The day I learn about new things

As far as I know, her mother is a good person.

She seems very fond of this little girl. She took care of her, taught her many things, cooked for her and sided by side with her. I think it is a normal relationship between a mother and her child. I didn't have many memories about my real mother when I was a child, I think because I was so small to know about anything, when I grew up a little and have awareness, I live with my nanny most of the time.

Suddenly, I hear the woman's voice, calling this body's name.

"Edna! Are you in your bedroom?"

"Yes, I'm in my room now". I reply her, I have to admit that I have a terrible feeling about this. I am using someone else's body, a 7 years old girl's body, and I don't know where is her soul now. It it because of me that make her soul vanished? Or she just died and my soul took this body? It's really eerie. Should I keep wondering about this topic, or I should let it go and just live a normal life like a little girl. Wait, how can I live like a little girl and feel no guiltly about it? It it a worst, I don't know how to deal with this thing.

Suddenly, I hear a door open. Her mother opened the door and look into the room. She said with a gentle voice.

"Time to bed honey, do you want to hear some story before you sleep?"

Searching in this body's memory to find more information about "the story" that she just mentioned, I want to reply her mother properly so she didn't suspect anything, but I just overreacted, how can a person think about a body could be taken by an other soul, that was nut.

I think her mother want to tell some fairy tales, but this body just have a vague memory of some story that her mother has told her. Well, can't blame her, she is just a kid. This little girl's clearest memories are mostly about food and some leaves that she like. What an innocent child.

"Yes mom, I would like to hear some story before bed." I reply her, hope she didn't feel I was overpolite or something like that.

"Yes dear, go to your bed. What do you want to hear? A story about 2 wolves and a calf or a story about The Goddess that blessed our world?"

"I think a second story would be better." Well, I DID want to hear about the story about this world.

"Once upon a time, the world was covered by a group of monsters, which people now call 'Binge'. True to their name, those monsters were greedy, craving for everything, but they were not wise enough to name their feelings. 

They were empty, they grabbed whatever they saw, plundered resources, exploited everything, causing other creatures in this place to suffer. 

But then 'Goddess', everyone called her by that title, even though they did not know her true nature. She had an omnipotent power, but no one knew the source of that power. But she was very fair, instead of destroying the 'Binge' on behalf of other creatures, she gave all other creatures 'blessings' so that they could use that power to protect themselves and their loved ones. Blessings are not only present in living creatures, but also cover the grass, trees, land, everything has blessings, and thanks to blessings, all things seem to be connected together. 

At that time, humans used their own blessings, and then borrowed from trees and leaves, from other living creatures, the purpose was to push the 'Binge' into darkness. From then on, the world has been peaceful until today."

Wow, so there is an evil side and a good side in this world or it's just the fairy tales for children? The story clearly defines the good and the bad sides, does that show a dualistic perspective? Well, but I don't have to think about this much, It's just a story. 

"That was the end of the story. Good night dear, make the Goddess always be with you."

'Make the Goddess always be with you?' It it something like 'make the force be with you' in Star Wars? 

"Make the Goddess always be with you too mom. Good night."

She smiles gently with me, she shuts the candle and leave.

Well, I'll have to make a research about this world. I can't just commit suicide like my previous life, it isn't my body after all. If I have to, I should try to live well in this body. After all, this child has a mother who loves her. If anything happens to this body, her mother will suffer. I really can't bear to make such a kind woman sad. Tired because of all things happen today, I fell asleep easily.

The morning come and I'm ready to start my new life. I have to stop wondering, stop feeling guitly and start living a decent live. 

I have to admit that this house is not really big like in her memory. Her father was a great magus and I think their family would live in a mansion or something like that. But turn out, they just live in a normal house and have a little garden. There are one kitchen, three bedrooms, one bathroom and one libary, they didn't have a dining room. I always thought that wealthy family would have a dining room because they didn't want to eat so close to the kitchen. 

I go to their libary and find some books about this world's history. Oh crap, this girl didn't have so much vocabulary in this world's language, at least she can read, but understanding the difficult passage is in another level, so I have to find a dictionary too. It was a long time since I last did a research, and this world is a whole different field that I can ever mention. Hope everything goes smoothly and I can find some useful information for my (her) future life.