Volume 1 Chapter 3: "What Is Happening to Me"

1st black and white illustration: https://drive.google.com/file/d/19m1zvDF0B4K2CPfTUxamGzfKW9gnw1Pr/view?usp=drivesdk

2nd black and white illustration: https://drive.google.com/file/d/1aUYW7Wqhk6rabe79Fu0o_dmo_1bko8t7/view?usp=drivesdk

"What the heck is happening here?

First of all, how did I get this much power?

And who the hell did I just kill?

If the answer is the goddess, then why did she die just from me raising my finger to her?" I whispered.

"What is happening here?" I whispered.

I turned around, and I saw gods standing there.

They were standing, looking me in eye to eye, because what I did to the first goddess.

The first goddess the one I had just killed...

was surrounded by swirling air. Her long white hair and glowing white eyes gave her an ethereal presence. Angelic wings stretched behind her lifeless body.

The second was a god who was standing.

He had fire surrounding him. He had an aura that declared his perfection... no one could surpass him, not even the creator.

He had burning wings like the first goddess. His hair was long and red, and eyes were red too.

He said: "There is no throne but mine. Even the creator knows this so what... did you think you could kill me like her?"

The third who was standing there was a god like second god he had green eyes, green long hair and he was surrounded by plants it was like he was the god of nature he had wings made of vines and thrones. His aura radiated rage, destruction, and vengeance.

He said: "I am not angry. I am the consequence of rage left unchecked got it Don't think I am angered at someone like you"

The fourth goddess who was standing there she had brown hair and eyes she had stones surrounding around her and she had stone like wings.

She said: " The power you have is mine, so give it to me now"

The fifth standing there was a goddess. She had purple hair and purple eyes she had silver air surrounding around her she had silver wings and had the mixture of plants and ice.

She said: "I want what you have I want your everything from your head to your feet I want all even your pain would make me whole"

The Sixth goddess approached with a sultry smile, her touch as cold as ice. Without warning, her fingers slid across my skin in places they shouldn't have.

For a moment , I was paralyzed...entranced by her manipulative charm. But then I snapped out of it, recoiloing in deguist. What was she trying to do?

She had yellow eyes and half blue and white eyes and had half blue and white wings she had ice surrounding her.

She said: "You are so hot, You really are something else do you want me to touch you everywhere? Everywhere means everywhere"

She does not stopped she come at me again and touched my private parts I was in control of her for a moment, but next moment I finally snapped out from that seduction again.

When I saw at them completely they were goddesses and gods who represent something.

First goddess whom I killed was representing sloth and air.

Second god whom was standing there was representing pride and fire.

Third god whom was standing there was representing Wrath and nature.

Fourth goddess whom was standing there was representing Envy and ground.

Fifth goddess whom was standing there was representing greed and plants and ice.

Sixth goddess whom was standing there was representing lust and ice.

One by one, they spoke their names aloud, as if declared war.

The first goddess I killed was named Goddess Somnieas.

The second god who was standing there was named God Quizril

Third god standing there was named God Albedaroth.

Fourth goddess standing there was named Goddess Simsirya.

Fifth goddess standing there was named Goddess Emoauraya.

Sixth goddess was named Goddess Eslimiya.

They all suddenly started asking me question, and some began to roar at me.

"Y-you monster! You have killed a goddess," God Quizrel said.

"A monster... ?

Am I really a monster?

No... I remember Erwin's last words.

She said I was like her.

So no... I can't be a monster." I whispered.

"No, you are just misunderstanding it. Believe me..." I said.

"What?

What are you saying?

If you didn't do it, then who did?" God Albedaroth said.

"I didn't do anything! Believe me, I just raised my finger to goddess. I didn't do anything else" I said.

"What?

"You killed goddess just by raising your that damn finger?" Goddess Simsirya said.

"No way... No one is supposed to stronger than us!" God Quizrel said.

"Great, Now they are started thinking like I am doing right now.

I killed goddess by getting some powers from that freaking experiments like in anime, manga story happens"

"What do I need now to do?

