Chapter 25:

Enemies - Arc 3

Lucid Memories:The Observer's Servant Eyes「明晰思い出:観察者の従者眼」


I was anxious, only that.

After running home together, I never told her who I saw, even as the next day came, even as night came again, we never returned, and I never told her anything about them, I was anxious, I don't want her to worry, I want to do this myself, to not worry her about anything.

After her going to sleep, I silently left to go to the village and see what was going on, if they had left after killing them, or stayed, and I saw them, much worse than what had happened the first time we saw them.

Another bloodbath, blood all over the ground, the crosses was still there, and so was the people, but they were on fire, burning, I could see their skin turn into ash as the fire slowly killed them, screaming in agony, I could feel their pain, I kept remembering the people from before, they never changed, they never did.

And then I saw him again, I looked at him straight at the eye with anger, but when he looked at me, I could tell that he wanted to kill me, it was the most frightening thing I ever experienced, he looked at me straight at the eye, it felt like death was near, then he left like it was nothing, I was scared, I only thought about her to feel ok, but I never felt ok, I was scared at him, I was angry yet scared, it felt like I couldn't do anything even if I wanted to, all I could do was run, and so I did.

As I got home, I looked at her crying, I wanted to hug her yet I didn't want to woke her up, all I wanted to do is live peacefully with her, yet all I did was be afraid and cry, I didn't know what to do right, I lived with fear, pretending to be brave, yet I wasn't, looking behind to see if thet would come, I was afraid yet I just stood there, waiting, until the morning came, with her asking me where I was when she woke up, all I could say was goodmorning as I finally hugged her, wanting to do it since last night. 
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