Chapter 1:
Grasping These Fleeting Memories
Day 1: Tuesday, Time: 8:00 PM
Tomorrow is the Tanabata Festival, where Hikoboshi đ and Orihime đ will meet up once every year. I should be excited, but I canât help but feel sad. Hopefully, my fake smiles will help me avoid all the questions my family and friends are going to ask me.
I donât usually write diaries, I think theyâre a very girly thing. But my doc recommended this for me, a tiny hand-sized diary with a flower pattern decorated on the front. Weirdly, I am fond of this diary. Better not let anyone see it tho, my friends would most definitely tease me about it. Me, a functioning male member of Japanese society, fondly carrying and writing in a teenage diary.
Anyways, I digress. Sorry to the future me whoâs reading this.
The doc said I was lucky to survive. Something about a fatal blow to my head that should have killed anyone. I canât really remember the details but the doc tells me I was a victim of a drunk hit and run last night and they found me with my skull open after skidding 30 meters across the pavement. They could tell it was that far because they measured the blood trail.
âItâs a miracle heâs aliveâ, âwe had to operate for 12 hours on himâ, âHeâs 24? Young bodies are truly invincibleâ, and âyouâre definitely getting a promotion after thisâ. All these rude things I heard when I was half unconscious. I should be grateful tho, they did save me.
Doc tells me I got a very rare case of injury-induced amnesia. Rather than losing my memory outright, my memory slowly slips away from me. Doc says it's even crueler than death or normal amnesia, it saps away at the core of the human, their memories, and therefore their existence. Doc says I have an estimated 3 days. I know heâs lying, heâs being generous.
The only person that knows about my injury is my girlfriend and soon-to-be fiancee, Sawako. She found me while walking to my house and immediately called the police and ambulance. I admire her strength, if I found her like that I would have probably broken down and cried for a few minutes before realizing I had to call someone.
We were planning our Tanabata celebration during the weeks leading up before this and she was so excited for the festival. When we talk she would always talk about her childhood memories from Tanabata and summer festivals. Her normally cool and stoic face would usually glow with life, her eyes would sparkle, and she would have a beautiful little half-grin.
Luckily for me, the day after Tanabata is actually our 3rd anniversary. I plan to propose to her at midnight tomorrow, the time when the romantic Tanabata ends and our anniversary begins. I want to propose to her with a sweet Ringpop. I know it seems really lame and cheap but, trust me, I know her, she would hate it if I spent our money on some useless diamond ring. Whenever I try to buy her something fancy she always asks for the price, glares at it for a few seconds (probably counting digits), then pouts at me with her signature âIâm angry at you but thanks for caring about meâ eyes. Donât tell her, future me, but sometimes I tease her with high prices so that I can see that expression, cause it is probably the cutest thing Iâve seen in my life. Anyways, sheâs frugal like that, and for good reason. Weâre quite poor. She would love the Ringpop tho, sheâs a fanatic for western-style things and they donât sell these Ringpops in Japan.
And for whoever is snooping in my diary after I left it on a desk or dropped it. Donât judge, I can feel your judging eyes. Hey! Why do you even have this diary. If you want to judge something then judge this!
[Showcase Image #1, Ringpop]
Yeah my art isnât that great
Anyways enough with that nonsense. Future me, tomorrow is Tanabata. You will enjoy it with Sawako as planned. Remember, house -> market -> bridge for fireworks -> propose at her door
And PLEASE.
PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE, if you forget everything and are about to die!
PLEASE REMEMBER TO PROPOSE
Donât let me down, future me.
Make her happy!!!!!!
Hojo Haruto, age 24, electric technician and amnesiac. 6 July, 2021
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âHojo-san, you have a guest!â
The nurse peeked into the room. On the hospital bed sat a young adult male with messy black hair, some stitches on the back of his head, and scars on his arms. His normally fair face luckily suffered minor scratches that have already healed. Decently fit and wearing the typical hospital patientâs clothing, he sat staring at a tear-stained diary with his eyes running up and down the page as if he was trying to engrain the words into his memory.
âAhâ. Hojo Haruto looked up and jumped out of his bed.
From behind the nurse came a young woman of 23 with hard eyes. Her dark brown hair was naturally curved and reached slightly below her shoulders. While normally kept neat, a few stray hairs showed she was recently stressed and in a hurry. Her face would be considered mature and beautiful if she didnât have tear marks that she was trying to hide.
âHaa⊠You shouldnât be jumping around like that, you know, it might open up your wounds.â Sawako sighed with her classic half-grin.
