Chapter 12:

Chapter 12

I Was Never Meant to be Your Saviour


The kingdom was tearing itself apart by the time we returned, its foundations crumbling under the weight of coordinated destruction.

I stood in the war room like a specter haunting the living, my clothes still drenched in the acrid smoke of collapsing tunnels and tasting of ancient magic gone wrong. Around me, advisors shouted over each other in a cacophony of desperation and fear, their voices rising and falling like waves against a crumbling shore.

"Riverhold must be prioritized!" General Corven's massive fist slammed into the oak table with enough force to make the ink wells jump. The sound echoed through the chamber like a war drum. "If it falls, half the kingdom's economy collapses with it! We'll have refugees streaming into the capital by the thousands!"

"And the leyline ruptures will spread like a plague if we focus only there," Varis snapped back, his usually composed face lined with exhaustion that aged him decades in the harsh lamplight. "You're trying to put out a house fire by saving the market square while the foundation burns beneath your feet!"

"The smaller towns will fall regardless," another noble sneered, his jeweled fingers drumming impatiently on the table. "We can't afford to lose Riverhold. It's the kingdom's beating heart."I listened in silence, feeling like an island of stillness in a storm of panic. Before me lay the glyph-maps sprawled across the table like the entrails of some great beast, each one telling a story of failing towns, fractured leylines, and evacuation requests flooding in faster than the runners could carry them. The parchment was marked with red ink that looked disturbingly like blood in the flickering candlelight.

This wasn't a debate about strategy or tactics. This was panic wearing the mask of leadership, and I could see through it as clearly as looking through glass.

They were all too focused on the fire blazing in front of them to notice the trap yawning beneath their feet, ready to swallow them whole.

The revelation hit me like a physical blow. The saboteurs weren't just attacking randomly. They were herding us, driving us toward a choice that would damn us no matter what we decided.Later, in the quieter chambers of the Archives where dust motes danced in shafts of lamplight, Varis and Liora watched with growing unease as I laid out the terrible truth I'd discovered."They left something behind," I said, spreading out the salvaged glyph schematics with hands that trembled slightly from exhaustion and revelation. "Pieces of their network survived the collapse. They wanted us to find it."

Varis's bushy brows rose like storm clouds gathering on his weathered face. "You're certain of this?"

"They wanted me to find it specifically," I corrected, tracing the intricate paths with my fingertip. The lines seemed to pulse under my touch, following the delicate weave between nodes like a spider's web designed to catch the unwary. "It's a partial relay, burned but still functional. They're still tethered to it, still pulling strings from the shadows."

"And you can use it against them?" Liora asked warily, her hand instinctively moving to rest on her sword hilt.

I nodded, feeling the weight of what I was about to propose settle on my shoulders like a mantle of lead. "If I act now, I can force a feedback loop through their remaining structure. Collapse their coordination network completely, cut off their ability to strike with such precision."

"But there's a cost." Varis's voice was sharp as a blade, and I could see in his ancient eyes that he already knew what I was going to say.

I gestured to the map spread before us, my finger hovering over the smaller settlements marked in fading ink.

"This would burn out the smaller leyline points. The weak towns, already destabilized by the attacks, they won't survive the strain. Their nexuses will shatter beyond any hope of repair."Silence fell over the chamber like a funeral shroud. The weight of unspoken implications pressed down on us, making the air feel thick and hard to breathe.

Liora's expression tightened, her jaw clenching as she processed what I was suggesting. "So you're proposing we sacrifice them. Condemn hundreds, maybe thousands of innocent people to save the rest."

"No," I said quietly, my voice barely above a whisper. "I'm proposing we stop them from destroying everything. If we don't act, they'll pick us apart piece by piece until nothing remains but rubble and regret."

The weight of the decision settled on the room like a physical presence. I could feel it pressing against my chest, making each breath a conscious effort.

Varis turned away, placing his hands behind his back as if refusing to meet the choice head-on. His shoulders sagged under the burden of too many years spent making impossible decisions.

Liora didn't flinch. She held my gaze, steady and unwavering, her eyes reflecting the same steel that had carried her through countless battles.

"Do you think you can live with it?" she asked, her voice soft but relentless.

I wanted to lie. The temptation was overwhelming, to tell her that I could bear this burden without it destroying me from the inside out. But I'd seen enough of this world to know that lies were just another form of poison, and I'd already been poisoned enough.

"No," I admitted, the word tasting like ash in my mouth. "But I'd rather carry the weight of this choice than let Riverhold fall and watch them strike again tomorrow with even greater force."Liora's jaw clenched so tight I could see the muscles jumping beneath her skin. For a moment, I thought she might argue, might try to find another way.

Then, to my surprise, she nodded with grim determination.

"I'll lead the evacuation teams," she said, already strapping her sword back into place with practiced efficiency. "If you're going to pull the trigger, I'll make sure as many as possible have a chance to survive."

I exhaled, feeling some of the tension bleed from my shoulders like water from a broken dam."Thank you."

"Don't thank me yet." She paused by the door, glancing back with something unreadable flickering in her eyes. "You're making a choice no one else would be willing to make. That doesn't automatically make it a good one."

Then she was gone, leaving only the whisper of her footsteps echoing in the corridor.The glyph chamber was suffocating in its intensity, the air thick with accumulated magic and the weight of what I was about to unleash.

I worked alone, save for Varis watching silently from the doorway like a guardian angel witnessing a necessary sin.