I ran from here leaving them thinking?

No way... I can't do this, First of all I don't even know where the heck I am really?

How about explaining them briefly?"

"Hey, You are not trying to understand what I meant, If you aren't believing me, then see by yourself" I said.

I raised my finger to the gods and goddess.

"See? Nothing happened right?" I said.

Next moment I saw two gods and two goddesses turned into ashes just by raising my finger to them.

"What the heck just happened?" I said

Did this happened again?

And I just killed four goddess at same time after killing first goddess in seconds?

And where is fifth goddess.

Oh, There She is!"

"Hey, Thank god you are alive"

"Belive me! I didn't do this by on purpose. I mean, My powers, I can't control them." I said.

"What you just did right now? Who are you?" Goddess Eslimya asked.

"Like I thought, She is scared from me

Really man even other than her someone would see this his reaction will be same as her"

"I have to do something, But what do I do?

"Hey, I am not going to kill you, Believe me." I said.

"Belive you? Did you forgot what you did just now,

"Don't come close to me, Please! Please spare my life." Goddess Eslimya said.

"Why does this feel like I am some overpowered anime protagonist who is reincarnated in another world?

Five goddesses who are stronger enough to destroy full universes was just killed by me because I just raising my damn finger to them.

Really?

Tell me?

Am I reincarnated into some of novel I was reading?"

"Hey, I know you don't believe me but I am really a human," I said

"Did you just said you are a human? No way, You can't be a human!

You... You are far way than even God's and godesses," Goddess Eslimya said.

"Hey, don't worry I can now control my powers" I said

Goddess Eslimya repeated his words again.

"It's really going like I am some overpowered mc who just killed four goddess no I think five goddess in a few seconds.

And the last remaining goddess is begging me to spare her life,"

"Listen, This time I am not raising finger to anyone else, Instead I am raising to myself," I said.

I raised my finger to myself but I was not turned into ashes, I was not damaged, nothing happened.

"See? Nothing happened. Like I said, I can control my power now." I said

"Y-you are right... If you didn't have then how did the godesses died?" Goddess Eslimya asked

"I think godesses turned into ashes because they have dying time like human have, And that's why they died" I answered.

"There is no way this could be true, But let's just Believe in your words for now and make a handshake now" Goddess Eslimya said.

"Handshake?

No way this could be a handshake... I know She will erase my memories or she will check If I had powers, just like she thinks"

"Why not... Let handshake... wait, what is that flying over here" I asked.

"What?" Goddess Eslimya asked.

I pointed at where the flying thing was... and it landed right on goddess's head.

Unfortunately, It was the worst thing I could have done.

Because in the next moment, she turned to ashes... just like the goddesses before, right in front of my eyes.

"What now...?

Did this really happened again?

Why did this happened?

And why with me?

Am I cursed one?

Or Am I the chosen one, like the main characters in anime and manga?

No way I could chosen like them.

Besides, they was from fake world... and just was fake people from two-deminsional world, nothing more.

And that two demionstional was Introduced to me by my freaking butler... who was later called my grandfather by some damn freaking fake documents"

Then I heard someone's voice.

"Help! Help me, please..."

"Huh?

A voice?

Who is asking for help anyways?

Because I remember Godesses saying they lived in this place alone right? If that's true, then who's is asking for help?"

"Help me! I know someone else then those freaking godesses is here, So please help me"

"Huh?

Again?

What do I need to do now?

I don't know where the hell is voice coming from

What about increasing my voice and then asking the person where is he?"

"Listen! Can you hear me? If you can, then tell me where you really are... Then I will come to rescue you. I should, raising my voice as much as I could.

"Where am I? Hmm... I think I am in a jail," She answered.

"Huh?

She is kidding me right?

She even didn't know where she is huh?

Well I don't know either about where am I?

But I at least know where am I Stand, But at same time she even didn't know.

If she doesn't know about this place, then She's just as new here as I am, right?"

"Are you really going to help me, or just keep wondering If I came here like you? Or why I don't remember where the heck I am?" She said.

