Midterms

Today is my first midterms exam. Not gonna lie, I'm a little scared. Not because I'll fail the exam, but because she will kill me if I fail.

"Bye Idiot, I'm going ahead!" Sara shouted from the hallway. Her voice echoed through our apartment. 

I guess I should also head to school. My bag felt heavier than usual, not because of books , but because of her expectations 

In school.

"Aoto! Have you studied anything?" Ikkun asked.

Well, I studied many things with Sara last night, but as a best friend of Ikkun, I'll tell him that I didn't even touch the books.

"No, I didn't even touch the books," I said to Ikkun, trying to sound as tired as him

"Me too bro, I was busy maintaining my rank in the game," Ikkun said, yawning loudly. "That new boss is impossible."

After a few minutes, the teacher arrived at the classroom and started handing out our exam papers. The whole class went silent. Only the sound of papers rustling.

At the moment I looked at the question paper, my scared face was gone.

All the questions were exactly the same that Sara taught me yesterday night. The sams formulas , the same tricky questions she forced me to write two times

I was so glad and completed all my questions on time. I even had ten minutes left to check again. For the first time , I felt confident leave an exam hall.

After exam.

Ikkun came toward me and asked, "You really didn't touch the books? You finished so fast!"

I said, "Of course, you know I always stay between top 30 and you always stay over top 20. Finishing doesn't mean scoring high."

"Yeah, I know, still you were smiling while looking at the question papers, so I thought you might know everything," Ikkun said.

I said, "I wasn't smiling, I was laughing at myself cause I didn't know anything about the exam. Turns out i knew a little"

"Okay bro, I hope you score well in exam," Ikkun said, patting my shoulder.

Then I started heading home. The air was cool, and i was thinking about what sara would cook.

"Hey Aoto! Wait for me," Sara shouted from behind.

I froze and started thinking, "Why is she shouting my name? We are still on the way, anyone from school could see us."

I looked at her and said, "Can you please don't shout my name in the middle of the road."

She came to me , slightly out of breath, and held my hands. Her hand was surprisingly warm. She said, "But why? If I didn't shout you might not have stopped for me."

"Yeah but what if someone sees you shouting my name," I said, looking around nervously. 

She said, "Don't worry, there are very few people who follow this route which connects our home and school. No one from school comes this way."

I looked down at my hand and said, "Why are you still holding my hand?"

She said, "Because I don't want you to run from me."

"Why would I run from you," I said.

"Maybe because I am scary, that's why," she said.

"Yeah, you are a little bit scary!" I said.

Squeeze!

Ahhhhhhhhhhh!

"Hey stop! It's hurting too much!"

She squeezed my hand so hard, her nails digging into my skin. Her face was red.

She said, "I am scary?!"

"I am the girl every guy wants to date, idiot! And you called me scary!"

I said, "I am......What!!?"

She said, "What? You think I'm joking?"

"You know that every guy in the school wants to date you?" I said.

She said, "Of course I do," while smiling proudly.

"Means you also know how beautiful you are," I said.

She said, "Of course I know that too."

"Then why you got angry when I said you are little scary," I said.

"I don't mind if someone else calls me scary or anything," she said, her voice getting quiter,"But I really feel bad when you said I am scary."

"Do I look scary to you," she said while making a very sad face.

I said, "Hey, I didn't mean that. You are not scary at all, I was just joking!"

"I am genuinely sorry about that!"

"You can also call me bad things as a revenge because you treat people the way they treat others, right?"

I saw her smiling and she said, "You pervert, idiot, dumb, scumbag, nerd, moron, creep and jerk!! "verything that is bad is just made for you, dummy!"

After hearing all the things I started feeling bad and said, "You forgot to add ugly and useless."

"I didn't forget anything, all the things I said is description of yours."

I again started feeling bad and said, "I am really sorry for that," with a very low voice.

She said, "Do you feel bad?"

I said, "Nope, everything is good and didn't I tell you I don't mind anyone's words," while smiling weakly.

She held my hand again, softer this time, and said, "Let's head to home then, dummy."

We went home and she asked me, "Tell me what you want to eat today?"

I said, "I'll eat anything you make."

She again asked, "Tell me what you want to eat, idiot? Don't be so vague."

I said, "Make anything, I'll eat."

She sat next to me and said, "I won't make anything until you tell me what you want to eat."

I said, "Okay, do whatever you want, chef sara."

She came closer toward me, even our elbows were touching each other. I could feel her warmth.

I moved a little away from her, my heart beating fast.

She again came closer toward me and again our elbows were in touch. She was doing it on purpose.

I again moved a little away from her and reached the ending of the sofa. There was no more space.

She again came closer to me and this time she placed her head on my shoulder. hairs brushed against my neck.

I started feeling nervous. My inside soul started crying due to nervousness. My whole body was shaking at that time. I didn't dare to move.

And she asked with a very sweet voice, "Aoto, do you have any crush?"

I said, "Yeah I have many."

She asked, "How many?"

I said, "I never counted my crush list but maybe over 100."

Then she asked, "Am I in your crush list?"

I froze. My brain stopped working. I couldn't breathe. 

I said with a very low voice, "I don't know, my list is too long so..."

She stood up and said, "If you ever get a girlfriend make sure to tell me first."

I said, "Why?"

She said, "So I can tell your mom about it."

I said, "First thing that no girl gonna choose me."

"Second thing, I am also not gonna choose anyone."

"Until it's you," I said this in my mind.

"And third thing is my mom would never believe that her son made a girlfriend."

She smiled and said, "Your first is very wrong."

I said, "How."

She said, "I'll prove your first thing wrong in future, idiot."

And she went to make our lunch.

Well, I really didn't understand what she meant but I love her so much.

I used to think that no girl would make me fall for her but she really proved me wrong.

I should start making my heart tough because I know she will never gonna be mine.

I also know how our relation gonna end.

AND NOW, THE GIRL I LIVE WITH IS MY SECRET CRUSH