Chapter 19:

Mistakes - Part 3

Skipped a Beat

(Months later)Bookmark here

25th December, Sachi told me some days ago that her dad told her that they are leaving early. And I told her to tell it to everyone… She didn’t care for everyone, she got so close to me that she shared this with me. last time she didn’t. but this time it’s different. Bookmark here

Today we decided that we will hangout the last time… kind of goodbye today. I’m on my way to school, we decided to meet there. Then if we want to go somewhere, we will. Bookmark here

Honestly, I don’t want to meet her knowing that it is the last time I will… but for her I have to…Bookmark here

Oh, they are all here before me…Bookmark here

“What took you so long” (Hina)Bookmark here

“I’m on time, you guys are just early”Bookmark here

“Yeah…”Bookmark here

“Where do you want to go Sachi?” (Takahashi)Bookmark here

“Inside…”Bookmark here

“The school?”Bookmark here

“Yeah… I want to spend the last time with you guys in the classroom… where we met”Bookmark here

“I see… then let’s go” (Takahashi)Bookmark here

(Some hours later, at home)Bookmark here

What did I even expect? Everyone just sat there, quiet, and awkward… then we went out. Walked around the school for some time then went outside and sat in the park… Bookmark here

We’ll just see her off at the station on 28th… last time I’ll ever talk to her…Bookmark here

(28th December)Bookmark here

It's 08: 23 right now, we are all standing on a train station. Sachi will leave in about 7 minutes. Her dad took the plane, she'll go by train… last meeting and I can't do anything but stare at her face… Bookmark here

"Why isn't anyone saying anything? She is about to go away you know..." (Hina)Bookmark here

"What can we even say, take care?" (Takahashi)Bookmark here

"It's okay, I understand why everyone is so quiet." (Sachi)Bookmark here

"All we could say is how we enjoyed our time with you" (Aoi)Bookmark here

"Glad we were able to meet you" (Hina)Bookmark here

"Sorry I couldn't think of any way to save you." (Eiji)Bookmark here

"Don't worry about that, if a person's time has come, they will die. Death is inevitable. I wasn't even expecting you guys to come up with something." (Sachi)Bookmark here

Takahashi: she’s a lot relaxed than the first time I was at the end of second year.Bookmark here

"Yeah…" (Takahashi) Bookmark here

"Yeah, so don't get too sad over that I’m going away. Just be happy that you were able to spend time with me"Bookmark here

"I'll try" (Takahashi)Bookmark here

"Good" (Sachi)Bookmark here

"..." Bookmark here

"Are you sure you packed everything?" (Eiji) Bookmark here

"Haha, my suitcase could be empty right now, it doesn't even matter."Bookmark here

"Yeah..."Bookmark here

"08: 29..." (Takahashi)Bookmark here

"Train is here..." (Aoi)Bookmark here

"I'll be going then" (Sachi) Bookmark here

"Goodbye..." (Aoi, Hina and Eiji)Bookmark here

"Takahashi..." (Sachi)Bookmark here

"..."Bookmark here

"(Sachi hugs Takahashi) take care then… I'll go now..."Bookmark here

"……. I will" (Takahashi)Bookmark here

Takahashi: I didn't want to let go… but that would have been childish, and I decided that I'll try my best to get over her… I hope I can do it this time. Because I probably won't restart, so I won't get another chance.Bookmark here

(Later that day at night)Bookmark here

She got onto the train and left… and after some hours, we saw the news of the trains colliding. Seeing her die the second time hurt less actually, because I was expecting it to happen… and I know I couldn't have done anything. But that's that then. Now I have to complete my second year, focus on my studies more. I haven't been through third year yet, so I will have to study for it, unlike first and second. Bookmark here

(Months later)Bookmark here

Just like every time, I'll go to sleep and hoping to wake up for the next year, but instead end up somewhere else. But this time I think I should wake up normally.
I have been feeling a lot better about Sachi now. Though I know that I'll be separated from my friends, I'm fine with that.
It's 22: 56 right now, and I'm going to sleep.Bookmark here

