Prologue

"What would a perfect world look like? What would an average Joe think? To him, his perfect world would probably be without pain and suffering. 
Where his problems would go away. Where he could live happily with his perfect wife with his perfect kids with his perfect friends. Where he wouldn't have to work. Where he is drowning in money. Where he is eating every five star food there is. 
Everything would be perfect. Not one ounce of pain and suffering. Pure euphoria, pure bliss. Living would be so easy in this world. Yet it doesn't exist. Problems are always there no matter where you go. Maybe you didn't find your perfect wife. Maybe you don't have any kids or they grew up wrong. Maybe you don't have friends. You have to work and still don't earn enough to satisfy yourself. You eat fast-food every day and have no time to cook. There exist sickness, hunger, pain, loneliness and despair. He is living in the opposite world. If his perfect world would be heaven then surely he is living in hell."

"It could be worse" I interjected.

"True. Then maybe he is living in asphodel. A plain meaningless existence living life without achieving anything. No one would remember him and the world would keep revolving. 
Why is this person even living? For what purpose does he wake up every day, eat his breakfast and go to work? Maybe to buy a house. Maybe to find his true partner. Maybe to make friends. Maybe to go to that one holiday that he always dreams of going. But he will never achieve his goals. There would always be something in his way. An average Joe would never be satisfied.  No matter how hard he tries and tries and tries he would never be able to reach his dream. He would never reach his perfect world. A person like that is truly meaningless. For the average Joe there doesn't exist a perfect world. Its impossible in his eyes. Because after all this time it is still out of reach. No matter how hard he struggles. Why can't he achieve it. Is it because of his own incompetency? Or because of society. Maybe because every other average Joe is trying to achieve the same thing.. They are walking the same path. No matter how hard you try there will always be someone that blocks your way. And you can't do anything. Anything at all. Maybe that is why it's meaningless."

"Then what is your perfect world?" I asked.

"My perfect world? Hahahaha you are asking me what his perfect world is?  A killer? What is the perfect world for a killer? Maybe total annihilation of every human. Maybe the ending of the world? Hahahaha, I am not that dramatic. I live my life to fulfil my every need. If I want something I take it no matter what. But I don't kill because I enjoy killing. Heck I don't like it when they scream and beg for mercy. I really don't like it at all. Why do I kill? Because I can.       I kill for the sake of killing. Think of a person who enjoys eating. They like how the food is presented on the plate. The smell. The way it enters the mouth. The way it touches the tongue. The sensation. Yummy. He isn't eating because he is hungry. He doesn't need to eat. Yet he does. He is eating because he is eating for the sake of eating. For me its maybe because I unconsciously like it. Maybe I needed money or food. But most of the time its because I can. For someone like me what would be the perfect world. Where I can kill whenever wherever without consequences? No, where is the fun in that. I am doing everything I want no matter what. Is there a perfect world for someone like me? No this is the perfect world. This is my perfect world. Everything I do is meaningful. Ever kill every death gives me my purpose. Just how far can I go till my name gets big? Just how far can I go till everyone in the area sleeps with one eye open. Just how far can I go till the authorities pull every resource just to catch me. Amusing isn't it. For someone like me to achieve his perfect world. Kukukuku.

But for you, my mirror, it's different isn't it.
You, who resists every urge every temptation.
For someone like you who is walking yet standing still.
For someone who is eating yet not tasting.
For someone who is smiling yet unfeeling.
For someone who is living yet already dead.
For someone that is healthy yet broken. 

You are living in hell aren't you."