âWell Iâve been injured so much already, another scratch wouldnât hurt. Apparently, Iâm invincible.â
âHai hai. The doctor told me about your condition. Youâre free to leave anytime now.â
âWell letâs go then, Sawako-chan!â
Sawakoâs face turned bright red, âHey I thought I told you to stop calling me with âchanâ in public, youâre seriously embarrassing me.â
âYes, yes sorry. I couldnât resist,â Haruto cracks a laugh.
He walked up to the two women and thanked the nurse, who was watching with amusement. The couple walked out of the room and into the hallways.
âStop stumbling around, youâre not that injured and youâll crash into the staff,â Sawako asked as she turned around, seeing Haruto obviously acting like a zombie. She struck another half-grin after seeing Haruto acting more like his typical self.
âHaha, Iâm just messing with you.â
âYeah I know, but not here. You can act like a clown all you want outside.â
Sawako put out her hand, intending to help guide Haruto. As Haruto pulled out his hand to hold hers, Sawako had a slight inaudible gasp, dispersing her iconic half-grin and replacing it with a slightly saddened face and an intense glare.
âAh, my scars. Yea my hands and back are covered with them. Do they scare you?â
âNo⊠it's just that it's uncomfortable seeing you hurt like that.â
âAh sorry, theyâre just scars though.â
Once outside, both of them breathed a sigh of relief. It was dark out and the air was nice and cool. The full moon shone above, basking the bustling city of Osaka in a soft shade of white. In the cosmos, the stars Altair and Vega can be seen approaching each other.
âWeâre quite far from home, wanna call a taxi?â
âTaxi? We already spent 6 million yen on your treatment. Haa⊠I drove here with my car. I prefer we drive back so I donât leave my car here. How did you think I got here?â
â6- 6 million? How did we get that money? I remember we barely have 2 million in our joint account. Sawako, you didnât⊠did you?â
âI spent my college funds. I donât want to talk about it.â
âBut Sawako, how will you find the money to continue your doctora-â
âShh,â Sawako angrily put her finger on Harutoâs lips to quiet him. âWeâll figure it out later. Your life is way more important than some flimsy paper with a degree on it. And plus, I donât want to talk about-â
Haruto hugs her before she can finish with tears forming on the ends of his eyes. âI promise I will repay you! Thank you.â
Sawako warmly stroked the back of his head, making sure to avoid the stitches. âLetâs go, and stop hugging me so much in public, itâll embarrass both of us. I thought we promised that weâll keep it to only hand holding at most when in public.â
âAh⊠I forgot. But even if I remembered I would have hugged you anyways.â
âHaa... letâs go.â
As they walked to the car, a thought kept bugging Haruto. He really did forget. In fact, he had no memory of that important promise, but he was sure that it existed.
Please, please, please, myself. Donât forget the proposal... Haruto kept repeating those words in his mind as they drove home.
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Day 2, Wednesday (Tanabata!) Time: 7:00 AM
Donât forget the proposal. I made a promise to not hug/kiss/headpat/lift up/stroke Sawakoâs hair in public. I also promised to not call her Sawako-chan, but Iâve never kept that promise and I donât plan to keep it.
Today is Tanabata. Remember: house -> market -> bridge for fireworks -> propose at her door
house -> market -> bridge for fireworks -> propose at her door
house -> market -> bridge for fireworks -> propose at her door
Iâve noticed Iâve begun to forget some minor things. When I woke up I forgot where my sock drawer was and I lost my toothbrush. Sawako probably will not appreciate my bad breath so I ate a few mints. I hoped the amnesia was a lie but looks like Iâm not that lucky.
house -> market -> bridge for fireworks -> propose at her door
I actually woke up early to prepare my proposal box. Itâs handcrafted by yours truly and I had to get the dimensions of a Ringpop online since I canât just open and measure it. Honestly, putting a candy ring in a fancy box to propose seems stupid but Iâm sure sheâll love it. In case I forget somehow, I also set a timer for 11:59 PM, canât be too safe with me. My pockets are stuffed, I might get noticed and my secret might get exposed if something falls out. Hopefully, that timer doesnât ruin the moodâŠ
Iâm bringing this diary along too. I want to record this day for my future self. Please, learn to appreciate this day, my future self.
Hojo Haruto, age ??, former hospital survivor and amnesiac. 7 July, 2021
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A knock came to the door. Haruto quickly finished dressing in his traditional Japanese robe and hurried to the door.
âAh, youâre here. Where did you get that expensive kimono?â
Sawako greeted him with her classic half-grin. She wore a silk kimono with a beautiful flower pattern and traditional Japanese sandals. Her hair was tied up in a traditional bun and she carried a red umbrella with matching flower patterns in her right hand. In her left held 2 bento boxes.