"Huh?

You can read mind?

And if you can then from this much distance?

Wait No I was wrong there is a jail right here So is that mean you are here" I said.

Then, When I got to jail and I tried to open it, my uncontrollable powers caused the jail melted with my fire power.

In the next moment, I entered the jail and saw a white-haired girl... no, someone even more Beautiful than any goddess... chained up.

I fell in love with her the first moment I saw her.

"Hey, can you free me? Or would you stare at me?" She said, her face completely red because she was feeling embarrassed.

"What? Yes, of course I was arrive here for that after all" I said.

Really? And where are the all goddesses? I haven't seen or heard any of them yet,". She asked.

"They're all died." I answered.

"D-died? No way. How could they die? I mean, all of them was so stronger right?" She asked.

"You are right, But you know there are things that go not according to our knowledge, like that they died and the one who killed them is me, and belive me, I only raised one of my my finger to them," I answered.

W-What? You killed all of them by only raising your finger? I think you are honored. She said.

"Me ? Honored? No way... I am just cursed, nothing more," I said.

"Cursed? I think you had your life worst I forgot to told you that my name is Yurina Soruma ."

"Yes, I have," I said.

"But listen... sometimes in life, there are many bad things happened... but those who survived in these situation are remembered by God. No, by creator himself," She said.

"I think you are right" I said.

"Sorry, If my words hurt you" I said.

"Hey, Can I know why are you here?" I asked.

"Yes, You can after all you have saved me.

Then listen very closely. When I was eight year old, I was celebrating my eight birthday at my home" She said

"Huh?

Birthday... ?

What is that?

I have never heard of it.

And what the heck is celebration?

She was celebrating her eight birthday with her family, what did she mean by that?

I think "celebrating" means watching adult anime and reading magazines with family, right?

But my father never watched adult anime or read magazines with me...

But, My butler did it alone and I had respect for him deep within my heart after all he was like a grandparent to me right?"

"Hey, Did you mean watching adult anime and adult magazines with your family By that words, celebrating with my family" I asked.

"Adult anime and magazine's? What are that?" She asked.

Then I explained it to her the way the butler's brother's son Explained it to me.

But, Instead of saying yes, her face turned red... clearly red because she was embarrassed.

"Huh?

Your face is burning. Are you alright?

Did I said something wrong just now?

Well, I am asking because I didn't react like you when my butler brother son explained me this at my sixth or seventh birthday I guess.

And I even remember my butler watching adult anime while sitting next to me when I was four or five year old."

"What? Are you really sure because this is not something kid had to know at that age" She asked.

Then She explained me why she felt embarrassed.

After she explained me, I understand completely what was wrong with me learning adult things at such a young age.

After that I was lost in thoughts for few minutes.

"Is my butler was okay?

Had he lost his mind back then?

Or Is he did this because of his loneliness?

And the same goes for that freaking butler brother son?

Why the heck did he showed me adult magazine?

And the most important question why the heck did he told me adult things?

I was thinking this was normal for kids from my childhood"

"Let's forget what I said, Countiue your story, please," I said.

"Like I said before, I was celebrating my eighth birthday with my family. But suddenly, I was summoned by those freaking goddesses and gods," She said.

"So she was summoned like me... by those same freaking damn gods and goddesses?

I knew it. From the start, I knew that they enjoy torchering humans," I whispered.

"They Told me, that I was just an experiment... a tool which they will use to create a new goddess.

Because the previous goddess, The goddess of gluttony, Rathriyied, died a thousand years ago.

Because of that there was empty sit for gluttony and they want me to become next goddess... but first, for that they had to make me powerful so that's why they called me an experiment.

And it was not a normal experiment.

At first, they made me immortal. Then they added many chemicals and poured their power in my body.

At first, my body was unable to handle this much power from Six goddesses. No human could handle this much powers from some divines. But they didn't care.

Like this they torched me for eleventh years without stopping a moment, She said.

"What...?

She was an experiment?

Like me?

You've got to be kidding me?

She was just a girl... and kid at same time.