(Goes to sleep)Bookmark here

*Phone buzzing
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Takahashi: … My alarm! Bookmark here

What year is it? It has now become a habit, every time I wake up for the new year, I check what year it is
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This scene… shit…Bookmark here

I know it’s 2018, I remember it well. So, I’m back… again… WHY? I didn’t kill myself this time, what the hell happened? I was fine the last time; I don’t think I hit my head that I could have died of internal bleeding or something… Bookmark here

Another chance? No, this is torture… making me go through Sachi’s death multiple times… WHO THE FUCK IS DOING THIS (Punches the wall on his left side). Fuck that hurt… I’m done… I’m tired of trying to save Sachi. I’m just going to stay here in Tokyo and complete my high school… but I still don’t know why I restarted. Is it because I couldn’t save Sachi? If it is because of that… then… what can I even do? I know she can’t be saved… Bookmark here

I can’t be sure if it’s because of that or something else. For now, I’ll just stay in Tokyo, I’m not going to Kyoto to meet her and tell her about her death. Bookmark here

I didn’t check what year it is from my phone, though I have a 2018 calendar on my table.
Yeah, it is 2018. It’s 07: 44 right now. I should just go to school.Bookmark here

08: 08, I’ll walk to school today. Since I’m not in a hurry.
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08: 24, I don’t even need to check my name in the list, I know it’s 1 – A. I’m sitting in my classroom. Only Eiji is here. Aoi comes around 08: 30.Bookmark here

Yeah, 08: 30 and Aoi just entered the classroom. I’m not going to talk to them this time. Let’s just see what happens. If I become friends with them or not. Though, being with them reminds me of Sachi… Hina enters the classroom after around 3 4 minutes of Aoi. This is my third time I am going through my first year. Bookmark here

(A year later)Bookmark here

So, tomorrow is 1st April 2019, Monday. Right now, Aoi, Hina and Eiji are my friends. Became friends around the exams of first term exams, just like last time. Because I’m a smart student. Bookmark here

And since I know what questions will appear in the exams, I wasn’t studying much. And they found it really weird that I didn’t study and still got the highest marks in exams. Well, I won’t tell anyone what I have been through, I’m just going to spend my time like a normal high school student. And see if I restart at the end of second year or not. Bookmark here

Also, Aoi didn’t confess this time… Maybe because I went to Kyoto with her, something happens there that she starts liking me? I don’t know. And I don’t care much. I never had feelings for her, she’s just a friend for me. Bookmark here

23: 22, I’m lying on my bed, thinking if I should try to stay awake to see what happens. But I think I restart at the end of second year, never first. So, I should just go to sleep. Will try this next year. Bookmark here

Oh, that’s why my phone was dead at that time, it’s on 2% right now. I should charge it a little before going to sleep. So that mom doesn’t have to come up and wake me up.Bookmark here

00: 07, I left my phone to charge and accidently went to sleep… and it’s still 2019, I didn’t restart. So, I guess it’s fine. I will wake up for second year tomorrow. My phones 77% right now. I should just go to sleep else I’ll be sleepy the whole day tomorrow. Bookmark here

(Goes to sleep)Bookmark here

*Phone buzzingBookmark here

Takahashi: my alarm… what time is it? Oh yeah, I don’t need to check. I know that I didn’t restart. And I have a 2019 calendar on my table. So, it is 2019.Bookmark here

It’s 07: 33, and this year, Sachi comes… what will she be like? Without knowing that she’ll die at the end of this year, what will be she like? I’m kind of happy that I didn’t tell her that. Now she’ll be living a normal life without the stress of knowing one’s own death.Bookmark here

Wait, she won’t come today, but tomorrow. I never asked why she doesn’t come on the first day.Bookmark here