âI thought this was a special occasion so I put money aside to buy this and I spent the morning making lunch for us sinc- hey are you scanning my body????â
âAh, caught, yea sorry I wasnât listening. I thought you were normally beautiful with western clothes but you might be too beautiful in this Japanese outfit. I might have to hide you because at this point you look better than a diamond and people might just steal you away-â
âYea ok creep. Haa⊠Your flirting always ends up becoming ramble and it kills the mood. Well I guess Iâm glad that hasnât changedâŠâ
âGlad to see you Sawako-chan.â Haruto ambushes Sawako with a hug.
âHey!â Sawako gave Haruto an angry pout, which was probably what Haruto was aiming for.
They ended their short conversation abruptly, unconsciously staring at each otherâs faces with brewing emotions. Breaking the current mood, both of them laughed and hugged each other.
âCome on, the festival wonât wait for you and youâre already late.â
Sawako took Harutoâs hand and led him down the road towards the coast, where the festival celebrating 2 star-crossed lovers was held every year.
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Day 1: Tuesday? Time: 10:00 AM
Weâve arrived at the festival grounds after a long car ride! Lookâs like weâre super late, Sawakoâs been giving me angry side glances as she drove thru traffic. I am partly to blame tho, apparently, Sawako has a car and she could drive. I wish she told me, would have saved me an embarrassing moment in the parking lot.
Anyways weâve arrived at Osakaâs coast. Looks like thereâs a few clouds out, the weather report says a small chance of rain. Hoping for good weather to enjoy today. This might be my last date with her...
Hosho Haruto, age 22 age ⊠July 6, 20
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The couple arrived at the pier a few kilometers from where the festival was being held. They ended up so far away due to traffic and a lack of parking spaces. Strangely, Sawako wasnât unhappy about their current location. After all, she secretly preferred a scenic beach rather than the crowded festival markets, but she canât tell Haruto that or heâll inconvenience himself by making a beach date every week.
âWeâre here, letâs hurry, we're going to miss the morning ceremonies.â
âYes, yes. Are you sure you donât want me to hold your bento boxes? Your hands seem full.â
âNo, itâs fine. I donât trust you to not lose them.â Sawako said with a slight blush. Haruto knew she was hiding something.
âAh, Sawako-chan! Look over here!â
âHai hai,â Sawako said after a few dissatisfied glares for Harutoâs blatant use of âchanâ in public. âAh, wow it does look amazing.â
Haruto pointed out towards the oceanside view. The large Pacific Ocean spanned across the horizon, ending its great expanse a few meters from Harutoâs feet. Above, large cumulonimbus clouds lofty hung in the sky, casting wide shadows over Osaka and providing some shade from the summer heat. Far off in the distance, the island of Shikoku along with some smaller islands sat in view, with a massive steel bridge spanning from the port of Osaka across the bay. If you looked closely enough, you could also see the bright lights of other people celebrating Tanabata on the islands.
âHey Haruto, look thereâs a sign here.â
âIs it one of those tourist things? This place is a tourist trap most of the year.â
âIt reads: âHere in front of you lies Osaka Bay, a historic site of trade, commerce, and Japanese culture. Ahead you can see several islands. These were formed by the slow moving Pacific Plate as it journeyed over volcanic hotspots over millions of years. Since the Yayoi era to even the recent Edo era, many stories about sea monsters, sometimes called yokai and sometimes called kami, have been popular among the local legends. Now, the bay is an international hub that attracts people all around the world. Although the old stories of Osaka Bay have been written off as fiction, it has become a core memory of the culture and life of Osaka. The memories of Osakan culture, traditions, and history define our city and our identity.ââ
âWow you can read English?â
âWhat? Haruto you idiot, there's Japanese text right above it.â
âAh sorry I wasnât paying attention. I was too busy comparing the sea and you and trying to decide which one looks better. The sea is beautiful but your face reading with your hard eyes scanning the plaque is even-â
âOk stop, I told you, your flirting doesnât work. Youâll end up embarrassing yourself further, good thing thereâs no one else but me to see that though.â Sawakoâs cheeks were secretly tinted pink but she couldnât let Haruto see that.
âAnyways, you lost me when you were reading about marine life or something like that. Iâm not trying to be a doctor like you so Iâm not that interested.â
âIâm trying to be a doctor of medicine. Med- i- cine. An MD. Haa⊠Haruto you're making me worry about your amnesia.â
âDonât worry, Iâm just messing with you, Sawako-chan.â
âHai hai⊠Come on, letâs get something to eat in town.â
In truth, both of them wanted to stay a little longer enjoying the scenery with each other, but both also didnât want to disappoint the other and miss out on the festival. It was two people trying their hardest in a silent contest to make the other person happy. They wanted to accommodate the other too much, and as a result no one got what they really wanted, but they were both happy in the end.
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Day 1: Time: 12:00
Finally here! Sawako took some time fixing her hair after it got messed up by the ocean winds. Apparently weâre buying our lunch, looks like the bento boxes she prepared are for dinner? Good thing I brought some money.
