Mental challenge

Spinning, my head was spinning, no matter the time I was standing, or sit or lay down, my head didn’t stop to spin, everything around me was spinning, I was so fine with laying down a few moments ago but I decided to get up, when I did everything was normal, I was trembling, of course, but a few minutes after I took my first steeps everything started to feel like this.

I was alone in the main lobby where all the walls, ceiling and the floor had that chess pattern, but the colors were going crazy this time, my head hurt, it hurt a lot, I fall on my knees and took it with my hands, everything was so loud, I wanted to rip my ears, I wanted to be deaf, but I just hit my head on the floor and started running with my eyes close, it didn’t matter what I was being hitting by, as long as I faint I was okay with it.

I tried to open my eyes but it didn’t open. I couldn’t open them, so I started to stretch a bit and then pull them with a lot of force. I could verily open them, so I stayed completely dark again. My head hurt, I couldn’t see properly, I felt dizzy and my ears hurt too, I opened my mouth and started to scream silently. Why? Because I couldn’t scream either, no matter how much force I didn't, the only thing I was doing was hurting my throat for all the useless effort I was making.

I put my hands on my neck and started to choke myself, to see if I could fix something with that, what a fool I was to think that could do anything, I was just hurting myself, I knew that, but I wanted a way to fix it, even if it was radical.

I should have stayed on the floor I think, I was in agonizing pain, I should have root on the floor, I believe, everything would have been better, no pain, just boring, but I didn’t want to surrender to my fear, what an imbecile I was, to think I could do something to fix this. What did I do to be so full of confidence and make that act? Just the mere stupid thought of me being better than the situation, but I never experienced this situation. Why would I know how to handle it?

Did I make myself feel special? Someone who never experienced horror, maybe I felt lucky to not be in those situations, but it was for something, I searched this myself and now I’m paying the consequences, these thoughts are just a mere distraction of my desperate efforts to seize some of the pains I was feeling.

Numbness, blindness, migraine, deafness, voiceless, I could feel everything and at the same time I couldn’t, I could hear annoying drums and not hear anything, I could hear my own thoughts but the pain prevents me from thinking, I was blind and I could see flashes of light spinning in front of me, I could move my body and hit thing on my head only to feel numbness and pain, I could scream without producing any sound, just tiring my jaw and making my throat dry and hurting it.

Was there anything I could do? No, there wasn’t I was convinced, I was alone in this room, there were no monsters, and that doppelgänger was out too, or they could be with me, laughing at me, pointing at me, they made me this way, they made these things to me, there was no other explanation, they were enjoying it, they could end with me at any moment but they decided to toy with me until I collapsed.

Then I will collapse faster, hitting with more force, screaming with everything I got, holding my neck with a lot of pressure, pulling my eye making my head go all the way up, collapsed, I should collapse to end it, to end the nightmare, to end their joy, to be free, I wanted to leave, I want to leave, I will leave, just a bit more.

Everything would be alright once I’m done for, I don’t want to know more about this, just end this, however you want, eat me, destroy me, just end it now, I would be your best jester, I would dance at your will, just spare me with being out of your chains of agony. What else do you want me to do? Am I not enough? That’s right, that’s the thing, I’m not good enough, then I will give you more, if it’s not enough with me I’m going to give you more in exchange for my freedom.

That old bastard knew, they knew that they need someone to appease these monsters, I won’t be your puppet, I’m going to drag you down with me, you, and you and YOU! Yes you, everyone that is watching me right now being their monkey wanting me to dance as they throw me bananas, I’m going for all of you, I don’t care if you’re a monster, mouse or human, I’m going to serve you to the dance of these so I’m not the only one suffering.

I need to search for it, I need to hide, the hunting was settled now, that stupid old man is going to send more people here, I just need to wait for them, I will crawl the walls, I will hide in the shelves, I will attract them to places, they will not now, they may not be like this house is haunted as long as it took me to realize it, they would know right away that they not need to mess with me, Vincent Veruc, I’m going to give the hunt.

—I WILL GIVE THEM HUNT NOW SO RETURN MY SENSES, I WILL GIVE YOU EVERYTHING, I’M GOING TO DO IT, SO GIVE THEM BACK TO ME NOW, NOW, NOW, NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOW!

I screamed and screamed, just to collapse the moment I wanted, and I did with a smile.