do right now? I think this is chance for me to run. Why I need to run? I didn’t do anything wrong.

“Marina-san, where is Kouta? I thought he will be here,” Shinji questioning about my whereabouts.

“I don’t know. I haven’t see him earlier too,” replied Yamauchi-san.

“Sorry! I’m late.” I trying to act as I just arrive there.

“Where do you go, Homura-san?” Nami asking me.

“I thought that Yamauchi-san go to somewhere else. I never thought she will be here,” I hope they will believe my excuse.

“You should know in this kind of situation, there are some places they will go,” Shinji trying to explain to me as he know better than me.

“I don’t care all of that. Marina, do you want to go home right now? I think our plan tonight need to be cancelled,” said Nami.

“Three of you can go watch the movie without me. I can watch that movie anytime later,” said Yamauchi-san.

“No! I feel wrong to have fun without you and watching the movie with two man, what is boring my night,” said Nami.

“Hello? How can you say that watching the movie with us is boring for you? Right, Kouta?” Shinji asking me to agree with him.

“Do you want me to stay with you tonight, Marina?” ask Nami, ignoring Shinji’s question.

“Its fine! And Homura-kun will be with me tonight. So, Nami and Shinji can have their time together,” Yamauchi-san’s sudden suggestion surprised me.

“W-what do you mean, Yamauchi-san?” I asking her.

“As it mean.”

“If you are saying so, I will leave Marina with you, Homura-san. But tomorrow, I will come to your house, Marina,” said Nami.

“Okay!”

After that, Nami and Shinji leave to Shinji’s car. Shinji said they will go their regular place whenever they go out at night. I don’t want to mind much about him.

“Kouta, I will be the one drive later. Are you fine with it?”

“Can you drive in your current condition?”

“Who do you think I am?” said Yamauchi-san confidently.

That’s how, I sit at passenger seat and Yamauchi-san is driving. I thought we will go to her house but this is not the right direction.

“Where are we going?”

“Secret.”

Her short answer make me more curious about our destination. In the car, I can only heard music from the radio. I did not talk much with Yamauchi-san other than asking about the direction. I feel so awkward after what happened at the back of the restaurant.

“We are here,” said Yamauchi-san.

Our destination is the beach. I never thought that I will go the beach at night. But what Yamauchi-san want to do here?

“Should not we go outside, Yamauchi-san?”

“Just sitting here is already fine with me. I always go here other than park near my house whenever I feel stressed.”

“O-okay.”

I think something weird happened. I should called her by my first name when we are alone like now. But she does not give any reaction to it.

“Did you heard everything?”

“W-what do you mean?”

“I know that you were there back there.”

“As you already know he is my ex-boyfriend, and he is a year older than me. We had been dating for almost four years. So many things happen during that period. Every time he makes faults, I always forgave him. But everything starts to change suddenly. He did not even call me every night after work. I thought he is busy with his work. A month had pass; we did not even met with each other’s during that one month. Whenever I tried to call him, he always said that he was busy with his work. I try to think positively, and I should give him space for him. As I thought, I can’t erase this weird feeling from my heart. One day, I decided to go to his house without telling him. Try to guess what happen there,” Yamauchi-san asking me.

“He is with other woman?” I give a random answer.

“Yes. She is one of his colleagues at his work. Maybe she just wants to visit him merely as a friend, that’s what I thought at first. After that….”

Yamauchi-san can’t hold her tears anymore. Her voice starts to become shaky.

“As I enter his house, he is kissing her passionately. Then, when he realizes I was there watching him, he stops kissing that girl. He is trying to give many kinds of excuses but this time I can’t hold anymore. I don’t have any strength to do this. So, I broke up with him and left his house immediately. I heard after I came to his house the other day, he had gone oversea with his new girlfriend to help his father’s business. I don’t expect to see him again now.”

Her tears slowly stopped falling.

“Can I ask something?”

There is one answer that I want to know from her.

“What is it?”

“D-did you still love him?”

She take a breath before answering my question.

“I don’t really know. Maybe, somewhere in my heart still longing to stay with him. Should I try much harder to protect our relationships, I can live happily with him.”

She still love him after all.

“Homura-kun, can I said something?”

“W-what is it?”

“Can we stop meet with each other?”

“What do you mean by that?”

“I have done something worse to you and I don’t even think that we should continue doing this.”

“Something worse to me?”

“Just forget everything about us. Now, lets go back. I will send you home later, Homura-kun.”

On our way home, we didn’t talk with each other. She is focused on driving while I am gazing at the scenery from the car window. Earlier, I said that I will drive to my house, but she insisted that she will drive me home.

“Wait a minute,” Yamauchi-san said as we finally arrive at my house.

“W-what is it?”

“Can we treat each other like a stranger whenever we meet after this? Don’t worry, I will try my hard to avoid meeting with you,” said Yamauchi-san.

“Before that, can you tell me why you are doing this to me?”

“I am just-“

“Can you be honest with me?! I feel that I need to know what is happening here!” I

“I like you! More precisely, you look the same as Yuichi, that me like you! I can only see him whenever I see you!”

“Is that true?” I was shocked to hear her answer.

“I do not like you, but I like when I see him in you! Are you satisfied? I feel like I want to kill myself every time I do this. I am crazy, right? If you ever like me, sorry but I am not your true love.”

What is this? Before, I thought that maybe I can confess to her but with everything that happens now, what should I do?

“So, goodbye Homura-san. I hope you can find your right destiny out there. Sorry for everything.”

Lying on bed, I am still thinking about what happened earlier. Is this really the end? I am so confused. The most frustrating, I don’t even have a chance to confess to her. Why I can’t be honest with her when I see her crying again as she left my house earlier? I hate myself.