Really tho, I wished we planned out lunch earlier. In fact, I canât recall planning out anything for this important day but it seems Sawako already has a plan in mind so Iâll just follow her lead. Thankfully sheâs rele relaiabe reliable unlike me.
Ah, sheâs coming. I better hide this diary.
- Haruto, JuneTanabata Day
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âI asked around, the food court is on the next block.â
âAh Iâm not that hungry though, I do have money in case you want to buy something.â
âHaa⊠youâre not hungry because you were eating snacks in my car while I was driving. Well letâs go then. Iâm not that hungry too so letâs walk around and see the sights I suppose.â
âYou mean a date?â
âHai hai, call it what you want. Letâs look around, this boring city is only pretty and decorated a few days a year.â
Indeed, Sawako was right. The city was filled with life. They were surrounded by the colors of summer, where, for the one time per year lanterns lined wires instead of pigeons and people realized that clothes can have different colors than the greyscale suits the business districts were so familiar with. A time when dads were crowded into tight food stands selling mochi and takoyaki rather than crowded into tight cubicles selling their lifes. It was a city with a new breath of air, remembering and celebrating its roots and traditions. It was a time for couples to meet, children to dream, and memories to be made.
âHey, hey Sawako-chan look over there! That bridge looks like it came straight out of samurai manga!â
âThatâs the Kioku bridge isnât it? The one that was built by the Hosokawas in the Muromachi era. The one you want to watch the fireworks on, right?â
âDid I ever say that? I canât remember but I would definitely remember a bridge as impressive as this. That thing is wide enough to hold a thousand people I bet, and it's made of painted wood too.â
âWell I wanted to watch the fireworks from a tall hill but you kept pushing that stupid bridge. Well I guess itâs too late to change the plan now. Haa⊠Letâs hurry to the market to get something to eat before they sell out.â
âRace you to it then?â
âKnowing you, you're definitely going to get lost. Letâs go together, I would like that a bit more anyways. You can even call me âSawako-chanâ for the day.â Sawako tries a little too hard to hide her intentions. Luckily, Haruto has developed the skills to see right through her hints from the 3 years theyâve dated.
âAh you finally came to it. Surrendering? Well then letâs go arm in arm like those couples in high school romances.â
âHey, wait. Stop. Haa⊠fine, Iâll allow it. Keep it to hugging at most though! Hey are you listening? Youâre squeezing me too tight, I canât breathe!â
As expected, Haruto immediately hugged Sawako as hard as he could. It was a one in a lifetime chance after all. After a few more minutes of angry pouting and joking apologies, the couple laughed it out and hurried to the market.
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No time to write! Just tricked Sawako into asking the store owner if they sold erotica. She doesnât know any titles so it's honestly too easy.
Iâm hiding after running for my life. I stuffed my pocket with lots of junk so I canât run that fast, but for some reason I have a feeling that the stuff in my pockets are very valuable to me so I canât just throw them away. I hear footst-
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The day continued to go smoothly. Children played with newly acquired kitsune masks while their parents met up with old friends to talk over afternoon tea. The streets of Osaka usually filled with the sounds of angry car horns have been momentarily replaced with the clamorous chatter of festivities. Between all the star themed lanterns and the flowery kimonos and yukatas, you could find Sawako resting on an old wooden bench half covered in the shadows of a Japanese Maple Tree.
âSawako-chan! I got some dangos from that stand over there!â
âEh? Dangos are too sweet for m-â
âAh donât worry I got some takoyaki too to balance it out.â
âIt doesnât work like that! Eating both will cause your stomach bacteria to overreact and youâll be spending the day on the toilet.â
âAhh, more tako for me then. Come on, eat the dango. Iâll sing you a song to convince you. You like this song after all. âȘ Dango, Dango, Dango, Dango, Dango Dai-â
âHai hai, stop singing, youâre embarrassing yourself. Iâll eat it since you clearly bought too much and youâll get diabetes.â
âHow can I get diabetes if my body is already used to the high concentration of sugar from your sweet pouts and-â
âYour flirting really needs some work, that was such a good chance too and you messed it up. Anyways donât talk when you eat or weâll have to visit the doctor for the 2nd time and- Ah!â As Sawako was lecturing Haruto, a giant red Japanese maple leaf smacked Sawakoâs face, surprising her and making her drop her half eaten dango.