(Next day)Bookmark here

08: 20, I’m in my class right now, Eiji is here. Hina is late as usual, and Sachi and Aoi aren’t here yet. Bookmark here

“Good morning Eiji”Bookmark here

“Good morning”Bookmark here

“Hina is late as usual”Bookmark here

“Yeah”Bookmark here

Takahashi: Sachi is here…Bookmark here

“… Takahashi?” (Sachi)Bookmark here

“Sachi…” (Takahashi)Bookmark here

“Wait, you know me?”Bookmark here

“Same middle school…”Bookmark here

“Yeah…”Bookmark here

“Yeah…”Bookmark here

Takahashi: this is awkward…Bookmark here

“Oh, you guys know each other?” (Eiji)Bookmark here

“Yeah, he was popular in middle school, so everyone knew about him.” (Sachi)Bookmark here

“Because of his grades?”Bookmark here

“Yeah…”Bookmark here

Sachi: Can’t say his looks… don’t want to show I was ever interested… though this is a really big coincidence, and a great chance…Bookmark here

“You both friends?” (Eiji)Bookmark here

“NO… we have never talked before” (Takahashi)Bookmark here

Takahashi: it is a lie though… not a lie but a secretBookmark here

“I see…”Bookmark here

“Good morning Eiji, Takahashi” (Aoi)Bookmark here

“Good morning Aoi”Bookmark here

“Hina isn’t here yet?”Bookmark here

“Yeah, it’s 08: 27 right now, no way she’ll even come before 30”Bookmark here

“Haha, yeah” (Aoi)Bookmark here

Sachi sat a seat behind me, just like last time. But she didn’t talk much. I don’t know if I’ll become friends with her or not… maybe I should talk if she can’t… she did say last time that she had liked me since middle school. So, there’s a chance that she won’t mind if I try to be friends with her. I should ask her to eat lunch together. Maybe we can become close from there. Bookmark here

Wait… why am I even trying to be friends with her? I’m just going to repeat the same mistake again. I should try to stay away this time. So that it won’t hurt when she goes awayBookmark here

(Days later)Bookmark here

Or so I thought… but I didn’t think of this. Sachi became friends with Aoi and Hina… so she’s always hanging out with us… I thought I might be able to stay away but now I can’t… whatever. I’ll just try to be friends with her. the park and everything won’t happen so… I’m sure I won’t catch feelings for her this time… though I still like her…Bookmark here

(27th December)Bookmark here

Nothing changed… everything went exactly the same… she confessed, and I couldn't reject her… Bookmark here

Today is the last day I'll see her. But no one knows that it's her last day except me...
It's 08: 25 right now, we are all at the airport.Bookmark here

"How long will it take to reach Kyoto?" (Aoi)Bookmark here

"I don't know, probably around 1 to 2 hours" (Sachi)Bookmark here

"Message us when you Get there" (Hina)Bookmark here

"I will" (Sachi)Bookmark here

"Takahashi, you alright?" (Sachi)Bookmark here

Takahashi: Should I tell her or not… What am I even thinking? This is way better than Last time we were waiting at the station. They'll find out from the news. Like a normal person does… I shouldn't say anythingBookmark here

"Yeah… I'm fine"Bookmark here

"Are you really?"Bookmark here

"I… I'll miss you"Bookmark here

Takahashi: forever…Bookmark here

"Really? Are you sad just because of that?"Bookmark here

“Yeah...”Bookmark here

“We can talk on phone, and it’s probably just for 3 or 4 months, I’ll ask my dad to let me stay in Tokyo for third year”Bookmark here

“I know but...”Bookmark here

“But?”Bookmark here

“Nothing, I can wait. it will be fine”Bookmark here

“Yeah, it will be. and don’t get too attached to me silly, what if something happens to me? you’ll break, and I don’t want that to happen”Bookmark here

Takahashi: something IS going to happen… how can I tell her… how? just let go… not everyone you meet is meant to stay with you forever…Bookmark here

