A Melody Full of Love

I don't have an identity. I'm a person that exists for the sole reason of fulfilling a space. People recognize "Melody, the magic-less half-vampire", thus, I have a duty to fulfill and exist as this person. In my head, I imagine that I have a perfect life and that I'm a pureblood vampire with extraordinary powers. I go through amazing adventures with my imaginary friends and wife. We have a band and tour around the world. Melody in this world is loved by everybody. She's famous and inspiring. I have published several video games and I get constantly interviewed on the internet. Everybody loves Melody because she's unique and everybody wants to be like her. "I want to be a video game developer like Melody!" says a little girl.

The Melody I was chosen to act has problems retaining information, thus has never done anything in her life. She studied and is jobless. Melody, the half vampire has been a shut-in NEET for 2 years. Her sister maintains her out of pity and constantly has tantrums. I wonder who sent me. Is this a movie? A book? A video game? I believe there's people up there watching this psychological series, anime or whatever. Am I an actor? Am I so involved in this character that I can't get out?

In my memories, I remember meeting this woman to whom I made a promise. "Let's meet again when you have an idea, let's make a game together." I fulfilled her promise but I have never seen her again. Since that day, she has been on my mind.

We had a 11-year difference and I escaped from the classroom back in 1st grade. I ran aimlessly until I hit something *Bump*.

I heard a strange voice in my head " a y o u l o s t v a m p i r e". I guess she was mute and talking telepathically but that's what I understood

She was a high schooler. Had crimson red hair and freckles. She was a beauty.

"You escaped from your class? That's ok. School is worthless anyway." the girl told me.

The woman began telling me how she will stay here only for 6 months. She was German and came to the video game exchange program of our school. She quit school in 5th grade and began studying on her own. I couldn't believe such a person was much more intelligent than your average high schooler. Her name was Lyn, but she was thinking of changing it next year when she's 18. Everyday I would go to our secret base to learn game development, watch anime and play games together. The woman told me that I had to go beyond and look outside the box to find my true self, that we are what we believe we are. "So if I believe I have magic powers, I have them?" "Yes Melody, many of our dreams are just on our noses, we just need to make them ours. For me, you are already Melody and can't go beyond that. But do you believe that? If you never believe in the true Melody inside you, then you will never be Melody." 

She taught me so many things. She was the only true friend I ever had, until one day she told me "Take this computer and let's meet when you have any ideas."

It was around 8th grade. I already made a video game on my own and showed it at my school convention. I tried searching for her on the interwebs but I never found her. 

After that, my mental health worsened and I never saw her again. I never got an idea for a video game and forgot most of it. I took a cheap design course which I could find a circle to work with but it was futile. I never found anyone who liked my ideas.

 The woman told me that she sees me as the true Melody and I need to believe in the true Melody inside me, I wonder what she meant by that... 

Where are you strange woman? For once I thought my life was made but I'm in this hole again. I need to find her, maybe she has something I have been missing...