âI guess thatâs what happens when you talk when youâre eating, Sawako-chan.â
âAhh⊠that dango was pretty good too. A shame.â
âLike it? Donât worry I actually bought 5 more and I was preparing to- hey where did I- Ahhh I put them face down on the bench⊠Do you think theyâre still safe to eat? 5 second rule or something?â
â99% of the bacteria gets on food on 1st contact with the ground, also I think theyâve been there for a good minute. Haaa⊠Haruto what will I do with you and your absent mindâŠâ
Sawako lets out a sigh but sheâs clearly enjoying Harutoâs accidental humor. A small gust picks up as Haruto fumbles around with his dangos while Sawako watches, amused.
âHey the wind is picking up, watch out for more leaves!â
âLooks like itâs going to rain. Good thing I bought this festival umbrella.â
âRain? Since when was it going to rain? I should have checked the weather report this morning, damn.â
On cue, a light shower started. A quiet drizzle tapped on the brims of colorful market fronts and old stone paths, covering the ground in a thin layer of water that reflected the grey clouds overhead.
âWell you woke up so late I donât think you could have. Well itâs fine though, get under my umbrella. Itâs something you would like since youâre all about that sappy couple romance thing.â
âThat I am, Iâm glad you recognized my specialty, Sawako-chan. But isnât the male supposed to hold the umbrella in these situations?â
âYou just lost 5 dangos. I donât trust you with my new umbrella!â
âAh donât worry, I wouldnât lose something so important to you.â
âHai hai⊠Itâs getting cold, let's head to the indoor area before the weather gets worse.â
âAh, I wanted to cuddle together, but on second thought that might have been dangerous. If we cuddled I might not have ever wanted to move again.â
âSave your thoughts⊠We can cuddle at homeâŠâ
âWell then, if I have that guarantee, Sawako-chan letâs-â
âAh!â
A strong gust blew her red flower patterned umbrella out of her hand and into the air.
âHaa⊠Iâll get it before it flies into the ocean. Head indoors before you get a cold. Iâll be back soon.â
âAlright Sawako-chan! I canât wait!â
Haruto sat back on the wet bench, watching Sawakoâs form get smaller and smaller as she chased her runaway umbrella. Strangely, Haruto noticed that his recently exposed head isnât that wet. Luckily for the festival, the drizzle seemed to have stopped and the clouds were parting, revealing a rainbow that rivaled the beautiful summer colors of the Tanabata festival.
After waiting for a good while in the slowly fading drizzling rain, Harutoâs eyes began to drift around, admiring the scenery.
âEhhh, how romantic would it be to look at that rainbow with Sawako-chan⊠Ah I should probably write it down in my diary since sheâs not hereâŠâ Haruto fumbled around, searching for his diary in his pockets. Instead of a flower patterned diary, he pulled out a detailed, handmade box.
âEh? Why do I have this? Was this the thing that kept bumping into my leg when I ran?â He shaked it around and heard something bouncing around. Might as well open it, he thought.
Inside the hand- crafted box he finds some sort of candy ring sitting on velvet silk. Already opened from itâs package, it was somehow kept in pristine condition, as if it was factory new.
âWhat? Some type of candy? Ah I thought I could sell this for some money. Well, I might as well eat it before it spoils.â Haruto took the strange candy ring out of the box, twirling it in his fingers before eating it. âThis is way too sweet, it's basically pure sugar⊠Might as well get rid of this annoying box, it keeps on scraping my leg.â Haruto tossed the hand-craft box into the nearby trash can, âSeriously, who would like to eat something so sweetâŠâ
âHey is that a Ringpop?â
âAh, Sawako-chan youâre back! Uhh, is this what itâs called?â
Haruto pulled out the Ringpop to show to Sawako.
âHai hai, it looks like it. Those are so rare here, how did you get one? I havenât seen one in years.â
âYou want it? I thought you didnât like to eat things that are too sweet.â
âIâm fine with western sweets. During my time studying abroad I got used to them I guess. You can keep the Ringpop though, Iâve had a few before but this is your first one so you should enjoy it.â
âAh, I didnât know you liked that type of foreign stuff. If so I would have gotten you something.â
âHey itâs getting late, we have to hurry to watch the sunset. Letâs go, we need to fight for a spot on the bridge before others take it. Weâll miss the fireworks if we donât. Hey, the sun is setting fast. Come one!â
âAh ah ah, alright let me throw this thing away first. Hey, Sawako-chan, wait up!â
Haruto tossed the half finished Ringpop into the same trash can he threw the box in.
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7pm
Diary, I feel like something is wrong. I donât know if itâs my amnesia or not but I canât- something doesnât sit right. Please, please, please, donât forget to kiss marry date pro PROPOSE
PLEASE REMEMBER TO PROPOSE
PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE
DONâT FORGET SAWAKO
I am stressed out of my mind. I canât enjoy this day like this. I still have to make sure Sawako is happy while we watch the fireworks. Why are we watching the fireworks? Theyâre loud and annoying. Is it the spirit of the holiday that commands it?
