Reaper - Arc 3 End

I was better off gone, I was better off dead. 

I woke up, tied up into a chair, all I could see was the person in front of me, the doctor never left, he stayed, they stayed, for me. 

I looked around, I was better off dead, my energy wasn't enough for me to cry, but all I could do was ask the doctor desperately "was killing her not enough?", with the doctor looking at me straight at the eye, with no emotion, he replied. 

"We never killed her right away, she was alive, but you never got a chance to see her, but even so, could you even accept her at that situation? even you never had a chance to do it, but we had the chance to do so, and so we did, even before she died, and after she died, the one you loved was a sinner, a slut, a whore, but sadly you never had a chance to continue, even as we saw you propose to her, even as she accepted your proposal, it only made us want her more, you only made us want her more."
I replied "what did you do to her? what the fuck did you do to her?", with the doctor replying once more "we only cleansed her, we only cleansed her sinful soul, that's what we did, did she refuse us? no, did she do anything to stop us? no, she accepted us, even after her death, even at this current time, she is accepting us, not doing anything for us to stop, all she told us was to not hurt you and she would do anything we want with her."

As the doctor laughed, all I could do was scream and cry, as I wasn't able to do anything, the doctor then said "no hard feelings, but we're doing this all for the love of our God, He gave us the gift of living, and so we are thankful, in exchange, we must give Him the sacrifices to live longer and happier, and I can tell you, we are happy, your lover was only a small price to live in this utopia our God created, accept Him, and join us, and so you will feel the same way as we do, you get to do this with others, everyday, for the rest of your life, but even so, you were supposed to die a long time ago, right? along with her and her parents, along with her and your parents, the both of you was supposed to die already, but the two of you left, and so we had to make adjustments, villages just for the lives of two children, how do feel about that? knowing that in order for the two of you to live, more had to die in your places, how does that make you feel?"

The doctor never forgot, and so did me, hearing all of that, I never said anything, and before I could even say anything, the doctor spoke "but even so I feel sorry for you.", and so the doctor gave me the head of her and told me "do whatever you want with her head, this is your only chance to do it with her." as he laughed and left the tent, with him ordering others to remove me from the chair, but locking the tent so that I could never escape. 

He left me with only the body of my dead lover, with torn down clothes, a headless body, and dried blood on the floor, they used her before and after she died, all I could imagine was her screams, I cried and cried, but in the end, I knew that I was going to die, as after everything went by, he burned us, right after my last words.

"I never did anything in my life, my parents died because of me, your parents died because of me, and you had to die because of me, I should've just died back when I was I child, if not knowing you was a price for you to live, to live a happy life, I would gladly give it all for you, you never did anything bad, yet they did this to you, why did you have to suffer? why did I go back? why did I look at him at the eye? we were already living a peaceful life yet I looked at him, and now here we are, will you ever forgive me? when I die will I see you there in heaven? or will I rot in hell for everything that has happened because of me? I don't now, even now I don't know anything, why did I have to be born? why? why? why? I couldn't even tell you that I love you before you died, you had to go through hell, because of me, because of me, you're all dead because me, if only I wasn't born, maybe everyone would be happy."

And so I died.