Despite it being the afternoon, I fell asleep soon after… I just woke up, and I am currently laying on my bed…
I think my nap also served as some time to think and reflect on these recent events…
It’s so… surreal. That was very unlike Ren, but I can’t complain. His face showed desperation, and he was crying…
I think I know why I resonated so much with his hug — it was very reminiscent of my own hug. I want to forget my childhood, but that was the only detail I clearly remember. It was when I was foolish — it was when I thought I had an adult I could trust. I remember clinging to them the same way Ren did to me. So desperate and resilient… I wanted them to stay so much when I knew their leaving would be inevitable…
To spill so many emotions… I think I can finally rest. I truly believe that I’ve evolved — this is a new chapter in my life — another book is the series — another long-awaited season in that show… I really can’t help but feel overjoyed.
I slowly got up from my bed and walked through the door.
It was time for me to confront Ren once again… Yeesh, this is going to be awkward…
I walked through the hallway and into the main room. And there he was — Ren Morales. He was sitting at the dining table, wearing the same loungewear he was wearing a moment ago. He was tapping at his laptop — actually, this reminds me of my very first morning here.
“Oh? Good afternoon, Camryn.”
“Yes! Good morning to you too, Ren!”
I was more cheerful. I was a bit louder, my voice sounded peppier, and my smile was wider — not to mention genuine.
And Ren… Well, he sounds as monotone as ever, and his dead fisheyes look the same. Except, he sounded slightly different… Like, his voice was less stern, and his face was more relaxed… I feel extremely comfortable with how he is now — his expressionlessness adds to his charms.
I was just standing there, doing nothing and widely smiling at him… Oh wait, I’m just standing here, doing nothing and widely smiling at him! Oh, that’s probably creepy.
“Um… S-So Camryn, did you sleep well?”
“Huh? Oh, y-yeah…”
Shoot, it’s awkward!
Ren got up and walked towards his refrigerator
“O-Okay… So, would you like lunch? I just ordered a pizza…”
It’s not Alente pizza, but pizza’s pizza and most pizza is good!
But as he got the box from the fridge, something came into my mind.
I remember… It was last night… No, wait, it was actually just a few hours ago — I guess I think it was last night because I slept. But I saw… something. Something I could never get enough of. Something I became obsessed with… I think it was my first time seeing it, but I’ve been captivated by it.
Ren placed the box with the small-sized pizza on the table.
“Okay… After, I planned to-”
Hm… I gently placed my fingers on the corners of Ren’s lips. I then gently raised them…
“I knew it…”
I smiled laughingly.
“Ren, did you know that you look so handsome when you smile!?”
I slowly moved my fingers away, and he assumed his resting face. But his resting face doesn’t really make him look angry anymore, more so slightly bewildered — though I suppose that’s better.
I put my hands behind my back and leaned forward.
“Ren, please smile widely. Like the one you did earlier…”
He put his hand behind his neck and turned his head — and he released a small smile. His embarrassed smile is cute, but not what I’m looking for!
“Please? Just smile.”
“Huh? You’ll be disappointed because this one’s not a real smile.”
“True… But real or fake, you still look really cute!”
His smile changed to a joking and frivolous one.
“Hm… I don’t know… Since you’re asking, it kinda makes me not want to…”
“Oh, c’mon, Ren… That’s mean…”
This little moment… This moment where Ren’s sneakily smiling and I’m happily laughing along… It’s a good feeling! We’re so frivolous, and we have nothing to worry about. It’s so different, but it’s so great!
After a while of our playfulness, Ren turned to me.
“But really, you should eat. After, we should go to Beattie’s Heart.”
My smile slightly dimmed and I looked at Ren in question.
“Hm? Beattie’s Heart? Why?”
He embarrassedly looked away again.
“Um… We should buy some stuff for you…”
I could tell that he was getting a bit more serious.
“Um… Sorry… Now, I’m going to seriously start looking after you… I think we should buy you some things…”
“See, that guest bedroom is now your room. But it’s dull, so I think we should really buy you some things to decorate it…”
I can’t help but smile widely again… That room is now mine. A place where I can store my things… A place that’s private to everyone else… I’ve never had a place like that!
I smiled widely at Ren and nodded.
“Yes! I’d love to!”
He returned my nod.