How she survived that?

How can she handle it.

I was eight when I was got torched by those freaking psychos after reincarnating... and she survived all that at eight?

And not only this... but she managed to handle the powers of goddesses and gods in her human body?" I whispered.

"But few weeks ago, they saw another human. He had been tortured badly... but he was still enduring it," She said.

"Wait... what?

Another human... was torched badly?

I feel sorry for him... just like I do for her," I whispered.

"At first, they kept ignoring him. But after few weeks and days, they saw him completely handling the hell like torched from those dangerous experiments and then they realized how great his will power is, and how was he survived," She said.

Wait... Why does this human is giving vibes of me?

Does he was like me?

And what kind of torches he handled? I I whispered.

"When they saw him survived, they started giving their powers to him... like this he become their next target.

The one who was their next target after me" She said.

"Wait... What? they put there powers into him?" I said.

"I think he would be not a human?

After all, he did not die even after goddesses and god pourred their magic into him.

I will say he will be far way than even gods... because he handled this much power like it was nothing," I whispered.

"After they did it, they all stared at me and said,

"We don't need you anymore"

After saying this they looked me in jail.

After many minutes finally I listened someone else voice and that was you that's all" She said.

"So... that was what happened to you?

Can I know the name of the person you mentioned before... the one who was tortured like hell?" I asked.

"Yes, of course. His real name was Shin Tomoko... and his nickname Sugimoto Kimora," She answered.

Why does this real name and nickname sound so familiar?

Wait...

That is my name, right?

My real name is Shin tomoko.

And nickname... Sugimoto Kimora.

Yes it is, it is my name I know correctly" I whispered.

"Hey... I want to tell you something," I said.

"Yes, but I already know what you are going to say" She said.

"Huh? You know? But how? Oh I remember you have the mind reading power" I said.

"Wait...

I forgot she had that power. So thats mean... she heard everything I said, right?" I whispered.

"From the beginning, I knew about you.

I was already aware that you are Shin Tomoko or I say Sugimoto Kimora.

Because when you arrived in this place first time, you were thinking a lot" She said.

"She's been reading my mind since the beginning?

Wow... she had so cool power" I whispered.

"Don't think this is cool you don't even know its downside," She said.

"Then, what are the disadvantages than?" I asked.

"The disadvantages of this power are many but I tell you ones which I hate most.

The biggest disadvantage is you can never let your mind rest... because your mind will be always filled with the thoughts of everone who is around you" She answered.

"Really? I didn't know that, but I think I can help you with this" I said.

"Can I really do this?

I mean, I don't even know how my powers work...

But I think I do have the powers of goddesses and god are inside me. So maybe I can save her.

And what about after this?

I mean she will leave right?

Do I purposed her after removing mind-reading power from her?" I whisappered.

"You don't even know how to use your powers yet, but you are still willing to save me? You really are different from everyone else... and my answer to your proposal is yes," She said, her face was burning red with embarrassment.

"This is so good that she had trust in me.

And even she said I am different from others...

And she even accepted my proposal.

Wait..." I whispered.

"W-What! You accept my proposal? Did this means you are ready to spend your entire life on someone like me?" I asked.

"Someone like you? What does it means?" She answered, her face was still burning.

"I mean... someone like me... an ugly monster,?" I said.

"What did you just say? Uhh... " She said.

While I was feeling disappointed in myself, she leans closer to me... and kissed me on lips.

"Wait... What is happening?

Is she is kissing me?

But why...?

Why would she kissed someone like me?" I whispered.

While I was still thinking, she started to kiss me even more hard.

"What is she doing...?" I whispered.

She kissed me hard this time, She kissed me even more intensely...so much that we both slipped and fell to the ground, but still she kept kissing me hard.

"What is she doing...?

And Why...?

Oh, I get it now.

She is helping me to find myself.

I understand completely now she is trying to remember me that I was forgot... that even a ugly monster like me... can still be a human too" I whispered.

Then I started to kiss her too, After a while we both stopped... and our face was burning red.