Damn it! Iâll draw a picture of Sawako and me here, so if I ever forget I can look back and remember. I canât possibly be that dumb to not be able to connect the dots??????
[Showcase Image #2, Who?]
Curse my bad art skills!!!!
I- I- I canât remember how my face looked likeâŠ
Haru Horu Harota Age:
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âThere goes the sun, we can probably see the stars now.â
âIâll look for Orihime, you can look for Hikoboshi then?â
The couple sat together in a nice, scenic spot in the middle of the bridge, pointing at stars. In front of them were the wooden railing that was painted red to match the festive colors of Tanabata. Beyond that spanned the river estuary that fed into Osaka Bay. The sun was barely visible beyond the horizon, casting the sky with a grand shade of red that slowly faded into a purple night sky splattered with shining stars. Although the air got colder and the wind picked up, the couple didnât fear the cold since they were cuddled together.
âItâs almost time for the lanterns.â Sawako whispered with her head on Harutoâs shoulders.
âIt is? Since when did they fly lanterns during Tanabata?â
âEvery year. I used to think that tradition was silly but I guess it can create a nice, romantic mood when done just right.â
âDo you want to fly one?â
âHaruto, we donât have the money for that. Well, itâs dinner time anyways so letâs just eat and watch.â
Sawako handed Haruto a bento box she prepared. After a closer inspection, Haruto noticed his bag is definitely bigger and heavier than Sawakoâs.
âAh, you didnât, did you? Sawako you shouldnât give me extra food.â
âHey donât complain. I spent all of yesterday making this while you were sleeping in the hospital. Here, I got all your favorites. Takoyaki, fried tofu, onigiri, tempura, and some mochi when youâre done!â
âYou really shouldnât have, I-â
âHaa⊠Just let me do something nice for you, you always do nice things for me after all. Iâll feel guilty if you don't accept it. Oh yea, and I know you like sushi but I canât put it in the bento since the raw fish would spoil soâŠâ Sawako reached into her bag and pulled out freshly prepared, handmade sushi. âTada! Fresh sushi made!â
âWhen did you-â
âWell youâre usually so absent-minded so when I chased after that umbrella I took the chance to quickly run off and buy all the ingredients, drive to a nearby friendâs house, and then I prepared it all in 30 minutes. Seriously, did you think I would spend almost an hour chasing an umbrella?â
âBut really youâre going to stuff me full with all of this fo-â
âHai hai, just eat. You need the extra protein to help you regenerate your cells in your injured body, or whatever.â
âWell I guess if you care for me that much, we can feed each other the takoyaki though, you know, like how couples do.â
âHaa⊠Iâll allow it.â
Both of them laughed as they joked and ate, watching as bright orange lanterns rose up one by one into the night sky. Soon, the lanterns rivaled the stars in numbers, dancing in the wind and causing the calm ocean to sparkle as it reflected the colors of the floating lights, the moon, and the stars.
âThe lanterns really are beautiful.â
âYea it really adds to the mood. I guess they were right when they said the Tanabata festival in Osaka was the most beautiful in all of Japan.â
âOsaka⊠Right. Weâre in OsakaâŠâ
âYea and we took hours to drive to the bay, no thanks to you.â
âWe should get a lantern, shouldnât we? We can write our names on it and send it to the heavens.â
âHaruto, do you really want one that badly? Well if you keep insisting⊠I guess this is a special occasion, Iâll get one then but expect a loan on our rent next month.â
âEh? If we donât have the money we probably shouldnât get one. I donât remember asking before-â Sawako was already gone, going around to buy a lantern to light with Haruto.
With that, Haruto was sitting on a bench alone, eating food made by someone else, and gazing at the 2 stars who were fated to meet that night.
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âIt really is pretty, isnât it?â Haruto said to himself as he fumbled around his pockets, âI should take a pictureâŠâ
âEh? Whatâs this? A book?â
In his hand, he held some sort of flower patterned book. Itâs edges were worn by all the running that occurred that day.
âWell⊠I guess since I have time to kill I could read through it.â
Haruto flipped around the book but he couldnât really read the messy handwriting.
No, he could somewhat read the handwriting, but he couldnât make sense of it. The more he read, the more he became confused. The writer ran on and on about some romantic plan, some relationship, and some thoughts that were foreign to this Haruto. He had no description to base his imagination on, and the sparse drawings were too poor for him to really make sense of whatever he was reading.
âHuh, must be some girlâs diary, but Haruto is a boyâs name, isnât it? Did I pick this up from somewhere? I should probably give it back-â
âHai! I got the lantern! Letâs light it before the fireworks.â
In front of Haruto came a young woman of 23 with normally hard eyes that have turned soft from happiness. Her dark brown hair was held up in a traditional Japanese bun. While normally kept neat, a few stray hairs showed she was recently in a hurry. Her face is mature and beautiful, complementing her flower patterned kimono. She had a familiar and pleasant half-grin on her face.
