In another time...

These past few days have been painful, and the only thing I did to keep calm was to watch the night sky. Each day, came back from school and stayed up late looking at the stars, remembering that supermoon day.

But today, I was feeling extra heartbroken, feeling like my hearts was getting ripped apart. Instinctively, I went to my comfort place, to the rusty iron bridge to stargaze the beautiful sky.

But in one corner of my heart, I was hoping Kanako-kun would do the same, that we would have another fateful today as one of my hardest days of my life.

I sat under a tree, thunking of the possibilities. Am I truly happy right now? Well, definitely not but would I be happy if I were in a different place? I don't think so. Maybe if I was born in a different family life would've been much easier. I could've continued my life as a child actress prodigy and continue my way as an actress in the future, have a good life and die peacefully without experiencing anything that is happening to my right now.

But some experiences are not always bad. If I had a better life than this, then Kanako-kun probably wouldn't find my on that say, wouldn't save me from ending myself. He would probably love another girl, have his best time with her, marry her...

But I don't want that, ever. I am a bad, jealous girl who is easily swayed. Even if we were in different universes, experiencing different times, I would still want him to find me here. No, I will find him myself if that happens.

I looked at the star constellations shining brightly above my head. Millions of stars can't replace the sun, just as me not experiencing all this cannot replace my meeting with him. I gave a deep exhale through my mouth, leaning on the tree that I was sitting under.

That's when I felt a vibration on the tree stem, a gentle thud. Looking from where the vibration came from, I felt like the luckiest girl amidst all that I was going through. I saw him, my sun, sitting right next to me, leaning on the tree. He didn't say a word, didn't flinch or force me to talk about what was happening or why these were happening. He just sat down, taking my hands and looking at the night sky.

I was taken aback to how bold he was. Well, he was always bold unlike me, taking the first step while I cried like a baby. How long will I continue my ways? It felt unfair...