That's when she noticed... her that her mind reading power was gone forever.

"I can't hear what you are thinking? Does that mean... my powers are finally gone?" She said.

"I am dying from the embarrassment...

My kiss just now erased her magic... in a few seconds.

I mean I never felt this much happiness and embarrassment at same time.

And the kiss we shared just now... It was so amazing" I whispered.

"Really? I think the kiss we shared now had drained your powers" I said.

"Really? Yeah... I think so too," She said.

"Heh, how about we return to our world?" I said.

"Yes, of course! Let's go," She said.

"But wait how are we going to go in our world?" I asked.

"Huh? You don't know how to use your powers?" She said.

"How would I know? I mean I only arrived here a few minutes ago" I said.

"You are right, I was really get excited to meet my family again, and live a happy life with you... but it can't happen because we can't return back to our world" She said, sadly.

"Wait...

What?

She is right, We have to married first...

But for that, we need to return to our world.

And if we can't... then we will never have the happy married life.

Accept this, because this is true, that we can't go there again and live alone always.

No way.

I was really wanted to live a happy married life with her... but f we can't return, that dream ends here.

I want to go there and live happy married life with her.

How about I use my powers to arrive there?

But I didn't know how to use it but I use them just a moment ago and they worked.

So I can't say I can't use them.

I guess I am just trying to think I can't do this... because maybe deep down I knew that I don't want to work hard. I was scared..." I whispered.

I closed my eyes, focused hard, and pictured a place in my mind.

In the next second... we are there.

"Wait...

Why this place looks familiar?

This place is like where I was torched right?

"We are here? Really? Did we make it back to our world? Did we are back to our world?" She asked.

"Huh?

This place is looking like the lab where I was torched but there is no lab?

If it is lab then why do I don't seen any of lab members here?

There is only ground.

I remembered now... I destroyed lab after getting powers.

So that means it was not looking like that instead it was the lab place in real?

Which means we finally arrived.

Wait...

Did that means my mother died once again because of me?" I whispered.

We finally arrived to our world" I whispered.

Just as I turned to tell her... she suddenly kissed me again on my lips... then stepped back off.

"Yes!

We are really arrived!

We are arrived to our world! I'm so happy" She said.

My face turned red with heat.

"Yes, I think too" I said

"Yes, we are back.

I am so happy... because I can now live a happy married life with you.

I mean I will wake you up in the morning...

I will always be beside you...

A-and I can... And then I can even do that thing with you too..." She said, her face burning red.

"Hey, let's make a promise," I said.

"A promise?" She asked.

"Yes, a Promise, a promise that we will never leave each other... and that we will live a happy married life for always even after we died" I said.

"Yes... of course we will, I promise you I will always be by your side for that time you said me to leave" She said.

"And just like that... we lived a happy married life.

We get married, had six kids and lived happily... until the time we died.

The End..."

Sounds like a perfect fairytale, right?

But it wasn't.

Our story is not fairytale, In reality we lived married life for only one year.

One year after we met, she become pregnant with our second child.

We already had our first baby... daughter named yuki.

When She was at the hospital for delivery, I was send home to take some documents for the operation.

I ran as fast as I could.

I was just a few steps from my front door...

But then, In instant... I was summoned.

Back to that place.

The same place where I had accidentally killed the gods and goddesses.

But this time... there were no gods.

No goddesses.

Only one person stood before me.

He wore a black, full-face mask on his face and a deep purple suit.

He stared at me in silence... then finally spoke.

was looking at me and then he something.

"Hey, you are finally here huh?" The masked man said.

Then I heard some familiar voice from my behind, and I turned slowly...

I saw two people, both kept swords in their hands.

At that moment, I was froze Because I saw those people who I was thinking I would never see again.

I couldn't belive it.

Those two people was none other than butler and his brother son.

Chapter 3 ended...

From author Banri Tada: Hey, guys actually Chapter 1 was having many mistakes and story skipped so it is now re edit by me.

Did you like it if the answer is yes then let me know your thoughts in comment, Chapter 4 will release next sunday.