Every line, every stroke of the array had to be perfect. A single mistake could backfire and doom us all, turning salvation into annihilation. I rebuilt their collapsed network from memory, carefully and precisely, knowing that I was walking a tightrope suspended over an abyss of consequences.This wasn't magic like they taught in the courts or on the battlefields, all flash and fury and dramatic gestures. This was systems thinking applied to mystical forces. Circuits made of light and will. Pressure points in the fabric of reality, waiting to break under the right application of force.The runners came and went with updates that painted an increasingly desperate picture. Some towns had begun evacuations, their people streaming toward safer ground like refugees fleeing a coming storm. Others hadn't responded at all, either unable or unwilling to believe that salvation required such sacrifice.

I kept carving glyphs, my hands moving with mechanical precision while my mind wrestled with the implications of each stroke.

Varis's voice cut through the haze of concentration once, sharp and probing.

"You don't hesitate."

"I don't have time to," I replied without looking up from my work.

Finally, after what felt like hours but was probably only minutes, the last node was set. I stepped back, hands trembling faintly from exhaustion and the magnitude of what I'd created."It's ready."

Varis didn't speak. He simply nodded, his eyes heavy with something that looked disturbingly like pity.

I activated the circuit with a gesture that felt like signing a death warrant.

The magic surged through the network, not a violent explosion but a slow, unstoppable flood of power that raced along pathways invisible to most eyes. Lines of light stretched across the kingdom like veins of fire, tearing through the hidden network the saboteurs had built with the inexorable force of an avalanche.

The saboteurs' grip on the kingdom disintegrated in real time. I watched through the relay crystal as their coordination collapsed, their carefully laid plans crumbling like sand castles before the tide.

But the price was immediate and terrible.

I watched the relay crystal pulse as towns began to fail, each flicker another place collapsing under the weight of my decision. Each light that went out represented lives lost, dreams destroyed, futures that would never come to pass.

Southridge, with its proud mining families and children who would never grow up to inherit their fathers' trades.

Marn's Vale, where the fields would lie fallow and the granaries would stand empty.

Others I didn't even know by name, but whose sacrifice would haunt my dreams for years to come.But Riverhold held. Against all odds, through the chaos and destruction, I saw its nexus stabilize. The lines of power restored themselves one by one, like a patient recovering from a fever.The city was saved. The kingdom would survive.

When it ended, I was still standing upright in the chamber, but something inside me felt irreparably cracked. The victory tasted like defeat, and the salvation felt like damnation.Dawn came slowly, dragging pale light across a battered kingdom like a wounded animal crawling toward shelter.

I stood on the Archives' high terrace, watching smoke drift from the distant hills where towns had once stood. The morning air carried the scent of destruction on the wind, a reminder that would linger long after the physical evidence had been cleared away.

Liora returned at first light, bruised and dust-streaked but mercifully alive. Her armor bore the scars of desperate action, and her eyes held the weight of things seen that could never be unseen.Some towns had been evacuated in time, their people saved by her courage and quick thinking. Others hadn't been so fortunate, their fate sealed by distance and circumstance.

She didn't speak at first, just stood beside me in companionable silence, watching the same horizon that had swallowed so much in the space of a single night.

"They'll call you a monster for this," she said quietly, her voice carrying the weariness of someone who had seen too much.

"They already have," I replied, surprised by how little the prospect bothered me.

Varis arrived soon after with the inevitable reports, his face grave but not entirely without hope. Riverhold was stable, its people safe and its economy intact. The kingdom remained whole, for now.

But the backlash was immediate and vicious. The nobles from the damaged regions were furious, their voices raised in condemnation that echoed through the halls of power. The Mage Council remained silent, too silent, their lack of response more ominous than any words could have been.And somewhere beyond the borders of maps and glyphs, the saboteurs were likely watching and waiting, planning their next move in a game that had only just begun.

"You won't be able to stay in the shadows after this," Varis warned, his ancient eyes reflecting decades of political maneuvering.

"I'm not trying to," I replied with a conviction that surprised even me.

Liora gave me a long, unreadable look that seemed to peer directly into my soul.

"You chose to bear it alone," she said.

I met her gaze without flinching.

"Would you have done any differently?"

Her answer was simple and devastating in its honesty.

"No."

That night, I returned to the private chamber where I'd left the saboteurs' message, that cryptic artifact that had started this chain of revelations.

It sat there on the table, quiet and inert, as if mocking me with its silence.I replayed the words again, letting them burn deeper into my memory this time, searching for clues I might have missed.

We've been watching you for a long, long time.

I thought about the towns I'd lost today, their lights extinguished by my own hand. The people I'd saved, living now because others had died. The ones I hadn't been able to reach in time, their fate sealed by the cruel mathematics of necessity.

And for the first time, I realized something that chilled me to the bone.

They hadn't just been watching me here, in this magical kingdom with its leylines and nexuses and ancient power. They'd known me before, in that other life that felt increasingly like a dream.

Before I ever crossed into this world of magic and wonder.

Before I ever picked up a spell or solved a glyph puzzle.

They knew me back when I was still Riku Aoyama, sitting alone in my Tokyo apartment, obsessed with puzzles no one else could solve. They'd been watching me struggle with isolation and intellectual arrogance, watching me push away human connection in favor of abstract challenges.This wasn't a war I had stumbled into by accident. This was something that had started long before I arrived, a plan that stretched across dimensions and realities.

I looked out the window, where the night stretched beyond the walls of the city like an ocean of possibilities and threats.

And I knew the truth at last.

They'd summoned me as a weapon, carefully chosen and precisely placed. But I wasn't going to be the weapon they expected.

I wouldn't let them control me, no matter how long they'd been planning this moment.

The game was far from over.

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