Sash of sapphire and red stars."LOVE AND HATE PART 1".

LI-JUN.

 Year 1399,Joseon era.

"Where oh where oh where oh where?"
I ask to the air,running amok in the field and trying to desperately find my goal.It is tiresome to hunt when there is nothing out here.I tell her so and she refuses ordering me"Out,out.We need more rabbit,more herbs..."
It is on the west side of the hill but she would hear nothing of that,bloody mad woman but she is beautiful and my mind doesn't seem to mind her mania if she is before me and giving me little feather like kisses bading me off.

Now I am by myself in an empty hillside with nothing but a small bag of herbs to show for being gone an hour.
I resolve to return home,tired and really thinking on having our very first fight.
Though as children she hunted me down like a boar if I so much as yelled at her but I enjoyed her ferocious side so I vexed her to death,marriage whichever wording suits my mood at the moment.

The hut is covered in little field flowers,I can smell...."Chicken??"I haven't smelled or eaten such since she stole one when we were children.
I let my feet just wonder i around,wondering if she may have been possessed by something and ponder if fleeing may be the better option than staying here,but I catch sight of her through the window and she does not thankfully see me or should would likely bury me before kissing me seeing this.

She is wearing a new robe,it looks like she redid an old one of her mothers and used the present I bought her for her birthday to make it,a fine red thread and fabric of some dark blue and stars she liked but we couldn't afford.
Still can't ,but I made a way anyway for it.

She tends to stirring that said chicken in something and seems to be softly singing,my lips follow along and spend longer than I ought and not caring a bit just watching her there.

"Sing to me love,
Sing to me again.
If you should leave me,
No wise be forgiven.
Sing to me love,
Sing to me again.
For if I should leave you,
Dead I will be again.
I lived not,
Not while I never knew,
You were in the world,
I only live when you do too.
Sing to me love,
Sing to me again.
I pray you never leave me,
I will breathe my best.
If you ever pass on,
That breath will be my last."

My heart simply beats on and faster,I knew if she could only say it aloud she felt it but I wish this would occur in my arms,her to sing it in my ears.
I probably could not bear it long and would kiss her lips shut before a lyric could escape her lips.

My feet find purpose,I sneak in by the back window of our home,quietly put down my few findings and stand behind her having difficulty keeping my arms behind my back as she starts the song over again,my eyes rove slowly on the form of my new wife,Li-Jo and enjoy her softness and the way she sings about my certain someone,I often thought as children the song was something she wrote for her parents or as a way to earn money for her voice is better than if honey that had been received by the kings very own kitchens.

But although knowing each other since we were four and married now at sixteen,living quietly by the hills since our families left us this home as a gift.

I had never heard her sing this song except when at home and when I am not in sight so I have to be clever to even hear it.

Now I must have my fun,I put my arms slowly around her and tighten enough that I hear and feel the sudden gasp of surprise and put my lips close to her ears and begin singing those very lyrics to her but slower adding a kiss for each time I say "love",adding a gentle tightening of my arms after "breath",adding a nudge of my nose to her cheeks for everytime I say" leave"

She enjoys every second of it judging by how hard she tries to fight off a smile,or softly and weakly she tries to push me away as she cooks(I know for a fact she is strong as an ox when angered.)

I can't fathom a life without her.