Ápeiron (Hanged Man's Route)
In a world where there is nothing as far as you can see, or it would be more accurate to say that this is what a man born blind would see every day since birth, this does not mean that people in these cases see black. They simply see nothing. Absolutely nothing. In this place?, time?, space?, existence?, it doesn't matter, it is completely normal for the human mind unable to comprehend what is going on to go into a state of complete shutdown as a self-defense system to protect itself from extreme panic and all kinds of horrible thoughts as if there is no heaven or hell this is where all souls end up absolute nothingness and oblivion, I am dead, this is what a certain person felt before..........,thoughts that would not let you reach the realization of rest, never more. Until the sculpture collapses in on itself and as God said (I think?) everything that comes from nothing will return to nothing.
If I had to describe how I feel it would be something similar to the 'Chinese Drop' torture. It was an extremely piercing and excruciating method of torture, which caused unbearable physical and mental pain that not only took the victim's life, but also slowly alienated them. I find myself immobilized face up or I am down, to the left or to the right it is impossible for me to know which is extremely exasperating and I am beginning to feel more and more fear, pain, horror and all kinds of indescribable sensations that invade my soul. But as ridiculous and absurd as it may sound, what scares me the most is the existential emptiness, that tranquility and peace that is completely alien to my own being, being so calm in these circumstances scares me even more, only for the fear to be swallowed by the emptiness, and not to feel anything ever again.