“Don’t worry, I’ll be fine”Bookmark here

“Good. I’ll be going, or I’m going to be late for the flight”Bookmark here

“I know...” Bookmark here

“Take care guys, will meet you in about 4 months” (Sachi)Bookmark here

“You too, Take care” (Aoi)Bookmark here

“Call me when you get there” (Hina)Bookmark here

“I will” (Sachi)Bookmark here

“...Bye” (Takahashi)Bookmark here

“(Sachi hugs Takahashi) just call me when you miss me ok?”Bookmark here

“Ok… I will” (Takahashi)
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Takahashi: Tell me how to call a dead person…Bookmark here

(Later that day, at night)Bookmark here

Nothing… Exactly the same as first time, the news and everything, just their reaction was sadder than before… I don’t even want to think about it…Bookmark here

(Months later)Bookmark here

I couldn’t understand the reason behind why I restarted so I’m sure this time too, I’ll go back to first year. Tomorrow is 1st April, Wednesday… for Eiji, Hina and Aoi. For me it’s probably, 2nd April 2018, Monday.Bookmark here

It’s 21: 58, I’m going to sleep… or not. what if I try staying awake, what happens then? I don’t know but I should check, what if I can escape this loop. Bookmark here

(10 hours later)Bookmark here

I have been using my phone since, on full brightness and listening to rock music on full volume so that I don’t go to sleep, and I am sure I haven’t dozed or anything because it’s still 1st April 2020.Bookmark here

It’s 07: 50 right now. I’m going to get ready and go to school.Bookmark here

08: 05, I’m on my way to school on foot, I have been consistently checking the year on my phone. It’s still 2020. Since I don’t know why and how that restart occurs. I’m checking incase I’m going, and the year suddenly changes. Of course, if that happens, my surroundings will change too. But it’s making me anxious… what if I sleep now? Will I go back? Does it only happen if I go to sleep? Just night before first day of new year or could be any night after the new year starts? I can’t be sure, but I will find out today for sure.Bookmark here

08: 25, I just remembered that I was in different class than my friend’s last time. Let’s see what happens now. I can see Eiji and Hina standing there.
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“What happened? Which class am I in?”Bookmark here

“Takahashi, you are in…Bookmark here

Takahashi: 3 – CBookmark here

3 – C” (Eiji)Bookmark here

“Oh… You guys?” (Takahashi)Bookmark here

“Me and Hina are in 3 - E”Bookmark here

Takahashi: good for Hina, since she liked Eiji…Bookmark here

“And Aoi”Bookmark here

“Aoi is also in 3 - C”Bookmark here

Takahashi: oh, she’s the same class as me. That’s nice, I’m not completely alone… Ahh, my head is starting to hurt a littleBookmark here

“Oh, that’s nice”Bookmark here

“Yeah, we’ll see each other in recess then”Bookmark here

“Yeah”Bookmark here

Aoi isn’t here, maybe she’s already in classBookmark here

Yeah, she’s sitting thereBookmark here

“Good morning Aoi” (Takahashi)Bookmark here

“Oh, Takahashi, you came. Good morning”Bookmark here

“We are in the same… class as last time”Bookmark here

“Yeah… Takahashi, are you ok?”Bookmark here

“Yeah, I’m fine”Bookmark here

“You don’t look good”Bookmark here

“I just didn’t sleep much last night; I’ll be fine after I sleep”Bookmark here

Takahashi: I don’t know if I’ll even be here… I hope I do, I’m tired of repeating these years.Bookmark here

“Why didn’t you sleep? What were you doing last night”?Bookmark here

“Nothing, just watching anime”Bookmark here

“Seriously? Act a little your age at least…”Bookmark here

“Haha, don’t worry… I’ll be fine”Bookmark here

“Okay… don’t do this ever again though”Bookmark here

"I know, I wo..."Bookmark here

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