Haruto was confused. Here in front of him sat a girl that seemed like she was having the time of her life. Haruto was overcome with deep emotion, some sort of mixture between care, joy, and fondness that some would consider to be âloveâ. She was close to his heart but alien. Her beautiful looks were familiar but unrecognizable. Haruto felt like throwing up.
âHello? Earth to Haruto? Haa⊠Are you going to try one of your flirting rambles again? Hellooooo? Earth to Haruto, this is Sawako making contact, if there is any life ple-â
âAh thatâs right! Hi Sawako-san!â
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The girl named Sawako recoiled in a mixture of confusion, worry, and shock. Her previous happy demeanor and characteristic half-grin vanished, replaced with a face of concern marked with worried eyes. Haruto, for some reason, remarked in his head that he rarely sees this expression in her face.
âHa-⊠h-hai, Sawako-san... Letâs light the lantern Haruto...â The girl named Sawako held out her newly bought lantern to the boy next to her. Her face flashed with many different emotions as she tried to process things.
âAh, a lantern? We could light it and let it fly like the rest of the ones in the sky.â
âH-Hai hai⊠I have the pen, letâs write our names... Here, Iâll write first. Sa. Wa. Ko, see? Your turn.â
âSa⊠Wa⊠Ko⊠Like Sawako-san... Ok do I just write it here? Uhh let me just... My name was⊠It wasâŠ?â
That was the confirmation the girl who called herself Sawako needed and dreaded. She was holding back tears. She knew this time would come when she heard the doctor, but she rejected the idea and banished it away.
âItâs Haruto, Hojo Haruto. See, Ha. Ru. To. Weâre together right now, like Orihime and Hikoboshi. Letâs write our names and send it to the heavens to bless our rela- relation- ourâŠâ
The girl named Sawako couldnât talk. She was too busy holding back her tears. She cried silently. She couldnât show Haruto. She couldnât ruin his happiness.
âAh, so like⊠Ha. Ru. To. So then what?â
âThen- then just light it and it will soar with- with our loveâŠâ The girl called Sawako wiped away her tears and continued to instruct the boy called Haruto next to her.
âSo like this? Let me just hold it out and take the lighter⊠Ah,â Haruto dropped the lantern and it tumbled over the edge of the bridge, landing in the murky water below. âAh Iâm so sorry, I lost your lantern!â
âNo, no, no itâs fine. Itâs all right. We donât need a- a silly lantern to love each⊠each⊠each oth-â
Boom! Loud explosions could be heard. In the sky, fireworks lit up the starry night, casting colors that rivaled the forgotten afternoon rainbow. Murmurs of âwowâ and âahhâ were exchanged between the families and couples present on the bridge.
âAh, so those are fireworks huh.â
âYea⊠Theyâre⊠Theyâre beautiful arenât they?â The girl named Sawako didnât... no, she knew he couldnât give an answer. She put her head on Harutoâs shoulders.
âEh, uhh Sawa⊠Uhh are you ok?â
âHai hai⊠Stop looking at me, Iâm fine. Enjoy the fireworks.â
The fireworks ignited the air, sending summer colors flying throughout the sky. It seemed like it was raining stardust. The booms echoed across the land, demanding attention and awe at the majesty of art and color it displayed. The stars of Altair and Vega, known in legend as Hikoboshi and Orihime who are now together in the sky, were the only stars that outshined the brilliant fireworks.
âWhat are you doing, Haruto, stop looking at my face, itâll ruin your night. Look at the fireworks⊠please.â
âAh, sorry, I tried looking at the fireworks but your face was more beautiful.â
After that comment, the girl called Sawako paused, sat back up, put her hands over her face, and cried.
She cried more than she ever had in her life. She no longer tried to stop the tears that poured across her face, they were as numerous as the stars. She stained her new flower patterned kimono crying, but she didnât care. People began to notice and murmur, but she didnât care. She only cared for Haruto, and he was gone.
âHaruto⊠Remember me. Itâs me, Sawako-chan! Your Sawako-chan! Who has a habit of saying âhai haiâ that you find annoying. Who is trying to study to become a doctor so we can have money. Who has to call you so you can wake up in the morning. Who- Who glares and pouts at you everytime you do something dumb. Who- Who secretly adds extra portions to your lunch before you go to work. Who laughs when you try to make dumb jokes and gets angry when you try to flirt. Who- Who wants you to be happy!â
There was no response from Haruto. He couldnât respond, she was speaking another language, events alien to him that he never experienced. She was talking to a different person.
People were watching now, whispering rumors and shuffling away. The girl didnât care though, why should she. What is the worth of embarrassment when you lost everything?
