The chain reation.

"Eh? What do you mean Airi-chan is missing?", sensei creased his brows. "Isn't she right beside you?"

"What?? No?? Can't you see?? She's not here with us!!", I was hyperventilating insanely. I felt dizzy... my vision went blurry. I felt like I was going to fall down.

No... I can't let it happen... if I become unconscious, who will find Airi-chan? I used my full body force in my balancing.

Why the heck is none of them even concerned??? They aren't even giving a hint of nervousness... its like... they don't even care. What type of people are they??

"I am going.", I turned back.

"Where the heck do you think you are going??", Teiji grabbed my hand firmly.

"Let off-", I threw his tight grip with anger. The adrenaline made me shiver, which also gave me insane strength. I felt bad... he seemed like he got hurt.

None of them were coming towards me. I alone was walking towards the sea with my gears still on.

"Don't ever let the sea touch you... if it does, it will kill you." Yeah I hope it does. If I don't find her, the sea better drown me. I don't care anymore. I was now standing in front of the deck preparing for the jump. Then I saw a black figure beside me. I was startled by it.

"What?", Teiji firmed his rubber gloves. "I am going with you. I can't have you dying on me. And I know if you don't find her, you will kill yourself in there."

"Teiji..." I was wrong... they were still there to help me. I was wrong. Man... now I feel even more guilty.

I looked back to prepare for diving. It was not just Teiji, but all of my classmates, no- my friends who were ready to dive with me. It filled me with hope. I let my center of gravity lose, falling in my back into the endless void of the dark sky...

This time, the sea didn't look majestic. It looked terrifying. I don't know how I am keeping my head cool. I am sweating inside my swimsuit. It's so much that I might even drown in it. But she was not there... anywhere. Reality was hitting me too hard for me, removing any want to stay alive in this cruel world. Where the heck am I going to find her in this endless void? Should I search the bottom of the ocean or the top? Should I go left or right? Should I go middle or up or down or where??!?!?

My head started spinning again.

I felt a thump on my chest. It was Teiji. He was right beside me, bringing me back.

"Breathe!!", I could understand his mumbled voice through the water somehow. Then I remembered that I forgot to breathe. That's why I was feeling dizzy.

It's been two hours since we got into the sea again searching for her. This time I was breathing, but my hopes were vanishing into the void by the second. It's as if the void is sucking my dreams, my energy to live.

My oxygen pressure gauge was showing low pressure too. It was hopeless this time.

I don't want to go up to the surface now. She is here and I will be up, I don't want that... she must be waiting for me, but I can't do anything. I am so worthless...

There was an Arabic saying that said, "If you throw yourself into the sea, you will find yourself trying to get to the surface. Because it's not you that you want dead, it's something within you." Funny that I remembered that line now. I think that line doesn't affect me. Because I don't want to go to the surface. I want to make this void my abode, my new home. I relaxed the muscles in my body, preparing to shut myself down forever.

Teiji gripped me again, but with much more force this time. "No, I don't wanna go!", I struggled to get his hands off mine. The adrenaline has worn out. I am tired too. Two hours is the longest I dived in my life. Well it's maybe the same with them too. I feel horrible making him take me out of the sea.

We resurfaced to the sea, without my will.

"I survived..." this sentence should've been filled with joy. But it gave off differently from me. I was disappointed in myself. I looked at Teiji. Others also surfaced to the sea, following us.

His eyes contracted, as if he saw a ghost. His forehead creased

"Hey... Katsuhito... don't you think... theres less of us here then previously...?"