âItâs⊠Itâs not fair. ITâS NOT FAIR! Why⊠Why⊠out of all the times youâve tried, this time your stupid flirting worked? Where is the endless ramble that kills the mood? Where are the joking replies and that face that doesnât pay attention? Why⊠Why⊠Why are you gone? Itâs not- I canât- I- I- I should have treated you better. I shouldnât have been so cold to you. Is- is that what the gods would have wanted? Is that why my Haruto received such a cruel punishment in my place? Why⊠Why... â
Her words were drowned out by the booms of the fireworks she once wanted to see. It didnât matter that much though, Haruto couldnât understand her.
The night was filled with the incoherent cries of a girl lost in hopeless love and the deafening roars of colorful fireworks. And when the firework show finally died down, all that was left were the sad cries of a lonely girl who lost the things she cared for the most.
âHey⊠hey⊠are you ok?â The boy called Haruto shook the crying girlâs shoulders, but he found no response.
Haruto knew she was crying because of him. She was crying because of something heâs done. He didnât recognize the crying girl besides him, not even her name, but for some reason he cared for her.
No, he loved her, a lot. The love was stronger than the powerful explosions of fireworks and brighter than the moon and the stars overhead. That love was the only thing he remembered.
He couldnât stand it. The unknown girl he loved was crying so much. It was so uncharacteristic of her. It was so wrong!
He was the cause. He had shattered her heart on the day she was supposed to be happy. The day they were supposed to be happiest, that was supposed to go down in their memories as an irreplaceable treasure. He blamed only himself for this girlâs sorrow.
There, beyond the red railing of the old wooden bridge sat the murky waters of Osaka Bay, 50 meters below his feet. There were no lanterns up anymore, they had drifted away or sank under the waves. Fireworks no longer lit the skies, only the moon and the stars Altair and Vega shined down, watching a silent boy and a crying girl.
He wanted to make her happy. He wanted to have her smile and laugh again. He couldnât live with himself if his existence caused her suffering.
In a silent decision, the boy named Haruto stood up, walked towards the railing of the bridge, and jumped.
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âNO! NO NO NO NO NO. DONâT YOU DARE. NO!â
The girl, no, her name is Sawako.
Sawako grabbed the boy once called Haruto before he was able to throw himself off the bridge. They both collapsed down, with Harutoâs back against the railing and a crying Sawako hammering his chest and holding him as tight as she could. Unnoticed, a flower patterned diary slipped out of Harutoâs pocket and landed on the edge next to Haruto.
âNO, NO YOU CANâT. YOUâRE NOT ALLOWED TO DIE. YOU- YOU- WE- We havenât even experienced life together yet! You- You still owe me 50 years Haruto! You still owe me more hugs and kisses and⊠and dreams⊠You- You canât leave me yet Haruto! You canât abandon me yet since I havenât abandoned you! Youâre not allowed to die. You canât die. I wonât let you. I donât care if the stars smite me or if the ocean swallows me, I wonât let you die! Iâll throw away everything twenty times and more if I could spend one more second with you! I don't care if you donât remember me! I donât care if you donât love me! I wonât let go of you!
So- So- please⊠Haruto⊠donât dieâŠâ
Haruto watched as this girl he loved cried on his chest. As he looked, he realized he was crying too.
She was tired, she spent the last few days with little sleep worrying about Harutoâs condition but it didnât soften her embrace. She was holding on to something more important than her life.
âI⊠wonât let go even if I have to hold you for an eternity. I wonât ever-â
A timer rang out from within Harutoâs pocket. It signalled that it was 11:59 PM, one minute before the end of Tanabata and the start of their 3rd anniversary.
Haruto looked down at the distraught but determined Sawako on his chest. He had to do something. He remembers that he has to. He must. Itâs calling deep in his soul. Itâs important. Itâs more important than anything heâs ever done and will be more important than anything he will ever do.
âSa- SawaâŠâ
Yes, her name was Sawako, a girl clinging on to the one thing dear to her: him.
âSawako-chan⊠Will you marry me?â
Sawako stopped crying for the first time since Orihime and Hikoboshi met that night. Their eyes meet, staring through the tears to see the deep colors of each other's irises. This was the last time these Orihimes and Hikoboshis would be together.
âYes⊠Yes I willâŠâ
As the two embraced for one last time, the celestial stars of Altair and Vega gave their blessings to another couple cursed by fate.
Unbeknownst to the couple who has found happiness for one last time, a flower patterned diary quietly slipped off of the old wooden bridge, tumbling down into the murky waters of Osaka Bay. It drifted away with the current, and with it took the last of Harutoâs memories.
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For another perspective, see âChasing these Delusional Dreamsâ
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